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Two hundred forty sixth entry - huh? what? eh?
2006-12-10 18:42:53
Time - 5:22, Noise - Kingdom Hearts II OST - "Asteroids Attack"
Took a look at the doki-implemented features that were recently added (thanks, and an extra thanks for solving my obnoxious download problem). I find it funny that some people are saying, "Wow! I forgot I had some of these quick comments!," and yet only two of my videos even have over ten QCs anyway. ^_^;; My quickie Elfen Lied thinger does (hell if I know why... probably just cuz it's so short), and The Chosen Two does (which is a little more expected). Ah well. That's what I get for using videogames.
Also, the PM notice feature... either I'm blind and missing it, or it doesn't show up until someone actually PMs you. If that's the case, anyone care to send me a random PM?
So... you might have guessed from my more complex sentence structure that I'm feeling better today. Still a bit dizzy on my feet, but at least I don't feel queasy anymore. Even if I don't feel well tomorrow, I kinda have to go to class. It's reviewing for finals next week.
Biology is just a unit exam, rather than a cumulative test. Math is a huge, cumulative group test. Psychology... I honestly have no idea what the test is. We JUST finished taking the unit test in there. The "final" for Spanish is actually a skit that we have to put on as a small group. Not quite my strong suit, because I stutter. Being up in front of people doesn't make me nervous at all. It's the damn involuntary physical reaction to speaking that makes it all a pain in the ass. In any case, we'll do fine, because he grades REALLY leniently (I know, since we had to do a skit first semester last year, too). Band is done with, and bio lab doesn't have a final, so my schedule shouldn't be too bad. I know I have a final on Friday and two on Wednesday. I don't remember if the other one is on Monday or not. I think so.
I'm really not too worried about finals. What I really need to do is make sure I have all of my assignments in before the end of the week... which... instead of editing, is what I'm going to be working on right now. Even though I actually really wanted to edit tonight. -_-;;
So, I'll see you folks later~<3
- Jen -
Two hundred forty fifth entry - *groan*
2006-12-09 22:38:39
Time - 9:25, Noise - Frou Frou - "Let Go"
Feeling very sick. Been sleeping on and off since two. Tried to get up at four thirty for dinner, but I was sure I'd either topple over or puke on the way there. So I missed dinner. Tried to keep sleeping. Puked up what I think was ALL of my breakfast at five thirty. Went back to sleep again after that. Felt ill an hour later, but I managed to keep it down. Finally got up a little before nine. Asked my neighbor for crackers. I miss meals so rarely that I don't keep stuff like that on hand, really. Munching on the food very, very slowly, and sipping juice occasionally now. Don't really know if I'm going to be able to sleep again tonight. I've already slept for about eighteen hours today.
My RA thinks its a bug that's going around. I hope so. I'm beginning to think that there's something else wrong with my body, and I really don't want that to be true. And I don't want THIS to be a part of THAT.
Going to try and do someting low impact for now. Playing a game, maybe. Writing. Editing. I need to finish my game. And my fanfic. And my video. z_z
See you, folks. Stay healthy.
- Jen -
Two hundred forty fourth entry - revelations...?
2006-12-09 00:31:19
Time - 10:35, Noise - R.E.M. - "Nightswimming"
So, my complaint for the day is this - actually, it's my complaint for the last few *months*: I can't download more than four, five, or six videos before it gives me the "fill in your star ratings" bullshit. Okay, so the star requirement doesn't bug me. What bothers me is that I'm not being allowed my full ten videos, the number I AM allowed isn't always the same, and when I posted on the forum, nobody helped me! So, I have a problem that I don't know how to solve, and the people who run the site don't seem to give a damn - despite the fact that they suspect it IS a site problem. There is one person who thought he might have a solution (and he'll remain nameless), and he said he'd get back to me after the weekend. That was a month ago.
Apparently, this is, in fact, a situation where they think, "Hey, if we ignore Ultima, she'll eventually just shut up." : /
So, that frustrating topic aside, I finally figured out what one of the main things is that makes Creepy Dude so creepy to me. He STARES. Like, I went to eat dinner today, and of course HE had to be there. I casually told him that I was feeling antisocial, so I wanted to eat alone. He said, "It happens," which is his response to most things. So, he went to sit at another table. But he didn't SIT. He stood next to it, seeming to do nothing and STARING at me while I got my drink and wandered off to my own table. Seriously. He never took his eyes off of me until I sat down. I mean, I'm sure as hell not an attractive girl, so that can't be why he stares. I don't dress suggestively, and I don't have a sexy way of walking or talking or just generally upholding myself whatsoever. I'm used to getting funny looks from wearing the Chomp Hat, but he's seen it many times now. No reason why he'd be curious about that. There is nothing remotely appealing about watching me, and it really disturbs me when someone does stare like that.
But you know, I keep feeling like I'm overanalyzing the situation - and then he goes and gives off an extra creepy vibe! And then suddenly, I feel like my concerns are grounded. It's impossible to lose him in a crowd, too. It's like he zeros in on me - even before I had the cat hat he did it. Now it's impossible for me to lose ANYONE. I wear the hat absolutely everywhere, so everyone knows me by it. They would probably be completely lost if I ever just went out with my stupid headband on.
(For the uninitiated who didn't follow my thrilling chronicles of hair growth, I'm growing out my bangs. When they got too long, I bought a headband. It doesn't look BAD, exactly. I just wish I didn't have to wear it. Now I constantly keep the headband hidden beneath the hat with a pair of kitty ears and a chomping set of teeth - which also block my vision, but it's ten times better than my hair being in the way.)
So anyway, Creepy Dude continues to be creepy, but I think I'm starting to figure out his creepy ways. Hopefully. Someday.
Speaking of the fiends, though, I forgot to detail one of the worst offenders for people on campus that I don't like...
I call her Askey McQuestion. She only appears in my life for three hours a week - one on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday - in my math class. Seems tolerable, right? Okay, you know that kid that always had to ask the teacher to repeat stuff? That's this chick times six. And she doesn't just need things repeated - she needs them fully explained again. She asked seventeen questions one day recently. I kept count. ~_~;; Now, this wouldn't bug me so much, except that math is my *worst* subject, and I *need* to have the teacher pace her lessons properly so I'll understand it. This chick going back and asking things constantly makes my professor rush her content for the day, and then I get extremely confused. And you can tell that Askey knows the class is getting fed up with her. They'll start whispering whenever she asks a question, so now she's taken to saying "sorry" quickly everytime she starts talking. I mean, I can understand being confused about a subject, but when you're asking so many questions that it disrupts the flow of the entire class, you need to seriously think about a tutor.
Oh, and the worst part about this all is that she's not even really in my class. For some reason, she can't attend her own class on certain days, so she sits in with mine. So I can never predict which days she'll be there. I always hope that it's a review day, or a "get your test back" day, since those always have leeway at the end of the hour.
Yahoo is down right now. Frustrating, because I finally finished a fanfic for the first time in Cod knows how long, and my only means of getting ahold of my beta reader (my best friend) isn't usable. Of course, it's not yaoi, so I'm not sure how she'll take it. However, it is written in a very odd style (on purpose), so I think that may hold her interest if nothing else. It's... hentai? I mean, it's graphic, but the peculiar writing style kind of dwarfs that. And it's a short one shot - only five pages. She ought to be okay with that. I mean, she'll read anything I write. I know that. But she also (unknowingly) doubles as my half-muse, so I like to write things that I want to, but that she'll enjoy as well. And she's getting mad at me for neglecting to write pr0n for so long. XD
That reminds me. I had to resist the urge to jump this guy I know and have him translate doujinshis for me. -_-;; He's Japanese, but he's lived in the US for six or seven years, so he speaks English extremely well. I mean, when you talk to the guy, he doesn't have discernable accent or anything, and he's perfectly normal in conversation. He's a nice guy, too, so I would feel bad bombarding him for my fangirlish needs. Oh well. I'll learn Japanese myself someday anyhow. I am a language major, after all. It's just a matter of time before I pick up that one, too. I'm taking entry courses my junior year, so it'll be a start, at least.
Cod help me, I keep getting the frantic urge to draw. I know that I really should. The only way to get better is to practice. But everytime I start, it's the same thing. Ugly, disproportionate people with disfigured faces. I don't want to ruin my favorite characters like that.
I. Need. A. Light. Up. Board. SO BAD.
My pocket watch died on me! I'm sad. How the hell am I going to know what time it is now??? It was cool, too. It had a red light and a compass in it. I got one of the metal watches meant more for guys. They're sturdier than those stupid girly ones. So, since it doesn't look like I can crack it open to replace the battery, I think I'm gonna have to just buy a new one. Too bad everyone has already bought me stuff for Christmas.
So... this entry is entirely too long. I'm out of here, maybe to sleep, maybe to edit, but mostly to be angry about Yahoo being a whore. >_<
Nighty night, loves.
- Jen -
Two hundred forty third entry - titles...
2006-12-05 17:17:18
Time - 3:50, Noise - my heater struggling to get its ass in gear...
I'm not sure which of those categories I fall under. Somewhere between mascot and critic, I guess, but I've always referred to myself as "Helpful Forum Girl." I really don't take my editing ability into account when it comes to this site. I just pop out a video every once in a while, and I don't worry too much about whether or not anyone else likes it. During the meantime, I offer whatever limited advice I have to offer and try to peg those threads that no one else is responding to.
Every once in a while, I get someone trying to call me a "big name" on the site, but I feel more like a n00b - especially when looking at all of those technical debates in threads. Seriously. It's taken me years to learn what other newbies learn in months. That's probably mostly due to a lack of effort on my part, but even when I try, everything moves at a snail's pace.
I love this site, and I admire and like many of the people on it. Despite this, I haven't particularly made friends with anyone outside of the .org environment. I get random PMs and IMs occasionally, but it's normally for a favor or a suggestion.
I just don't think I'm the sort of person meant for a lot of friends. I don't mean that in a bad way, either. I don't have any internet friends, and I only have two people that are remotely close to me in "real life" - one of them being my best friend whom I often refer to. Beyond that, everyone seems to be very distant from me. I've never been able to make the same connection that I did with with Nicole with anyone else. You'd think I'd get lonely or something, but I rarely get the urge to talk to other people.
When I think about it, there's probably something wrong with me. But until it drives me to do or be something really unnatural, I guess I'm not too worried. I'm still on the fringes of "normal" for now...
With that rather large aside done with, back to the main topic: .org hierarchy. I tend to get along with most members, no matter where they fall. There's only a select few that I really can't stand, and I think they already know who they are. I'll just leave them alone and hopefully they'll do the same. As for the others, it's nice to always see new faces integrating into the fold. Even though some of the old dudes are being morons and saying, "All these newbies are killing the hobby," it's pretty obvious that the new blood will keep the hobby very much alive for a long time to come. Styles may change, but talent doesn't, and anyone who can't see that needs to get their head out of the "good old days" and into reality.
Well, it's almost time for dinner, and I have a "date" with my RA, as she put it. So, I'm off to bundle up so that I won't freeze my ass off walking to Glenview. o.o
See you, folks.
- Jen -
Two hundred forty second entry - bright 'n early...
2006-12-04 07:50:30
Time - 6:28, Noise - the hum of the compy...
Well, it's pretty early in the morning - just prior before I go to class - but I wanted to jot something down before I forgot it.
Folks: quit telling me that your AMV is going to suck because you used Windows Movie Maker. That pisses me off to no end. The creator makes the video, not the program. If the video sucks, then it's all your fault. Okay, maybe your video might be *simpler*, but it shouldn't be any different than a simple AMV made in any other program. If it is, then, again, YOU fucked up. Not your program.
People on this site shouldn't have to feel guilty about using a lower-level program, and I'm going to cyber-kick the ass of the next person who tries to make another editor feel that way. And hey - just to keep this fair: if you tell me ahead of time that your video is going to suck because you used WMM, then I'm not going to download it. Not because you used WMM, but because YOU TOLD ME IT WAS GOING TO SUCK. Why should I have any faith in your editing skills if you don't?
Maybe I'm a hypocrite for talking like that, since I used to do the same thing when I used WMM - and even now, I still say that my videos are subpar. However, the more I hear retorts against Movie Maker, the more aggressive I become in defending it. Honestly, I think I would be like that with any program - except maybe Premiere. I hated that program.
Speaking of Premiere... people, when someone asks, "What program should I use?", for Cod's sake, quit only telling them about Premiere! There are tons of other programs out there, and Premiere is NOT the be all and end all of editors. You drive people away from the hobby when you only offer them one option, and a lot of people who want to stick with it anyway get discouraged and walk away when they see the price tag on that thing. I don't CARE about the student discount you can get. That's STILL a few hundred dollars that you're spending on something you're not even sure you'll like! Fine. Trials, trials. That's what you're going to tell me, right? Well, you know what? That doesn't work for everyone. When I trialed Premiere, I got so frustrated with its many unnecessary buttons that I didn't touch it for a long time. By the time I came back to give it another shot... guess what? Trial had run out. Oh damn. I did eventually try the program again. I'll leave it to your imagination to figure out how I got ahold of it the second time. : /
In conclusion, I'm sick of hearing "Use Premiere!" and "Don't use WMM!" rants, and I'm sick of people confusing their program's capabilities with their own skills. If your editor offers everything at your fingertips, great. Now edit a great video. If your program has extreme limitations, great. Now edit a great video.
And now I'm off to class! Hope you enjoyed (or actually thought about) Jen's Early Morning Rant.
See you, folks.
- Jen
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