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To address my friends...
2003-11-13 06:08:34
I hope you guys see this sometime. ^_^
Chaos Angel: I've already talked to you, I know, and thanks for the offer of support. Even venting on a video game is good enough. ^_^;; I appreciate your concern.
Misty: I *really* hope things get better for you. So many people right now, it seems, are going through bad times but it seems to be the worst for you. It might not mean much, but you know you've got a friend in me. ^_~ I really appreciate all the help, advice, and support you've given over the past... 18 months (maybe?)... and I'm thankful to have found a friend in you.
KhayotiK: I applaud your change in attitude after attending that convention. Introspection and reflection often lead to good things if such thought is provoked under good circumstances. Here's to turning over a new leaf (of sorts)... *raises glass*
(sorry for anyone I missed, it's 6 am and I'm almost tired)
I don't know where my life is going from here. We all have to fight at times in our life, I suppose, and I think that time might be near for me. But I can't do anything with no motivation, no? -_-;; But I know I will have to get off my ass soon.
Good luck to you all, and thank you. -
Awesome...
2003-11-09 18:16:51
My second night back home and I can tell I'm already unwanted. This fucking rocks. Hooray for family I can't stand!
I'd rather be $100,000 in debt than have to live with them for another year. -
Well...
2003-11-06 23:20:49
I've dropped, I need more money. And I'm going home tomorrow, to a family that bugs me to no end. If it weren't for all the kitties, I'd go insane. And then of course, I get to start working again.
IF YOU CAN'T TELL I'M VERY HAPPY -
Damnit all
2003-10-20 14:32:10
Alright so... I need more sleep. But first I've got Japanese. And I'm seriously considering dropping college so I can get a job and actually afford it first. That's the problem of being raised in an extremly poor family. I might go to a community college to get my gen eds out of the way but right now I'm just really really really tired and lonely.
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What am I doing here?
2003-10-20 08:15:43
Seriously. I need to take a step back and think about this. I have no confidence in myself and I've been up all night worrying... christ, I'm not like this. I'm all happy and shit. But I'm not interested in any of my classes except Japanese and that class is tearing me apart because I've got ADD and for once in my life and I can't get medication. I'm tired of worrying and not caring at the same time. I don't even know if college is right for me. I know I can write, I know I can live on my own... I've been doing that for years. I could get a part-time job and cultivate my writing, studying things on my own. If only I didn't know for a fact that no matter what's in my head and what ideas I have and what ambitions I want to follow, those are all only as good as what college tells me I've got.
I'm so sick and I've got to go to all my classes but I don't think I'm going to take anything away from them because I just think they're so stupid. I just need to be more realistic. I honestly told my teacher flat-out that the reason I didn't write the first paper was because I thought it was stupid and just recycling what the prof said in lecture. I said I wasn't challenged, so I asked for a harder assignment and I got it and did it in no time. But it wasn't hard and it was only slightly more interesting. Why am I content with sub-par grades just because I know I can do better? Why don't I do better? I'm tired of having nothing to work for, just facing every day because it's there and I'm stubborn.
God I'm sick of this. I wish... I wish I could be like everyone else. I'm tired of me.
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