JOURNAL: AurianDeAmenti (Aurian De Amenti)

  • a day of mine 2004-05-11 07:57:22 today...what happened today...oh yeah! Okay so today a couple pretty interesting things happened to me.

    ~First thing was my mother found more cuts and burns on my arms and we had to have 'the talk' telling me i am smarter than how i am acting and how she spends every free moment wondering if she is going to come home to find me dead. I have nothing to tell her to the contrary because she very well might some day, so now after a 12 hour long discussion about my dissapointing her she tells me that she is sending back to my Phsycotheripyst. Which depressed me so much i went downstairs and cut myself some more therefore defeating the purpose of the conversation.

    ~Second thing i did today was go to my cousin's funeral, she was killed by a drunk driver and the man got off with a slap on the hand. There was a lot of crying and lots of me being glared at because i wasn't lamenting, then i had to get up and speak about the cousin which i hardly ever got along with for fifteen minutes when the only thing i could think to say good about her was the fact that she got away with everything.

    ~Third thing, i lost my favorite hoodie. A spitfire one with Rob Zombie and Marylin Manson's names in white on the sleeves and spikes along the hood part.

    ~My mother keeps kicking me off the internet when i am trying to do my work, i am enrolled in a cyber school, therefore denying me my hours which i need to graduate because she needs to talk to her 24 year old ex-con boyfriend which seems to be her taste lately.

    ~I got guilt tripped by my father who lives in Santa Fe about how i am never down to visit but he doesn't realize i can't visit him because when i do my mother thinks i am caterering to my fathers wants and ignore and neglect her.

    ~My Best Friend of 8 years and I got into a fight because she realized i really don't like her and i more than likely never have, unfortunitally i have made decision's in the past and will make the same ones in the future, that have permanently shortened my memoery unless it is something uber-important which with her it never was.

    So that was my day. I hope you enjoyed this wonderful trip through the land of fantasy that is my life. Have a nice day. 
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