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/me hyperventilates
2006-08-18 10:04:58
Ok, so I'm gasping for air because I'm so full... had Indian food tonight... tonnes of it... me and a couple of my other friends pigged out (the table did end up looking like a pig sty afterwards).
Anyway... teh internets is broken!
So...
JOIN THE MANIFEST AMV COMPETITION! -
burnt out
2006-08-17 02:01:22
I think I need to start playing games... anything...
Ok, so I'm unemployed... no big deal, I have the rest of my life ahead of me and I've been studying for the past 16 years of it. I deserve a break, don't I?
Sure I do, but you know, it feels like I haven't actually gone on a break... Manifest is pretty much kicking into high gear now and boy am I ever busy. Writing scripts, making videos and prepping the sources for the Iron Chef competition. And I haven't even received all of the AMV competition entries which will come flooding in at the end of this month I hope @_@
So much to do... it's not that I don't have time to do them... on the contrary, I have plenty of time still... but I feel so much energy bursting out of me that I need to let it out this way... tis why I thought about games cos they also usually do the trick, but the problem is, I'm not really that much of a gamer anymore...
JOIN THE MANIFEST AMV COMPETITION... NOW!!!!!!!!!!! -
Rummaging...
2006-08-15 13:15:16
Ok, so I was rummaging today on my Opinions Given list, looking through videos in which people have responded to my opinion. I managed upon jub's response to my opinion of her Air video... The link is below since she made my opinion public but I'm copy-pasting part of her response here too:
"WOW. You really were waxing poetic, there! :) Girls love that stuff. lol. "
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/opinions/opinion_info.php?vid_id=101821
Jub, you just made my day... pity I'm sleeping in an hour so the rest of the day is over XD -
A different kind of... thing
2006-08-15 03:50:08
Well well well... so this is how it feels like... to be one of the the...
Mr. Poopy Pants!
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I feel I must explain...
2006-08-13 10:46:03
An analysis of the day must be written down, I think...
I don't care if anyone will will actually read this or even care or say something in response to it. But then again, when has that ever bothered me? All I know is that sometimes to unwind, to fully grasp a meaning behind something, one must take a step back and look at it from a distance... and so this is one of those things.
So the day started as I planned, more or less... I had intended to wake up a little earlier but of course being the night person that I am, had difficulty doing that. So I was up at about 10:50AM... early enough... mainly because I had a Manifest Organising Committee (MOC) meeting today at 1PM.
I had also intended to, well, simply put, to just impose a sort of meet up with Sun today. See, for the past month or more, I haven't seen her. The last time I've actually seen her was in the Eminence Concert where there was a moment that I probably mentioned in here at some point (not bad mind you, just a moment missed).
Anyway, I text messaged her on ye olde mobile as soon as I got in the city which was roughly around 1:30PM, telling her that I was in town and we should catch a movie this evening. And so I spent my day in that meeting till 5PM with my phone remaining responose free.
Nothing... she didn't even message back to say "sorry, I can't, I'm busy with this uni project I have to finish" or some other excuse like that. At least that would have been the kind thing to do, right?
So I as soon as my train came at 5PM, I leapt in to it, sat down and started sulking... well, as sulking as I could really get since I don't sulk. I don't really know how. What I was basically doing was thinking things like, "man, if she doesn't respond to my advances to her by such and such time, I think I'll just move on and take it as a sign that she doesn't want to be with me," or "oh, Abigail is nice, maybe I should give her a call in a short while since I'm available anyway, heck, why not call her tomorrow, ha! better yet, if you see her in MSN tonight, ask if she's seeing anybody at the moment..."
Yeah... that's me sulking... inside my head...
But at 5:30PM, half way to home, still in the rumbling train I felt my pants vibrate >.>
It was her... well, it was her message in my phone (stop thinking dirty thoughts). It said, "Sorry, I couldn't answer, I was in RMIT Open Day helping out here. I think I'm too tired to go out tonight."
RMIT is the Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology, her university and Open Day was basically a day promoting the university to prospective students and such. She couldn't answer me straight away. She didn't ignore me after all... not that I've actually ever experienced her ignoring me before.
It was strange then. My thoughts and, well, feelings I guess, took a somewhat 180 degree turn. To put it in a way, I guess what I was sort of in the mindset at that point was that "ok, I forgive you for making me feel that way," and proceeded immediately to message her back saying it was ok and maybe next time.
The "sulking" that I was doing previously sort of felt laughable at that point. I'm so confused that I could be made to feel that way and then completely erase it when I get the reason. See I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say here.
One moment, I was right about ready to give up on her... the next I was saying, "ja, next time then." Gah, even writing it down here isn't making it sense for me. Does this actually mean I like her enough to feel hurt that she wasn't responding to a simple message? Or that I didn't care nearly enough since I was quick to think those things?
What am I even suppose to do?
I just finished watching PlantES today and I gotta say I was immensely pleased with how it all ended. Quite in my top 20 anime I reckon. Anyway, the series ends with some very profound ideas and messages of love... maybe what I'm feeling now, the confusion and crap are just something from the show, transferred to my rather tired day of waiting.
You know, the most frustrating thing about today was that I was in Melbourne Central all day for my meeting. She was in the city campus of RMIT. These places were literally across the street from each other. At one point, I was out on that street looking for a good ramen place. I could very well have just crossed the street there and spent the day with her in her Open Day work... if only she messaged me she was there...
Add that to your confusion bucket @_@
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