- Everything is relativ, but vodka is absolut. 2007-03-30 06:39:09
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2007-03-26 16:17:26
Bah! My favorite bands are under represented and thatīs kinda strange because they are awesome for amvs.
So the plan for the next amv stays, concept is clear but needs more fine tuning, the anime is fixed (and letīs get this footage), the programs are hungry.
Uhm... Ok I first need to finish my current project. Shouldnīt be a problem. There are now the segments that will be the most fun of the whole project.
-Bauzi -
Kaxi,...
2007-03-23 03:01:28
Sry but I think thatīs naiv. Thatīs one of the reasons most relationsships do not work. Why should I turn my back on a thing I really like and maybe still love?
It would make me a coward after all if I give up.
-Bauzi -
dada: Life is unfair and you all know that!
2007-03-22 16:15:13
So should I be happy or said now? Uhm... I guess... letīs say happy at least a bit.
I sms-ed a bit with my ex and she doesnīt ignore me and we had a nice chat. I think itīs just true that we do understand each other very good and when the world would be alright we would be together.
So what blocks us or makes it a bit impossible?
Her job. Yes her job. She lives on a countryside were you take more care of your job. You canīt get a new one that easily. What you need there is a car with a driving license.
The bad thing is that she doesnīt have time for that because of work =/
Overall: No time for the driving lessons no time for me. FUCK IT! Thatīs just unfair. I canīt see the love of my life because of nearly ridicolous things. Well ok when we split up the problems were not ridicolous at all...
At least. I got invited to her 20th birthday party. So when her chef doesnīt give her holidays at this week. I... I... ARGH!
Good, I invited her, her cousin and a friend of her to my 20th party when I do one with my friends (srsly 5 of my friends have birthday at this single week =D !). I told her that they have the possibility to sleep at my house.
Well if we finally come together at she sleeps with me at my bed, hey! Nothing to complain... there doesnīt have to be something like sex. Just wakeing up together thatīs one of my dreams and things I miss.
You know. Yesterday I had a dream about our meating at a small party and yes we came together again. All the time I was asking myself while dreaming or I said to myself: "Is this real? It canīt be real..." But I lost the inner fight and finally thought that it was reality.
I wake up... take a look around and find myself in the truth again. .-.
I hate those dreams. I want to dream something funny or entertaining. If you dream something beautiful you just wake up and find yourself in a mass or a at least not perfect world. Bullshit...
Relax, sit down on your sit and enjoy your own mess you are living in and just hope for better times. `cause in the end you know that this is the only thing you can do now.
Song of the moment?
I guess Nine Inch Nails with Perfect Drug says everything.
-Bauzi .-. - 2007-03-22 12:23:19 Iīm fuckinīn nervous right now .-.
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