- sick............ 2004-02-18 00:54:41 Ah man I am so sick. I haven't been this sick in years. I hate it. I'd rather go to school than feel like this. Although this morning I had the worst of both worlds cause I went to school until lunch and I felt like this. Chemistry was a nightmare. Trying to concentrate while just wanting to drop dead........(shudders) I don't want to go through that again. On a good note I just burned myself a new CD. I'm quite proud of this one, one of my better ones. Has a good variety on it, rather than just techno or rock or something else. Which actually reminds me, is it possible to put AMVs on blank CDs? I would think it is, but I'm not sure how you would go about doing it. If anyone knows anything about it please email me, I'd like to know. Anyways on to other things. I had a soccer game on Sunday. We won :) We played this team of like 12 guys, but all but three of them looked over 45 so I guess it was kinda fair considering we only had 8 and couldn't sub so much. I schooled a bunch of their guys. Hehe, it felt great. Nothing like making another person look the fool in a sport. As mean as that sounds, it is still enjoyable. Also, anyone else out there just feeling annoyed out of their minds waiting for the new Inuyasha eps to air on adult swim? I feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack or a stroke. We've all been waiting so long for them it is driving me crazy. It is odd, I can actually relate to the people who religiously watch American Idol or Survivor. Except my show actually doesn't involve bringing people down while raising others up and all that. Those things get to me. K well I'm feelin tired now, my insomnia doesn't help with my sickness any. Hopefully I get some sleep tonight, sleep well everyone.
- Morning 2004-02-13 09:20:37 I decided to pop in a quick journal entry before school today. Seeing as how once I leave the house I probably won't get back until four in the morning tomorrow. My schedule is pretty much filled for today. School, Snowboarding, Indoor Soccer. I love it. When I'm busy I'm not too worried about the things I'm not doing because at least I'm doing something lol. Its a temporary fix to a permanent problem, but its been working for me lately so until I need to change my tactics I'm stickin with this. I'm dling a few AMVs right now. I love them as I'm sure everyone else here does. I hope to have one of the biggest collections of them someday. Kind of like I wanted to have one of the biggest collections of music on my comp. Which I know I'm nowhere near even though I have a lot of songs. My best friend's dad owns probably as many CDs as I own songs. Its embarrassing. He's a cool guy though, I bet he would like AMVs if he ever saw one. Well I better get goin, I gotta go into my English class and find out why the teacher is out to ruin me. He's got something personal against me I am sure of it. He tells me my grade is bad, but when I ask him if I'm missing anything or if there is anything I can do about it, he is always about as helpful as a dead moose. Its very annoying. Well I hope everyone out there has a great day or night depending on where you all live. Take it easy everyone.
- I need a break 2004-02-12 01:13:20 I'm stressed. Very Stressed. I didn't think a 17 year old could be this stressed. Its like everything is closing in on me and the pressure is terrible. I don't even know where to begin to start. Parents, school, friends, girls, sports, video games, animes that I want to see but won't be shown until April or so I hear (Inuyasha for those of you who didn't know). I just want to disappear and go live in some fantasy world. That would be ideal. Go adventuring all the time, become a mage or something. Or say my life was an anime like Inuyasha. That would be the coolest life ever. At least to me. I'm wondering if I've taken on too much at once and now I'm paying for it. The only escape I've got is sports and my music. Thank God for both of those. Normally anime would be included in that, but since they began the Inuyasha series AGAIN on adult swim, I just don't have the heart to watch it. I've seen those episodes so many times its not even funny. Not that I don't like them or anything, but they are just building episodes for character relationships and plot. Which I suppose you could argue every episode but the last has that purpose, but I mean for the deeper relationships and plots that are revealed in the later episodes. So all in all I find them boring now. I'll probably start watching again at the end of the month. That should be enough episodes. I will probably be suffering from withdrawal by then. Also, on a side note. For anyone that likes Techno, Groove Coverage - Moonlight Shadow(Club Mix) is a great song. Speaking of music, I've got an idea for an AMV song. Pachelbel in D. I like the way it sounds, but I'd have to get a shortened version of it. I have one that is about three minutes long that would be ideal. I was thinking of using it with an RK video, I'm just not sure how it would fit because I still don't have any means of getting some good quality RK footage and I won't DL it because I hear it looks ugly that way. Also, again on some strange tangent. My best friend just got a girlfriend. And now he practically has no life. All he does is try to spend every spare second he has with her. Is that healthy? I am pretty sure it isn't, but he was never one to really care once he was focused on a girl. Even me, his best buddy, takes a side seat. Its kinda saddening actually, but nothing I can do about it because he doesn't think straight when it comes to women and would only be angry if I told him what I think. Well that is all I have the time to write about for now. There will be much more, very soon. I've decided to wait on the book, until I can actually start having a semi peaceful life. Maybe it will turn out actually. I'm out, peace everyone.
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I failed.........
2004-02-04 00:19:30
Dangit stupid me, I forgot all about my book entry because I went and played indoor soccer. I did good there though. I scored two goals. Schooled a pro player, literally, and had a good time. My friend basically broke my wrist superbowl sunday. How cool is that? It isn't actually broken, I've just torn most of the ligaments and tendons in the wrist, which according to the doctor won't take "quite" as long to heal. No more wrestling for me. But still plenty of soccer to keep me busy and track is coming soon. YAY! Oh and get this everyone, here is a new developement in my social life. This hot, popular, nice, mature, moral girl likes me. All the things I look for in a girl, yet I don't really care. Normally I know I would jump at the chance, but its like I don't even feel all those normal feelings that go along with liking someone or being liked. Its like I don't even feel that set of emotions anymore, the whole feeling of liking someone, of butterflies in the stomach, the whole up if they talk and spend time with you or down if they don't. What is wrong with me? To tell the truth, there is a "type" of girl I love. But, that girl doesn't exist, as far as I know :'( and I just don't think I have the heart to put any effort into a relationship. All in all its really depressed me to think about it, to never really feel that love that I want so much.........But I shouldn't talk about that. I'm sure everybody else and their dog does so I'll shut up about it. I don't feel up to writing a whole nother chapter in my book though. So instead, next time, I think I'm just going to outline a story. Start all over again, but with a plan. As always everyone is free to email me or make comments on the writing. the_dreamer_17@hotmail.com. Well I gtg to bed, sleep well everyone, night.
- Its been awhile....... 2004-01-30 20:13:19 Wow, its been a long time since my last journal. I've been so busy lately it's ridiculous. I prefer being busy over not busy though, not constantly because it is good to just relax and do nothing at times, but most of the time. So what has been going on with me. Lots of school, I set a record for time spent on homework two nights ago. Record for me that is. Around 4 hours, and when one gets home at 6 PM, four hours is basically all your freetime. I was proud of myself. Been lots of wrestling lately. I moved up a weight class to 145. Yay, food. I wrestled some guy that was 145 when I was 140 three days ago and I pinned him. Yeah, I was pumped. He strutted out onto the mat flexing and everything. Then I pwned him. Hell yeah it was cool. I've been thinkin about my story lately too, and I keep wanting to change things, but I'll just wait until I get to the end before I do that. Btw ppl who read it, please email me if you think I should spend more time on detail or less. Because books with too much detail all the time get boring quickly because they are slow. Where as books with none are boring because you can't really figure out what is going on. But I gtg real quick, however since I said from now on I will write a chapter in my book everytime I write in the journal so I will be back later tonight. Peace till then all.
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