- Krangle! 2002-03-28 08:52:21 Hey, EK, I know exactly what you mean (I think). I have been hired by someone to write a computer program, and no matter what I do I cannot get the ffort up to actually work on the damn thing. And I can't work on anything else because I'm overrun with guilt about how I should be working on the paying project (which, I might add, is months overdue). In addition, it's for a relative of a friend, so I would feel terrible backing out of it. There are so many things I want to work on; Three different music videos, my web site, taking pictures, finding a real job, etc. And as a result of not being able to do the one thing, I end up not doing any of them and wasting my time. A vicious cycle is what it is. Vicious I tell ya. Vicious.
- Word 2002-03-28 08:15:08 Word: whet
- Pain... :-( 2002-03-28 01:59:45 Later on today, I have to go to an oral surgeon to get wisdom teeth removed. All 4 I think...I am SO not looking forward to this. They don't even hurt, but in a week I turn 19 and I won't be covered under my parents' insurance anymore because I don't go to college. So as much as I would LOVE to put this off, I can't. They're all under the gums too....which means lots of cutting, and I presume, lots of pain when I wake up. ::sigh:: This SUCKS.
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Wow you've sold me. What is it?
2002-03-27 04:50:20
Ohayoo.
Here I am. Just sitting here, 7:24 AM, up from the night before. As usual. I have such erratic sleeping patterns. This 24 hour day just DOES NOT WORK. I'm not shouting. It's just that capitals are only form of emphasis available in this medium. I've decided to add a word to my journal entries. Maybe not every day, maybe more than once day, maybe not every entry. So it's not a 'word of the day' or a word of anything, just a word, and so it will be labeled as so:
Word: Buss
That's the word I chose for this entry.
I'm listening to Fiona Apple. The album "When the Pawn Hits the Conflict he Thinks Like a King..." I've liked Fiona for quite some time...yet I only ever heard two of her songs. I guess it's about time I listen to the rest of the album. I like it. A lot, in fact.
Contact me. Use the contact page on my website. E-Mail me. Say hi. Whatever. Are you one of those people who feels uneasy about doing something like that? I am. Do it anyway. Please?
Did you ever feel like your personality doesn't match your own personality? That question might sound a little paradoxical, or self-referential, and when taken too literally, it is. But I assure you it's a valid question. That's the generalized form of the question, the pure, refined version. It's really asking something more like...did you ever feel like parts of your personality could not be properly 'executed' or 'expressed' by your own personality, or yourself? Eh, forget it. No matter how many times I try to pick the right words in my head to describe this, none of them are all that accurate. I keep going back to the original wording of the question. I thought writing it out might help, but.....no. So do you think you might be able to relate at all? Tell me about it. <-- Literal command. -
Nice rant Sixstop
2002-03-26 16:41:16
Those last two journal entries were so true. I couldn't agree more. I have been ranting about stupid peopel like this for the last 3 years, and pisses me off so much that these people exist to poison our society further. It reminds me of the story of a girl named Katie Sierra, who got suspended from school for simply asking the principal if she could start an Anarchist's club and for wearing t-shirts with political messages on them that she wrote which oppose the US bombing of Afghanistan. The slogan that got her in trouble was "When I saw the dead and dying Afghani children on TV, I felt a newly recovered sense of national security. God Bless America." That is fucking beautiful. And now, from geting so much ridicule from her 'peers' she has to be home schooled and eveything. It's sad really, this country...when sometries to have an intelligent non-conformist though, they're ridiculed, laughed at, harrassed, and othwerwise opposed from everyone else.
In closing, I HATE PEOPLE.
The article can be read here:
http://www.illegalvoices.org/katiesierra/
or there is a first person article in the (I think) March issue of Seventeen Magazine.
JOURNAL: Gimpy (Brian Scholer)
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