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I'm so shred into pieces
2009-09-29 05:14:47
I'm so down now. I'll never get over it or it will take me years again. A broken heart feels so shitty and I really don't know what I should do against it. I hate it.
I feel like a worthless bag of crap. Some days ago I thought like: "Hey, I was quite a bit too much into the edge of a depression, but I made it. I can deal with it better now."
I just can't. Did you ever meet somebody how got so damn close to your dream partner? Did you? My inner self is just a mess.
Help me. I'm broken and I need you to fix me, but telling her would make it only worse... -
The internet, Bauzi and Scientology
2009-09-28 15:52:08
@Vivaldi:
That's how the internet works. It's the home of hypocrits and wannabes. At least the wannabes get their place with second life, but you still humble too often about these pseudo intellectual morons.
@Code (Scientology)
Oh oh! I almost forgot to tell a story months ago. Religions... HA! You know... me and my ex-gf wanted some fun and randomly went into a church of Scientology. Yeah and we watch this 1 hour trailer movie out of curiosity.
I tell you something: The basic theory behind it, is anything else than dumb. Actually it could be a really cool thing. It's about training yourself to become soemthing more without fears, mind-boundaries, with a trained body and healthy way to live. Seriously there was great stuff in it. Everything that will let you have a successfull, happy and healthy life.
However... We all know: Scientology wants your money. Leave out the money, the brainwashing (I can't deny it. There is for sure some of it) and the religion and you will have a GREAT living style.
It's like a circle of psychologist. Yeah I think that describes it the best way.
Religion and money flaws it. Religion is the opium in it that keeps you in the "church". Did you ever saw this Scientology-Southpark episode? Yes they really believe in this crap xD
Oh oh! @Brainwash: It even begins with some sort of test. You make the test and find out if you're a crap of a person and need to join. Hell... The outcome of this test is really only: You're crap!
They didn't made me join it for sure, but at least it's interessting and they are now my #1 sect in the world. LoL! That sounds wired =D
My advice: Watch this movie, but DON'T join! Or you have tons of money and like to get brainwashed ;D
Oh there was one really point were I highly disagree: They don't believe in mental diseases. The deny theire existens. That's a really bad thing. John Travolta's son died because he didn't got the right medical help because of it. -
2009-09-27 17:53:55
Please help with my After Effects installation/deinstallation problem:
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=47&t=96575
I'm getting desperate. -
2009-09-24 18:24:29
After Effects friggin' died:
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=47&t=96575
Oh and I have a new profile pic! It's still Killy from Blame!, but it's in colour now :3
Wait... what do you see in my profile? Maybe is it... could it really be? A new video that you might have waited for ages? Mhmm.... Yeah it finally got released, but I bet that upload will take some time xD -
2009-09-22 19:25:14
Nine Inch Nails is an endless torrent of inspiration.
I was looking for some accoustic versions of two songs to mix them together for a video. Than I humbled across remixes.nin.com and come along a remix that had exactly (!) the transition of the two songs that I had in mind. GREAT! Awesome luck?
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