- best thing that's ever happened... 2005-08-14 04:46:17 ok due to extreme luck and the fact i haven't touched it for ages, premiere has mysteriously become partially functional. i will first use it to finish my current project, 'Bittersweet memories' which should be prepared within a week or two. from there i'll see if it is capable of finishing my other projects.
- additional... 2005-08-10 03:47:14 just an added extra note to my rant about anger and pain... yet another editing program is dieing on me due to a ridiculously poor computer. at this rate, this will be my 4th project that will remain permanently incomplete. my chances for having this ready and handed in by manifest are slim to nothing... i hate, everything...
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Why is this happening...
2005-08-10 02:25:21
Hello to which ever poor souls are reading this morose entry...
something odd has started to happen to me over the past week. Something about being in AMVience is tearing me apart. i was overjoyed at the chance to be a part of it, and being so closely acquanted with Infinity Squared, YuesWoman and OropherZero sounded so nice. i thought it would finally be my chance to stand beside them all on equal footing.
somehow, i guess i misjudged something though. it's not how i thought it would be. even though we are all one studio, i can't help but feel the tension there. it's like everyone seems to have their own secret agenda. more so than this, is working so closely with them all has really made it a clear not how inferior a producer i am to them all. ever thread in the forum, every post on the events page has their names scrawled across it with marvelous achievements, people glorifying them and their work, and their much-awaited new released videos.
i can't help but feel out of place there. i make videos rarely and slowly, i'm clearly known to be the 'lowest-ranking' of us, and some have almost painted me as riding the coat tails of the other 3. i haven't finished any of my last 3 projects nor released a project since february, i've never entered an amv competition, and i've got relatively nothing to show for almost four years dedication to a hobby. every program i cross seems to have a personal grudge against me, which slows my production two fold.
call me crazy but this is tearing me up. i used to make amvs for fun, but since i've heard about people winning things and rolling around in glory it's made me angry and envious. this is not the way i want to think about amvs. i don't know... i'll think this over for a while and maybe see what happens after i release my next vid. but if things still aren't feeling right i may ask to leave the studio, unless i'm kicked out before that... -
still here...
2005-08-02 03:29:45
Just a quick note today. i have finished the intro for my current AMV and i've now completed just over a minute of work on the timeline. i'm still not going to announce the series or song, but i will say this;
This video is to be my first video as a part of AMVience Studios.
It will also be my first drama/romance amv
The song i am using fits the series well, and has only been made into an amv once, and with a different series. -
Good news, and bad news...
2005-07-24 18:24:09
Ok my past few days have been flooded with ups and downs.
The first up was getting to talk with two winners of the AV-Con amv competition (Lockstock and Elisabeth from Epical Studios). The interview, as it was called, is available to read on the AMVience website, and it was a delight to talk to them.
The first down was the loss of my first video i was making on PowerDirector 3. i never held the program in high regard, largely because i disliked the lack of effects in comparison to Adobe Premiere.
The next up was that InfinitySquared informed me of many effects i had overlooked on powerdirector, and i was somewhat uplifted (but i did feel stupid XD).
The next down is that i need to upgrade powerdirector to obtain these features.
the final up was that i managed to make a start on a new amv on powerdirector (despite still lacking effects) and that is coming along quite well. the result will be my first drama/romance amv (with maybe a hint of action just so people know it's still me XD), so i hope for the best.
the final down was about 2 minutes ago when i discovered a new opinion on my brothers amv, which i am deeply regretting uploading under my profile, as it has dragged my opinion average down yet again. so my goalo of reaching above the global average is now further away than ever... goddammit >.<
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