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I'm not one to pray but... ...
2006-11-24 18:20:31
I don't know whats been going on these past few weeks. The holidays are upon us and it just seems like fate is conspiring against our family in some way. My parents and my brother are in ohio visiting my dads side of the family. I wasn't able to go cause i didnt have enough paid time off from my job.
My little brother was in a serious 4 wheeler accident today and I have no idea if hes ok or not and I haven't gotten any calls back from my dad. Apparently he was flown to a hospital by a helicopter and that alone lets me know that its really serious. Me on the other hand, I'm still recovering from my neck injuries from some dumb teenager slamming into us. Im just wondering if anyone up there fucking cares about our family right now. I can't amagine what my parents are going through right now at that hospital. meanwhile I'm sitting here fucking paranoid that I'm gonna get a phone call and hear the word "paralyzed" or worse. ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY. I don't cry for things but this might be too much. I love my brother more then he knows, I'm just pissed of at myself for all the years that I picked on him. If I end up hearing bad news I don't know how I'd be able to take it.
So a couple of minutes ago I found myself praying to god. If he exists he better fucking do something or I might just lose whatever faith I had left. My brother doesn't disserve to be paralyzed he is such a kind caring person. Bad things don't happen to people like that damnit.
Anyways, still waiting for that phone call... I'm kinda out of it right now, I guess if I could say anything meaningful in this post to anyone. Don't waste the years you have with your siblings picking on them and being mean like I did. Cause when something bad happens to them in the future it makes you feel 50 times worse about it. Worse to the point of crying.
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HAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAA
2006-11-22 03:08:29
smirnoff > me
nuff said
its gonna be a hell of a weekend, im surfin that alcohol highway till i wipeout.
like now for instance havin trouble typin words loolololol. -
I know I shouldn't generalize but seriously... Blonds are bad drivers.
2006-11-12 05:58:36
got rear ended yesterday by some dumb blond going atleast 60 in a Miata... funny thing was that the Miata rammed into an escalade which hadn't come to a complete stop yet and in turn the escalade went flying into us, we were driving another small car. So yeah Escalade > small car. The backend was totalled and I got some bad wip lash... Took some motrin and the pain isn't as bad. Kinda stings when i look to the right.
As for the girl.. I think the airbag saved her life. She walked out of the car with a bloody nose.. Probably from the airbag but its better to get hit by that then having your head slam into the steering wheel. Dan's car was totalled. The backend looked like a diesel had slammed into it. Escalade's mines well be considered one.
I'm just glad no one was seriously hurt. My neck is gonna be killing me for a few days though. It's pretty stiff right now as it is. Dan's having a baby in 2 days and he just lost his car, I feel really sorry for him but he's borrowing a car from his dad so I guess its ok. The insurance from the girl will probably be buying dan a new car so I guess thats a winner.
So I'll say this people, If you want a safe car... Get an Escalade... The miata that had slammed into the back of the escalade was freaking wasted but the bumper on the back of the escalade looked brand new almost cept a few scratches. Seriously... The front end of the escalade took a bit of damage but it hit us at a slant so thats to be expected. So yeah... Safe tough SUV = Escalade.
What a day. Spent 2 hours out in the cold just waiting for all that to finish. Our saturday was completely wrecked literally. Tried filling out paper work with my hand shaking from the cold, I'd be surprised if the cops could even read anyones writing.
Anyways enough crap that no one cares about, everyone is ok for the most part. I haven't been doing much editing lately. I'll probably do some today after some sleep. I'm scared about waking up tomorrow and having huge pains in my neck though.... .... meh...
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Your AMV flight has been delayed due to Intoxication.
2006-10-31 03:04:01
I wont make a halloween release, kinda sux... I wasn't really expecting too. Was more along the lines of hoping to.
It's still not even half way done but its pretty close. I been trying to remember all kinds of horror movies I seen and some of the techniques they used. I found myself using The Ring's techniques alot cause I like that movie. I'm gonna start adding spasmatic messages with little to no meaning but are intense powerful words for a more schizophrenic feel. After that its wherever my demented mind takes me. I might start adding some delusional horror and then some demensional horror. Not sure what those are? All the more reason I'm going to use them then.
Because... Mankind fears that which it cannot understand, and fear is the most powerful trait of horror with schizophrenia being an extremely close 2nd place.
Of course I'm not expecting people to get a sense of fear while watching an amv. That would be impossible. As godix said, we've all seen head shear off of bodies and demented, subliminal, paranoia, schizophrenic, and just about every other thing in anime so were just used to it. The idea is to give you something you completely don't expect or understand. So far, I think its achieving its goal.
So I'm going to plan to release it on December 19th. Why you ask? Good question, I can't find a reason myself. I figure I mines well release an amv on my birthday for kicks or maybe some luck.
I'm all so cutting down on journal entries if you haven't noticed. I'm going to be more descriptive of events and progress since I see no other use for a journal anymore. That's about it.
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Is it fun or is it just simply editing?
2006-10-25 14:51:29
Ayanefan... Have you considered starting a petting zoo? It's much more efficient to earn money with all the little critters running around then to just kill them. Then again I'd be killing em too so meh...
In other news... I NEED TO GET OFF THIS MEP BUZZ! I haven't been working on anything but MEP's these days. NO MORE! FOR A WHILE!.... Tch.. As if I could stop myself. If I see another cool one I'll probably end up joining again. ;_; MEP's are much funner to edit then regular AMV's, plus you dont have to sync a whole song. You can spend more time and focus on a single part of a song and make it hawt. This can be done with regular AMV's but its so time consuming that it makes creating AMV's feel like work. Atleast thats how the elfen lied amv I been workin on feels like these days. I can't open it up without feeling like I should be earning money. This stuff used to be a hobby but with all this effects and what not stuff I've learned... It feels more like I'm creating AMV's to please the viewers. To hell with the viewers, I wanna go back to the days I created stuff I liked and were for myself like my burst angel vid and my eva vid.
I dunno losing interest, this stuff takes too much time these days and time is what I dont feel like wasting anymore. I might go back to basic editing after this elfen lied amv. Either that or I'm not gonna focus on what you people want, instead I'ma do what I like. Screw flashy lights D:.
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