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2004-05-07 17:17:08
joe turned skinhead. steven turned morman and living with a foster family. dad thought we should make a big deal over donna on mothers day and forgot we already HAVE a mom to celebrate. moms health failing. she wont tell us how bad, but we know she still needs that painful ass eye surgery. mom needs health insurance. grades bad. robbies grades bad. robbie shoplifted. mom mad. REALLY mad. scared for robbie's permit. scared for MY permit. songs arent coming out like they used to. screenplay is put on hold and it seems like ill NEVER finish it. no shows to go to. no friends to talk to (all are either in SD or gone hippy anarcho crust punk). clares off dating. sea man wants to be a lawyer. havent talked to SD in ages now. music doesnt even feel good anymore. the stuff to fix up at the house seems endless. we'er on our 5th week with the roots in the front yard. top it all off, amv's are put on hold unless i wanna make 50 ff9 vids(lol)
why is it that all this shit happens at once? God i feel so tired. every were i turn theres something else i have to fight. why is robbie so fucking stupid? and even after it happened, he wanted to joke with me! as if IT DIDNT HAPPEN! i could curb stomp that little shit.
theres no were i can really turn for relief. music doesnt feel good anymore, writing isnt coming, weekends are work, and dads place is to stressful. friends are so... far... away... friends here SUCK! home-fronts a fight, schools a fight, music, writing, even fucking video games are a fight now! (i finally finished ffx and it fucking froze on the ending cinema).
well, this stream of conciousness has made me feel better. i dont know why, but having alot of people you dont know acess to your brain is kinda... asuring in a way. - 2004-04-30 17:13:31 i've done 2 journal entrys with 2 different computers, and i can only view the one i did on that computer. why is that?
JOURNAL: DDramone (mikey flores)
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