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Why can't you see that you are....my...child/Why don't you know that you are....mine...mine
2002-03-31 20:04:22
^ Yea, I've already got ideas brewing for when I get my Eva box set.
I hope my brain doesn't melt after I watch it so i can actually use the ideas though.
Let's see, today...
well today was Easter (no shit, Rob). Went to 12 o clock mass today, cracked the fuck up when Father Anthony made a few comments about the CAE (christmas and easter) people. It's kinda sad though, why is it that everyone gets scared right around Easter, well, at least scared enough to come back to church? Damn, if you're gonna go, then go, if not, then don't. Don't make me have to be scrunched between all the dirty bastards because you're afraid you're gonna die. Hell if Christmas is on a Saturday there'll be standing room only, but come Sunday the church'll be empty except for all the people who go regularly. People are odd...and a great deal of them are stupid too. Stupid people piss me off...
Well, my girlfriend went to her aunt's for Easter today. But I spent most of friday and saturday with her, so it's not so bad. I just hate not being able to see her before I go back to hell though. Oh well, such is life. And life is struggle, blah, blah, blah. it wasn't all bad though, I got to have dinner with my family. And I like my family, well, most of the time. But to make a long story short I ate like a pig. Damn that food was good. Just being able to throw down on some meat felt good. Not that I mind lent though, cause I love seafood. Hell I went on a sushi spree yesterday. I had sushi for brunch, and sushi for dinner. It was good.
Well I've been talking to my friend Kira online for like the past hour about friends and relationships and stuff. You know, having a girlfriend sucks sometimes. To me it seems like when i'm going out with someone, and I love them, then suddenly everyone starts to think Rob is cute and likes Rob. It's annoying too because they tend to be people that I liked but they were going out with someone else or something at the time. Like my friend Stef, I like her for a while but she started going out with this guy Pete. *rolls eyes* She loved him, too bad he broke her heart. And of course when did he break up with her, you got it: when I was going out with my current girlfriend. I've got a few people like that in my life, girls that like me and would go out with me, but I've got a girlfriend, which makes me an automatic 'no-no' to all of them. Not that it would matter if I was a no-no though, I wouldn't cheat on someone I was going out with anyway. But the problem really seems prevelant with my friend Stef. Since she broke up with Pete we hardly hang out anymore, and we used tobe best friends. Well I guess we still are, but friendships lack something when you never hang out. Her excuse is always 'shouldn't you be doing something with your girlfriend?' or 'you should spend some time with your girl'. It kinda pisses me off, cause on one hand she's taken this stance like no one can love her anymore or anything, and on the other hand I feel like she's almost jealous that I have a girlfriend and love her and stuff. I really wish I could tell her I like her, but that's just the way time works for me. Almost always too litte, too late. She'd probably tell me to go back to my girlfriend anyway, and not ruin a good thing. That's just the way she is, I guess. I just wish I could show her it doesn't bave to be like that though...
Well, this has run close to that personal line...and ran it over, and backed up over it again, then ran it over one more time for good luck. But anyway, here's the question of the night:
Is it possible to love more than one person, and love them equally?
I say it is, but eventually you'll end up choosing one out of how many ever you love.
What do you think? -
Welcome to the King of AMV tournament
2002-03-29 19:36:30
Well damn, it's been a while since I've written in this thing. Where to start...
Well, the recital on Wed. came and went...and I didn't play. They said there were too many people on the program already, and besides that I hadn't practiced with my accompanist yet. It was probably a good thing I didn't play though, I sounded like crap that day. And I wanted to save the song I'm doing till the last recital anyway. Wish granted.
Anywho, I'm home now for 'Easter break', which is really just a weekend off of school. Whoopity-doo. Oh well, i get to spend some time with my g/f and transfer my amv stuff to my PC so I can actually edit when I come home this summer. Gotta put my laptop in the shop. More money down the tube.
Other points of interest today: bought about 15 bucks worth of sushi today (I've been wanting some for a while), bought Virtua Fighter 4 as a tide over until Tekken 4 comes out (gonna try it out after I get done with this), and pre-ordered the box set of Neon Genesis from bestprices.com (that's a pretty good site, I think I'm going to buy from there a lot more often, good prices). Went to the org chat (like I do quite regularly now), most of the regulars were there, but it was nothing like last night. Last night was pure craziness, we all talked from about 8 till about 2 in the morning (eastern time). Jescaflowne has got to be the coolest chick I've talked to on the org so far. She hangs right in with the guys when we start talking stupid. Well, I should say they...ok, ok, we, I was quite involved as it got later on in the night. But dammit I was justified: I was tired!
I left at 2 and they were all still going strong. Hell, I had to get up at 8 this morning. (I'm happy as hell that I actually managed to)
Let's see, tomorrow I need to do what...?
Well I better go figure that out while I'm stompig on the computer's behind in VF4. I need to get some ice cream too...
Night everyone. -
Blah blah blah, yakkity smakkity DAMN DAMN DAMN
2002-03-27 07:29:16
Yea, the 'damn damn damn' part I added myself.
Well the past (counts on fingers and thinks)...5 days have been something more closely resembling hell than I thought I knew was possible (without actually being there). First my laptop fell with my headphones plugged in, which broke the jack, and apparently, the sound card too. So that basically ends my AMV making until I can take it to the shop and get it fixed...which I can't do until school ends, because my papers and stuff for my classes are on it. Then, second, half my keyboard decides it's gonna stop working, which ends me posting to the rpgs I'm on online. And here I was thinking the sound dying on my laptop was like the worst things that could happen...silly Rob. Oh yea, and my phone is dead too. My roommate sent it to phone heaven...well probably phone hell. But of course he has no idea how it got broken. It makes me realize how much I depend on certain things, epsecially my laptop, to keep my sanity in this place. Oh well, when i get back home for the summer I can transfer all the stuff I'm working on to my PC. I'll just have to rip any movies or anything that I want to use in my projects, since my PC doesn't have a dvd drive. I get to go home Friday morning, which is a godsend. I can also by a phone then, which I won't be letting my roommate touch.
On the upside though, me and my girlfriend talked and worked out our problems...well, the problems I thought I had. So now we're not taking a break till the end of April. Thank god, cause that would've been the anvil to break my back through all of this.
Oh joy, I also have a recital today. I hope they put me on the program last, having weeks like this make for great playing. -
"If you're dead but then you're not, but you're not alive either, does that make you undead?" "No, it makes you a freakin weirdo."
2002-03-21 11:55:51
Aaaaaaand, I'm back. I'm finding it's easier to just do journal entries during the lulls in my day, instead of trying to talk about everything at once.
Well, my prophecy about my day being shitty b/c of what happened this morning turned out to not be true, thank God. Actually the remained of my day has been productive as hell, if busy. I had classes from 8 till 12. Had a trombone lesson at 12 til 1. Talked to the head of the music department about which classes I need to take. He then sent me to go talk to the head of student teaching about what education courses I need to take so I can complete my music education major. So now I know what I have to do. It just seems like there's not enough time to do it. And I wanna graduate early...
Oh well, now here I am sitting in front of my laptop. I think I'm gonna try and finish my video and get it uploaded today, before I start packing to go home tomorrow. Yay, off to editing. The only thing that's keeping me from finishing this thing is the fact that I want to put a bumper on this, and also the fact that I'm getting differences in timing, depending on which media player I use. When the window opens in premiere and I play it the timing is perfect, but when I use DivX's player the clips seem a little off. And window's media player...*rolls eyes* it's still stuttering whenever I play the video in it. I think I need to reinstall it. Ok, well off to editing now.
See you guy later. - You want the truth? You can't handle the Truth!!! 2002-03-21 04:50:48 Ok, ok. I take back my previous statement about there not being all that much sex in MJ's 'PFS!' There's a lot of it, I just recalled all the non-sex filled parts when I was thinking about it. Watching the video again showed me how misguided my thinking was. God that video is funny...
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