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Skills tested
2003-03-10 17:05:01
First up, a Big shout out to Seg, one of (if not the mane) fav girly, i realy miss her, gota go back to midhurst to see her sometime.
Next up: The same old tune peep's, i like a girl, she dont like me. Typical, i fall for the ones that have no interest. I wont say anything, coz it would just blow up in my face, i can spot a bad thing from a mile off. The one thing i cant get over is how stunning she is, she doesnt even know it herself. Today i saw her and couldn't speek, realy!
this is gona go 1 of 2 ways:
1)she shows no interest, and i move on.
2)she shows some interest and get worse.
Thinking of Seg, i wish she was here, she'd know what to say. You know, she is still the only girl i could flert with, with other chicks it just sounds harsh.
As for this girl, she'll get a new bloke and i'll be ok.
On the matter of Debz, i just wish i could help more, but i dont seem to be able.
All just thorts i gess.
But, despite all that, i got new weels!!!!!! =D
Ginger "MSN is buggered, im gona hit something" Gouki
p.s. To all anime fan's should go an get the 2 parts of the animatrix, full mini-shows, v cool and fucking free. GO NOW! (just go to the matrix site, u'll find it)
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Just to prove
2003-03-10 11:56:02
There are cute chicks online (see mrs-mad-bitch profile)
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Right now, at this second, life is good.
2003-03-09 11:53:08
First up, im very please to see my very good friend Mrs Mad Bitch (or Debz for regula readers) has started coming to the grate A M of V. I've just been reading her journal, and its allways nice to get thanked. Wile i never do things just for the praze, its allways nice. (thx debz =D ).
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As for the weekend, well, its been a long one but DAMN good. It starts on friday: whent to lennys house to do some sk8ing and some online weed (thats all IRC is good for). Then saterday it was back to my house, we chilled there (making my latest creation: Mugen 4) untill the evening and then we when to see "JACKASS, THE MOIVE". I gota say, everyone should see that film one time. I nerely pissed myself laughing, its way too funny. On a side note, it turned out that N8 and his new bitch "Bam" where in the same film as us and we saw them in the lobby. We chated, then we all left.
Back at the Will Cave: we wached all of the Never Knows Best Footage and its all good. (yes, there will be an MV of it, just for you peeps here). After waching so much insanaty in one night, i dicided to go piss on the next door peeps car :P . And thats it, my weekend.
Oh, and i talked to miss Rach on the phone agane (not that harsh but not planing on doing it agane any time soon)
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Just had a thort
2003-03-05 15:29:07
I was just thinking, im not good when im on my own, so why do i want to be with someone: When your with someone, even if they arnt there, you feel like your not alone and im realy not good on my own.
In short, to be with someone is not be alone and when im alone, im pysco.
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Man im down right now
2003-03-05 13:38:48
I used to find it hard to write in my journal, but all i do is imagin her reading this (her is a chara chick i made up in my head, i havent given her a name, i you have any name ideas then e-mail me) the idea that im writing this for someone allows me to open up, this makes me feel better i gess.
I just got the fallout from rents-evening at college and it looks like im gona fail, i've known this for a long time but having to tell everyone else is another thing. Theyall say the same thing "you have the skills, but you dont do the work". Well mabe if the coud understand how much it hurts to do it then they would know. I've tryed to tell peopel the i realy feel pain when doing that kind of stuff but they think im using it as anexsuse.
Like i started to say befor, i talked to this girl (on the phone), but it was my fult, i mean, she is a nice girl and im nothing of that normal, i just feel now more than ever that i cant be around normal peeps, i just dont work properly. At the moment all my friends are taking sides over something that happend (way too much to go into) but lie are going everywhere and i dont know where to be.
Just so you know how i am right now, im in my room with all the lights turned off (the only light comes from me screen) and im whereing shades.
I keep thinking about Her, whats she's like. Shes just smaller than me, with light brown hair. She loves all things yet she has a very dark side that none have seen and she cant be without him (i would like him to be me but i'll make a Him). But She isn't real, she just in my head. I gess i'll put her in a game or something.
Its not like girls like that exsist, and if they did, im not the person they would go for.
But its not all that bad, its not like i've anyone to cry over (not coz i dont like anyone, more due to the fact i cant cry). I cant get hung up on peeps, and that is the good thing about being, well, me. I hear about other coples having problems with each other or other peeps and i know this stuff wont happen to me.
All my good point are the kind that only work if somebody likes me. Most peeps good skill is geting peeps or staying with them. Mine is being able to help with problems and being the stedy guy. Nether of these are thing peeps like, but i try anyhoo. This is probaly garbled nonsence but i know what it is.
Shout out to all peeps i know. Just having you guys about helps me.
Ginger "i cant bloody see a thing" Gouki
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