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... more signs of hope for Bauzi´s love? No way! oO
2006-11-05 17:10:45
Bauzi once again:
Yes I had a short, but nice chat with my ex and Iīm happy. Yes Iīm happy to see, that she is still alive and that she doesnīt ignore me. *few* She still cares about me.
I was a long time worried about her if she didnīt do suicide or such things. Ok sounds silly to you, but that is the way I was think. I was all for and she lost me because of silly little thing we couldnīt change and, that there was so many pressure on her.
As I said: "We met for the wrong time"
Also: She never lied to me and everything was true she was telling me. That were no lies for quitting our relationship. I see new hope to come together with here. I want her as friend at least! Nobody understood me better as her!
The story between us is still complicated and I will see her... The earliest days will be the beginning of december. :/
I wish, that I would never met her before and that I would meet her for the first time on these days. Sometimes I really hate my life.
Oh god I know, that I am not your biggest fan at all, but would you please if you donīt mind?
Why do she and I have always to suffer...
A few words about editing:
Exams comeing up the next two weeks and I donīt have so much sparetime, but I am still on my current project. Donīt worry about that. -
? and Austria will be the p2p paradies
2006-11-02 15:23:23
Bauzi again:
Amen... You people seam to like our journal? I think you do, because I have made not many entries and there are a lot of hits in my eyes. Well that is cool! Or you only want to laught at a Austrian, that writes terrible English ;P
Ok todays topic:
OMG my country maybe becomes a paradise for all illegal p2p users. :shock: It is fucking amazing. If you have a flat rate in Austria, your IP-adress will NOT be saved. Dynamic IP-adresses are now seen as private data. So: It is against the rights to use them or spy you out. The provider will only save them if you had a exchange of money (like ot buy something via the net).
That is all a suggestion by the data-protection-agency.
I canīt read it out if this is activ now, or comeing up, but it seams like it is already up.
and Mac gets a flat rate '_' -
Bauzi´s real life project calling...
2006-10-31 19:01:45
Yes it is my (Bauzi) life that is calling me for some action again. After
nearly 3 months after my great love quitted, I still feel said and not
good. I think, that Iīve feeled this way before I met her, but now I
know for what I have waited 19 years and also I now today what I am
missing. The story about my love was a beautiful one and ended in a
really said and tragic way and in the end... nobody of us was guilty
about this split. We met in the wrong time. :/
Loseing the only person you loved and still love is a crapy feeling. I
feel like an old man, that lost his wife, but we were only for 2 months
together...
Anyway I have new plans about this! Ok I want her back and maybe she wants
me back, but doesnīt know it or knows it. However I want her at least
as friend back and if there is comeing up more and the old feelings,
than I will say: "thank you". But as I said, I want her at least as friend
and if it doesnīt happen more, I will be happy that we are still friends.
I am complicated and I donīt think, that a lot of people understand me.
I understand her and she understands me. Wonderful feeling! To have a
person, that accept you as you are and more: loves you the way you are...
So I havenīt met her for 3 months and didnīt speaked to her for 1.5 months.
:/ She said, that it will be a long time untill we meet again and there
is maybe 1 month before more.
But sonely I will write a SMS (thx to god for this technology), that I
want her as friend at least.
Love of my life come back to me and if not... stay as friend with me.
I hope you are fine...
It is a strange feeling of desirer, fear, joy and frustraten in my mind
and body. I donīt wish anybody me situation...
Do you know a "Deftone"īs album? I bought the new comeing out record today
and you can say, that I am like the whole music in it.
I am sry, that I donīt write our whole story here, but it is to long and
said. If there is an happy end (and for godīs sake I hope so!) it could
be a B-romance-movie in TV.
Wish me luck!
THX go to Mac, who makes me laught when I am down... -
Status
2006-10-24 11:08:00
Aww... The journal gets more and more emo, but here are news from new amvs and projects:
-Bauzi:
"Insane" was cutted to 3 min because it was too hard and intensive. A ressource eater... Anyway good in progress 33% done
Yeah... uhm animes used: Rahxephone and "Eyeless" performed by Slipknot. Really fast psycho amv. Mhmm... ^^'
-Mac:
Working on a project with Black Lagoon and "City of death" performed by Powerman 5000. Rocks!
New Programms:
FXHome Por 0.O (But only trial)
looking forward to get After Effects in this or next month
Cya all! -
Austria, Austria, Austria...
2006-10-22 15:23:26
OK after a journey into my emo and lame mind ( :P ) I will talk about
Austriaīs youth.
We are generaly a youth of non anime lovers. -.-' Yes it is true the
most people donīt like them, because they think, that they are childish.
You canīt really see animes in our public tv. Yes there was some light
in this genre, but not for long and also with not so good quality.
I can remember a week, where there was Dragon Ball on TV. Next week there
was no DB again :/ Also around 10 years ago, there was Sailormoon for a
long time. Also Mila Superstar and the Pokemon movies. Nothing more...
Yeah there is now Card Captor Sakura and I am thankful for it.
On the other hand there is german tv and the most austrian people can
watch it and there is playing shit around 11am and 3pm :/ Just like
YGO or Naruto (cutted down for 6 year old with a sync directly from hell)
DBZ, Pokemon (the show one gig around 5 times -.-'), One Piece (well that
is pretty good for german standart =D ). The good stuff is always around
midnight: GitS, Gantz, Hellsing... :/ No wonder, that the most think, that
it is very childish to watch anime... Highlight: Jin-Roh and Ghost in the
Shell (1) at primetime in tv. That was a really glory day for me!
Uhm... yeah thats all. In Austria there are still animefans, but also
a lot haters. :/
Next time I will talk about Austria`s yout about "going out", alk and so on...
JOURNAL: Bauzi (Bernd Schäffer)
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