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2002-11-20 19:52:40
wow, 132 people have actually ready this. Thanks ya'll (so Texan I know, but I can't resist) I might actually start writing more often, who knows... Life is the same. I'm bout tired of Drawing class. If anyone thinks it is easy.....I don't think so. This is drawing I and it feels more like drawing III. I don't think the teach has the right idea in his head as far as what Drawing I should be, or he thinks that we actually learn something of drawing in highschool.... I don't know bout you folks who took art in highschool, but I didn't learn a thing....mostly because I didn't take an actual class. I got the credit through a self paced thingy which was really easy.
The new journal layout is funky, more compact.....don't konw if I like it or not.
I'm finnaly getting started on my video. My "first" music video that involves actual anime. I'm using NGE. I know I know.....but I can't resist. The idea I had was sooo nifty. I'm using Mozart's 9th Symphony Choral Finnale, only 1:32 sec or something like that, with scenes of Asuka winning battles. I know it is gonna be short, and maybe shouldn't even be called a music video. But I thought that since I'm so new at this, I should start out small. Then get bigger. (a lil bit of spoiler coming, so don't read if you haven't watched all of NGE) If you don't know what that song is, think of the last few eps of NGE, when Asuka is sent top-side for that one angel in space that couldn't be reached, and then it all-of-a sudden just started blasting this music at her, making her go nuts-o....yep, you guessed it. (at least I think that is it.......dunno, I'ma gonna have to watch it again.)
Oh well, guess I otta get back at least attempting like I'm doing my job.....This is so great. I get paid to sit around....I never thought I'd get tired of it,.... but man, it does get boring. Oh well, back to attempting-to-look-like-I'm-working-and-getting-paid-for-it. -
starburst.....urk
2002-11-07 20:52:12
ha.....I ate a whole buncha starburst....and now my stomach is gurgling in ways it wasn't meant to. But man they were good. Don't read my last entry unless you enjoy people who wallow in self pity.
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another day another boon
2002-11-07 19:25:10
don't ask...... This sucks.. leading the life of a looser really takes its toll after a while. I don't go anywhere but school and work. I have one single friend whith whom I do things with. I talk to people and stuff, I try to be a nice guy. But after that there is nothing. I sit in front of my computer, wishing I could get the gumption to start a video. But then I chicken out and play counter-strike, or mess with 3ds max 4. I'd like to make an Armitage III video, I just don't know where to start. This blows.
Only 4 weeks of school left. Damn college flys; and I'm not even having alot of fun like my last semester of highschool. All my classes are screwed up because my advisors said to do one thing, counselor said to do another, and I ended up screwing myself taking some classes that I should have taken during the summer. Like math, and speech. Now I have to wait till next semester to take a class that is a prerequisite for a whole shitload of other classes I will need to take. GRRRRRRRRR.....*pant pant*
I wish I could get out more....but I don't know what to do. Everywhere I go people stare at me. I may not be that good looking but I sure as hell ain't the hunchback of notre dam. Maybe I'm worse...cause in the end even he gets some recognization. Some people say that I should just go to a club and sit in a corner, someone is bound to walk up to me there.....ya. that someone would most likely be drunk (cuz there isn't a club around here that don't serve alcohol) I can't stand drunk people. If it isn't that then it is someone else who has no interest in me, but wants my seat or something like that. That is how my luck is, I don't even have to go out to try it. I just know it would be like that. That and I would feel really ackward (did I spell that right?) being in a place like alone. I can't stand being the guy in the corner, I'd rather be the guy who doesn't even bother trying on a hopeless cause.
Maybe it is this whole "I'm a looser attitude that is giving me bad mojo". This "pity me" attitude shit thingy. I don't know. I don't need pity. Misery doesn't love company, its got its own problems. Bah. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore....
ok, enough with spillin my guts. If you actually read all of this, I sincerely apologize for wasting such precious moments of your life. Your time would have been better spent elsewhere.
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2002-11-02 14:19:20
my computer works...all that waiting is done.....and I draw a blank. I had all these ideas for a videoto make, so many different things I could do, and learn. Now I can't think of a single damn thing. This sucks. I've been moping about all morning trying to thing of something....anything. But it seems as if my creativeness has expired along with my medication...I need to refill that sometime.... bah.
Just watched ShonnenDizyCow's Evangelion Opus video....I cry when thinking about how I would like to make something like that....but I don't think I could ever get to be like that. I hate myself. -
bah
2002-11-01 14:15:41
sittin here again...at work....bored stiff.. there is probably something I oculd be doing but they don't pay me nearly enough to take the initiative to actually find something to do.. I already do too much sometimes I think.
Have I mentioned how much I hate this city....I desparately want to be away from here. But where I would go has yet to unveil itself to me. Dallas would be cool but I think I'd rather tie myself to train tracks before I drive on the highway there.. I'm way to sketchy for that.
Got a new computer...woot. I settled on building myself a AMD 2200 1.8 gig beast with 256 DDR ram, an Albatron 4600 GeForce 4 128mb Graphics card (I can finnaly play the UT2K3 demo,...and its about like Q3...kinda sucked) with an 80 gig hard drive.... now that I have this beige box of power, lovingly dubbed, Gilgamesh....(don't ask), I might be able to make some better AMV's. I've got the whole set of Neon Genesis Evangeion (the ending was right and sucked sooooooo bad at the same time) and I've been thinking of a video for it....sorta. I dunno. Guess I ought to see if it has been done before, seing as how Evangelion is the most popular anime (in all time I believe), my idea might have already been thought of..
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