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2003-04-30 19:47:41
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I don't know whether to feel sad or liberated... - Rozard... 2003-04-30 19:47:07 Lol. Tavern Wench of DOOOOOOM!!!
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2003-04-30 19:46:35
I said it before, I am gonna say it again.
Fucking military...
Misty, well, it'll suck not meeting you at Otakon if you decide to hit Florida instead, but if you go hit the beaches, have a fucking blast!! -
2003-04-30 00:10:33
Warning: moody journal post follows. You have been warned-ded.
...No, really, this is rather depressing. Stop now if you'd rather be happy.
You ever feel lonely? Not like you want to call a friend and talk to them, or go to a public location and just be around people, but like, if you thought you could get away with it, you'd practically throw yourself all over the closest person of whatever gender does it for you (women in my case)? Cause that's how I feel right now. Right now, I want to take a woman, grab her around the waist, lift her up, spin her through the air (as if I had the upper-body strength for that...), both of us laughing and smiling, and then both of us fall onto my bed and kiss, cuddle, hold each other, and other things...
I suppose what it boils down to, is that right at this moment, I want someone to hold as I go to sleep. I want to fall asleep smelling her hair, her skin, feeling her arm around me as mine is around her, her warmth, her prescence. For just one night, I want to cuddle something other than my flat-ass pillow.
I suppose it's true what they say: lonliness can drive people to wierd states of mind.
That was one of my gripes about Angel, and one reason I can see in hindsight that we really wouldn't have worked out. She hated being held as she went to sleep. She said it made her felt confined and claustrophobic. I think that I hate going to sleep without someone to hold.
Bleah. I'm so sappy and unrealistic. I think I just want one of those lovey-dovey, Meg Ryan movie, soulmates-in-a-laundromat, shoujo manga things that never happen in real life, because in real life, when you get that close, you just get hurt, and everyone instinctively knows it.
Bleah. I'm going to work on a couple drawings for my film project, then go to bed. I don't have anything until 3 pm tomorrow, so tomorrow I can record dialogue, do drawings, and work on papers most of the day. Wed. night, I need to study. Early final on Thursday.
...I hate you, Mike Covell.
Then, on Thursday, I can hopefully get my film projects together and ready to go. Hopefully, after the final, I can mix down the audio for my two projects, get the drawings scanned in and set up with the dialogue, get it dumped down to a VHS, and get the other project editted and projector-ready (it's all one long take, so it shouldn't take too long to edit).
...
The sweet embrace of boozy death looks mighty appealing right now...
...fuck.
Summer had better be a fucking wonderland, that's all I can say. -
2003-04-29 19:49:47
AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I HATE YOU MILITARY!!!
I just got a preview of the money that will be made available to my account as of tomorrow. $173. 173 fucking dollars...
On a normal drill weekend, I make about $180. That makes $90 a day. Now, on drill days, we are paid double the nomal rate, so that means that my normal paycheck is $45 a day. Now, two weeks ago, when I was away on exercises, I was away for one drill weekend, used for travel, and one five-day week, the last day of which was used fr travel. Now, by this estimate, you figure $90 a day for the drill days and $45 for the normal days, that SHOULD equate to $405 ($180 + $225). However, I only got $173.
Unless there's more coming, and I doubt it, because when has that ever been the case, this means I was not paid for the travel days. $45 x (7 days of work - 3 for travel) = $180. Minus taxes, and figuring that it's actually a tad more than that, that would make about $173.
...I didn't know we weren't paid for travel days. >_<
They're ripping me off!! I could have made more than that on a normal drill!!
FUCK YOU, BUSH!!!
I could just cry...
I'm just hoping that there is either more coming, or that $173 is an extra of some knd. Reimbursement from the college I'm unaware of, or some similar "Surprise, here's free money!" thing.
But it probably isn't.
...Fuck. I was expecting about $400, and I was gonna get my tire struts replaced, and put the rest to Otakon...
All I need now is for the VA to tell me tomorrow that I don't get GI Bill money for this last month of school for some obscure reason...
THE GOVERNMENT IS RUN BY MONEY-NAZIS, AND I BET THEY'RE POCKETING ALL OF IT AND SLEEPING ON A BED OF HUNDRED DOLLAR BILLS!!
Sorry, but I'm pissed. This is what I get for thinking I knew how these things worked, I suppose. Hell, odds are, they told me at one point that we don't get paid for travel days, and I just forgot.
>_<
You may be paying my college tuition, U.S. Government, but right now, I could bitch-slap you upside the back of your head so hard your teeth would shatter, and feel no remorse.
::mental images causes me to melt into a quivering puddle of liquid joy::
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