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"Weren't you talking big about a short movie comeing out at the end of October?"
2011-11-24 10:27:43
You bet I was!
Sadly you can't pay the bills with a student project, so jobs have priority number one. Also I still don't have my new pc system and editing a 1080p shortfilm on a laptop is a chore.
Anyway I will probably meet up with a sounddesigner next week and we will overhaul the audio (maybe even 5.1 awesomeness?). There! I have a good reason to postpone it! My confidence tells me that this will be a festival winner, once we mastered the sound in this film.
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"Bauzi. You Sir are one manipulative tricky bastard. I salute you!" - Paranormal Activity 3
2011-11-23 16:21:09
Of course I am! Today I was wondering how subliminal socialy manipulative I became without noticing. Today I mimik one of my female friends (She's cool, but I want nothing from her) when I sat next to her in class. I was thinking to myself: "Come on! Stop it!". It didn't help. A few minutes later I did it again. It starts with mimiking the way you sit.
Than again I mimik most of my friends in language. It goes so far that I developed different accents for different groups of people. lol
It's okay. It's not sad or anything. The people would still like me. However my subconsiouses developed this behavior. I heard about things like that around 4 years ago. It goes so far that my last ex told me: "It's obvious that you were together with X. Some phrases are totally like her." (They are good friends, so they know each other)
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But I do manipulate people! Oh of course I do. I just presented my best sides to my new lovely fellow, that she probably likes. Everybody does that, right? It's like advertising: "You see this? You want more of it? You can have it ;D ... btw. you want it! *hypnotize*"
So I was picking last time my Batman t-shirt... Today I presented my awesome Monthy Python's ministry of silly walks t-shirts (and she recognizes it! Oh how I like her :D ). I'm still honest. I won't lie to anything. I just show myself as I am. Certain parts. I should stop like this before it feels to set up, unnatural and planned (what it totally is....*cough*). Being some douche whose unnatural is shitty. I'm still real and natural, but in all honesty... where's the fun if everything is planned? I really should stop that. Maybe it's my way to deal with shynes. Makes me more comfortable, but I guess things could get pretty bad and not comfortable if plans don't go well. Maybe it's dangerous?
Whatever! She would have dated me anyway. She would have liked me anyway. So who cares? Trick somebody in likeing you? Nope I don't. I just speed things up a little bit.
Wednesday. Going to the movies. Paranormal Activity 3! HA! Oh I saw that movie yesterday and watching it again with a cute girl (all alone in the cinema maybe?) and knowing all the shocking moments will be hilarious and fun! And I will be so shocked again. Yesterday I was all alone in the whole movie and sometimes I really screamed:
"Shit shit SHIT!" "FUUUUUUUUUCK!" ***(1
Oh this movie is so immersive xD To be honest: If it wouldn't be immersive it would be probably a real crappy movie. It's somehow cheap. It makes you afraid of geting shocked with jumpscares in a brutal way. It doesn't make you afraid of the things you see in the movie (in my opinion!).
For example: In the movie "It" you get creeped out and scared of the clown. btw. I think it is THE horrorfilm. Seriously. Just the end is really crappy.
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Oh about plans! What if the movie won't be in the cinema when we go out? It doesn't matter I will still go out with her! It would be perfedic not to do it because some plan doesn't work out. -
Life... you're kidding me, right?
2011-11-20 19:37:42
Oh sooo ironic!
So my ex broke up with me because of time and distance issues. To be honest it's totally understandable for me, but my emotional site probably doesn't believe int rational things and that makes this sometimes quite ugly for me. So I'm all like:
"I'm stuck in here. I have to live next to Vienna, because of my college and job chances. Nobody (-> females) near me interests me at all. They are not interessted in me. There probably is no one who fits to me. Life is unfair." blah blah blah
Do you know this feeling? You're a geek with special interests and your friends are far far away? I do have lots of friends here. My geeky friends are not. =(
Since the last two years I just shuttle between home and Vienna because of jobs and education. It's 3 hours per day that I need to travel to in Vienna (back & forth). That wasn't much of a big deal since I used to do my regular TV show and movie consumption on train (all episodes of Southpark in 4 months ftw...).
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Beside some other things I came to the conclusion to just move up to Vienna. My job here? 10 hours per week for minimum wadge... My friends? Spend most time in Vienna anyway? My parents? They are okay, but people that I don't want to live with. Our value system has major differences. So time to move on!
Get my things packed and let's go to Vienna! I will share an 180m2 apartment with one of my best friends for 250 per month. That's a ridicolous low rent. You won't even get a 60m2 apartment in Vienna for that money. We have so much space that we even have a guest room, greenbox and equipment storage. lololol It's that cheap because his parents own the house. God... I will love our living room with fullHD projector.
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Sounds great? and THAN it happens:
I was still weakend after my break up and we got a new fellow at work. She's gorgeous! One of those woman that I meat that make me go: "OMG! Who is this? Who is this!?" There are just some people who have a big firs impact on me. Than I was like: "Alright. She maybe just looks so damn cute, but let's wait for her personality to come out. Probably another generic mainstream like girl (I seak for special people who make me interessted in them)."
... She's a geek. She's into film. She likes me. She looks so damn nice and cute. Has humour. Has surprising coincidences with me and my personality. AAAAAAAHHHH!
What? I move away from here? I quit my job to move on to a whole different city? BLARGH... Life... you must be jokeing! That's soooooo mean. This is just one girl where everything in me screams: Take the shot you fool! At all costs: Don't let her get away.
At least she is in the same situation as me. Travels between here and Vienna because of education. Oh it's the film biz. She will probably have to move up to Vienna anyway.
What am I even talking here. Time to date her! Acta non verba. Oh well I'm so shy and this is certainly a new way to get close to somebody. It helps that I will move to Vienna just next month. It gives me more time. When it works out, it's just a matter of time and distance. Time and distance? .... yeah that again .... I already was in the situation with a girlfriend in Vienna. So this time it might just be the other way around? As I said: Life must be jokeing.
Geting to know a new person is a good thing on many points. It will make me move on from my past relation ship. Probably set this one back to good friendship. Starting relationships out of good friendships is great, but when it's over you just loose somebody. Not only love, but a real and true friend and that's the sad thing. I will probably never start a relationship again out of a good friendship. Love comes and go, true friends are forever. -
OH COME ON!
2011-11-19 09:31:44
Dear Bauzi514,
Your video, [Full HD] Fantrailer - Ghost Runner - The Final Cut - Ghost In The Shell X BladeRunner - 1080p, may have content that is owned or licensed by Warner Bros..
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Yeah? You know what? It's a friggin trailer audio of a movie that is even older than me! God damn it... Whiners... When they shut this video down, than I'm pissed really pissed. Let's hope that they just place some adds or something. -
2011-10-24 15:42:32
Now I'm totally amazed about how stressfull my film chourse is. One of my friends collapsed today! Hes not the first. A second one collapsed some weeks ago and one other got hear rythmic disorder (or however you call it in English). I think that means quite a lot if you are only 23 students.
Actually how did I managed to not get burn out syndrome this year?
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