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Eye into my life Continued
2005-01-17 04:12:33
Well if you did not read what happend last time I am doing what I like to call a little reflection time. Its where I spill my heart and soul out to people I will never see in real life and a point where I can look back at... well me.
Well I have lived a very non normal life. I was unpopuler all through grade school, got even less popular in middle school, got unpopular then super popular in high school. Really what was public schools all about or just school in general. We made our selves feel bad because of others and sometimes other people picked on us. Well not me I never got picked on to people I did not exest. I would like to say I am sorry robert boes for picking on you a few times and not standing up for you those other few times. HAHA I did it I doubt he will ever read it but its the thought that counts.
I never liked music untill I got into high school. ya really I did not have a CD player untill my 2nd year in high school. I missed out on a lot of good songs that I am just now starting to hear every now and again. What is music to you guys? Is it something you understand relate to or something that has a good beat to it. Really that was a dumb question because if you like to hear something anything really then to you it can be a form of music. Right now the band I love is Dashboard Confessional. Sorry to the million people out there that think it all sounds the same. Thats right I enjoy them and a band called Placebo. They both kick ass check them out sometime.
The first anime I ever sat down and watched all the way through. Dragon Ball, its a great show I enjoyed dragon ball very much the kid like mind of goku as well as my man krillen I always wish he would win against a strong guy. Enough about that. Inuyasha is the show I really love. Not because of inuyasha and kagome. Its songo and miroku that I watch the show for.
Hmm sitting here at 4AM is not helping me think. I have 1 real hobby right now "a real hobby". I build, and paint models then I get to play with them when they are done. Its a true hobby due to building, converting, and painting, along with fluff "aka storyline", and game rules. The game is called Warhammer 40k its a great game/hobby. I got into the hobby because of the game now I stay in the game because of the hobby. Its funny how things turn around like that. One second something is everything to you then you relize something else is really what you wanted. Or something like that I am really sleepy now.
Oh and to end on a good note. No a GREAT note.............I dont have cancer. Yep you were told by me first. Hay take care everyone and have a great MLK day.
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Eye into my life
2005-01-17 00:59:02
Well to the 75 people that have seen my journal hi whats going on in your life? Is everything going well? Just remember its always dark when the storm is almost over. Or something like that I am not sure where I was told that or if I made it up so I guess I am sorry ether way.
Well I thought I would talk more about me in this journal. My life, dreams, and what I think about. another profile I guess but a little less then that because this is me talking about my life.
Wow where to begin. I am 21 single and have been looking for a long time. It just seems like ether I am intrested and they are not or they are intrested and I am not. Talk about unlucky. My parents pay for my college ya I am one of those kids. But the deal with my parents is I pay for my jr college and they would pay for my "real" college. I don't have a job right now. I just moved not too long ago and it feels great to be out alone like this but at the same time I feel more alone because of it because I am 4 hours away from home, 2 hours away from my brother and just all around things like that. So thinking about a girlfriend is on my mind all the time it just does not work out for me I guess.
I like to think I am a good person. Well really who would like to think of themselves as a bad person really. Not meny. I have never given anything everything I got. Not in sports, school, girls. I always stop short happy being in the middle. My first IQ test I got was a 134 I am told that is good but I don't like to look too much into it because I feel dumb all the time. Some things that go through my head is what is worse thinking your dumb or knowing your dumb. Because if you think your dumb then you can't be dumb due to your thinking about it, as for knowing your dumb there is no changing the fact and that person does not think about it.
I hate hollywood. Thats right I said it, it had to be said so I said it. Really I hate the award shows and how everything is so important. Really people you need to back off these people. They are doing a job a high paying job but a job none the less. We do not put TV crews in Wendy's because Joe Smith got employee of the month. Really chew on that people of america.
Well I am not fat out of shape not really. I try to keep active but I never practice the sports I play "soccer, hockey". People say I should have been better if I just would of tryed but I just enjoyed playing. I can play on the club team in hockey for my college but I don't like the idea of my parents paying for more then what they already are.
When I get done with college I want to work for a video game company not making games but being the IT guy for them. Keeping their computers up and going things like that. I feel working at a job you will like is the key to a happy life. So if I join up with a compainy I love then I will be happy too.
On a side note about IQs. I would like to say this about them. They are full of crap if you have a high IQ you are good at puzzles. Thats all I have to say about that.
More to come later.
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2005-01-17 00:58:45
Well to the 75 people that have seen my journal hi whats going on in your life? Is everything going well? Just remember its always dark when the storm is almost over. Or something like that I am not sure where I was told that or if I made it up so I guess I am sorry ether way.
Well I thought I would talk more about me in this journal. My life, dreams, and what I think about. another profile I guess but a little less then that because this is me talking about my life.
Wow where to begin. I am 21 single and have been looking for a long time. It just seems like ether I am intrested and they are not or they are intrested and I am not. Talk about unlucky. My parents pay for my college ya I am one of those kids. But the deal with my parents is I pay for my jr college and they would pay for my "real" college. I don't have a job right now. I just moved not too long ago and it feels great to be out alone like this but at the same time I feel more alone because of it because I am 4 hours away from home, 2 hours away from my brother and just all around things like that. So thinking about a girlfriend is on my mind all the time it just does not work out for me I guess.
I like to think I am a good person. Well really who would like to think of themselves as a bad person really. Not meny. I have never given anything everything I got. Not in sports, school, girls. I always stop short happy being in the middle. My first IQ test I got was a 134 I am told that is good but I don't like to look too much into it because I feel dumb all the time. Some things that go through my head is what is worse thinking your dumb or knowing your dumb. Because if you think your dumb then you can't be dumb due to your thinking about it, as for knowing your dumb there is no changing the fact and that person does not think about it.
I hate hollywood. Thats right I said it, it had to be said so I said it. Really I hate the award shows and how everything is so important. Really people you need to back off these people. They are doing a job a high paying job but a job none the less. We do not put TV crews in Wendy's because Joe Smith got employee of the month. Really chew on that people of america.
Well I am not fat out of shape not really. I try to keep active but I never practice the sports I play "soccer, hockey". People say I should have been better if I just would of tryed but I just enjoyed playing. I can play on the club team in hockey for my college but I don't like the idea of my parents paying for more then what they already are.
When I get done with college I want to work for a video game company not making games but being the IT guy for them. Keeping their computers up and going things like that. I feel working at a job you will like is the key to a happy life. So if I join up with a compainy I love then I will be happy too.
On a side note about IQs. I would like to say this about them. They are full of crap if you have a high IQ you are good at puzzles. Thats all I have to say about that.
More to come later.
Ian -
Check it out
2005-01-13 03:12:50
Wow classes suck. I don't mind them too much I just feel like I am in a never ending cycle of shit. Well my IQ test came back it sayed I was a 134 I guess that is good I asked like 4 people there and they did not like to talk about that stuff in front of people.
So its 3:00 AM and I am downloading bleach right now. I want to do a amv of it but no ideas are comming to mind so that is a no go. I like to think of myself as a lazy bum. I do not work, I do not study, I do homework only because I want to pass my classes, I don't eat half the time "too lazy", going to the bath room late "too lazy". I am the lazyest man alive. If I could sit and be lazy all the time and live with a computer games and live comfortably I would do it. Fuck these rich kids that think its too boaring to sit at home and do nothing. I do that shit all the time and I am happy with myself. Man oh man if only I was rich I know exactly what I would do.
Well thats if for me how about you? You feeling good. If yes then good if not well I am sorry to not hear that.
As of now I am in my second year of college I have group of friends in lansing MI. As for me though living at ferris I have 0-4 friends not sure on the exact amount. Well I have class in like 6 hours but I reall don't feel like sleeping for some reason. I wish I did not have to sleep that would be fucking great.
Well sorry for saying fuck too much or shit or cock.
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WOW
2005-01-11 00:43:37
Well I have the MRI tomarrow and I am not looking forward to it. It means I have to wait on a bed for 45 mins and do nothing. I have to be very still and bull shit like that. After that I have to go to school and pick up my books :( AH I hate spending 400 bucks on books and get 50 bucks back. Thats bull shit.
Any new AMVs from me.... nope I think the public sayed jesus "ian" you need to stop making videos. You videos are not half bad, matter a fact they are not great they are in between good and great then there is another rank above that. You know what it is called CRAZY GOOD.
Well I have nothing to look forward to right now. School and that. I have been playing world of warcraft too much. in 4 days I played for over 3 days. thats how much. As for amvs. Unless I get a muse soon I might not make another video. My effects are par the only reason people like my videsos is because the words fit the song. And I guess I am happy about that I just get pissed off I can't to better.
Naruto AMV next.... maybe in a month or so depending on how good the episodes are.
Ian
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