JOURNAL: dj_ultima_the_great (Jen )

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  • Two hundred sixty sixth entry - "Never haves" 2007-02-06 15:30:00 Time - 2:02, Noise - The Matrix: Revolutions - "Navras"

    Kind of a strange entry today. Rather than go on about things I HAVE done, I wanted to list things that I have NOT done. Here goes!

    I have never been kissed.
    I have never smoked a cigarette.
    I have never used any other recreational narcotics.
    I have never been drunk.
    I have never been stung by a bee.
    I have never broken a bone.
    I have never received a piercing.
    I have never had short hair.
    I have never been in a MEP (currently remedying that!).
    I have never had the flu.
    I have never traveled on a plane.
    I have never left the United States by any other means.
    I have never taken a family vacation.
    I have never been to a family reunion.
    I have never performed a cartwheel.
    I have never owned a cellphone.
    I have never rode a horse.
    I have never played a First Person Shooter.
    I have never been to the concert of a band I listen to.
    I have never ordered Chinese take out.
    I have never owned a goldfish (or any other kind of fish).
    I have never slept through a class.
    I have never been hunting.
    I have never watched The Wizard of Oz.
    I have never installed hardware into the compy myself.
    I have never gotten into a fistfight with anyone.
    Lastly, I have never made a journal entry private.

    That's all I can think of right now. I'm sure there are plenty of other things I haven't done to make me seem like more of a dull person, but that's all for today. ^_~

    I'm going to see about ripping those DVDs for THE Video now. Need to get started on that really soon.

    So, see ya, folks~<3!


    - Jen 
  • Two hundred sixty fifth entry - the feeling of accomplishment 2007-02-06 02:03:45 Time - 10:41, Noise - Three Days Grace - "Just Like You"

    So, I finally did the deed - started my own MEP, that is.
    http://www.animemusicvideos.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=76663
    I'm happy that there's been so much enthusiasm for it, and I can only hope that it turns out great. I have a few other MEP ideas that I'm refining, too; although, I would never be crazy enough to run two projects at once. Hopefully, by the time this one concludes, I'll be good to go on one of the other two ideas. The other two both use a set mix of music, so they'll be easier to put out there. With this one, I pretty much had to do an interest gauge, or I would have never found a song mix for the project.

    In any case, things are going smoothly so far, and I hope they'll continue that way.

    In other news, I went home over the weekend so that I could cash my refund checks and whatnot. I had my mama fashion me a strange sort of ear-warming yarn thinger for my headphones. The foam was ripping off, but I abuse those things so much, that rather than buy replacement foam covers for the earpieces, I just had my mom knit a yarn covering for them. They look kinda like earmuffs now... with baby blue ears. o_O

    When I came back to my dorm on Sunday, I had my best friend tote me and my brother together. I needed him to install Nicole's HD (which used to be my old HD) into my computer so that I could recover a good deal of the files that had been corrupted - videos, pictures, and music, basically. And I swear, my brother argued the process every step of the way. Everytime something went wrong, no matter how minor, he'd want to throw in the towel. He was being a complete ass for no reason - especially since we had *just* taken him to his ex-girlfriend's house to get his stuff... stuff that he's been wanting for more than EIGHT MONTHS, by the way. And he feels like he has the right to be an ass to me after we finally give him that rare opportunity??? It's not like he could have gotten over there himself. He has no car and no license; so, he should be grateful that Nicole did him that favor and learn how to fucking reciprocate without bitching about it. I seriously wanted to slap the crap out of him. He finally did chill out later, but there was another problem anyway...

    ...we brought the wrong hard drive. I was about ready to kill someone right then and there, but at least I still got all of the pictures and music. The videos were on the other HD (she had copied the music and pics over to THAT one, thinking we would bring it). So, I'm still left trying to get a bunch of videos now. I'll have to do another transfer with her HD sometime, but I really don't count on Jonathan wanting to help - and Cod knows that Jarred is unreliable as hell anymore, too.

    So, things are half-done on the compy. At least we think we have the Eternal Reboot problem figured out now. With the exception of needing to clear more HD space, I'm basically good to go for editing any AMVs now. I know that I can safely start on my track for the FMV MEP, because it's the first track. I don't have to worry about her telling me it won't mix properly, at least. However... I guess I couldn't start it anyway. I need to wait for everyone else to claim a game first. Oh well.

    So, I just started taking another medication - a different antibiotic for acne; apparently, if I took my old one for too long, it would give me permanent skin discolorations. So, they switched me. I have to take this one in the morning and at night, and I learned the hard way that when the meds say, "take with food," THEY MEAN BUSINESS. I threw up three times before I could even leave for breakfast. -_- I ended up missing all of my classes because I felt too sick to get out of bed. So, the new 'note to self' is that I need to take my meds *after* I eat. I've never had a problem with meds that said that before, so this one must be pretty strong to make me sick like that. In the end, I learned a valuable lesson: listen to your doctor's directions. x_x

    I feel more and more like a drug addict with each passing day, you know. Wanna know what I'm taking? (I doubt it, but here they are anyway.)
    Antibiotic - twice daily, for acne
    Biotin - just trying it out for skin "toughening"; my fingernails bend like paper
    Tylenol PM - for those nights when I don't sleep
    Pain pills - prescription strength to help with what the next med controls...
    Birth control - because my body hates me. Simple as that. NOT taking it for its "intended" purpose.

    I mean, I've never been the type to rely on pills, and for a long time, the birth control was all I took. Then, little by little, things kept getting added on. I'll stop the Biotin after it runs out, because it doesn't seem to be helping anyway. I try to avoid the Tylenol PM as often as possible. Besides, it doesn't give you that pleasant drowsy buzz that drowsy cold medicine does. It just gives me enough of a sleepy feeling to finally drop off when I can't quite get to there myself. I take the pain pills less and less, and instead just endure most of the minor pains that come my way. My body's been pretty tame the last few months, honestly. The antibiotic I hope to stop in a few years - unless I'm one of the people cursed with adult acne... which wouldn't surprise me. The birth control I'll probably never stop, because I never intend on having kids, which is often supposed to lessen the severity of the monthly issues.

    I'd go to a bank and donate all my eggs, but firstly, they wouldn't let me, and secondly, I'd rather make all of those desperate parents adopt the fucked up little crack babies first. If they really want kids, they'll take what they can get. : /

    I have to see my sister this weekend. Well, "have to" is a strong term, but she knows where I can find one of those nifty light up boards that I've been wanting for so long. It's more expensive than I would have liked, but I doubt I'm going to find anything better. So, I'm gonna contact her during the week and see if she can pick me up. I'd like to spend the day with her again anyway. I don't get to see my sister very often, and although she can be a controlling psycho at times, we get along pretty well. Maybe I can con her into taking me to that Asian buffet place again. o.o

    Anywho, I'm really rambling this time around. I need sleep, so that I can prepare myself to freeze my ass off walking to my one and only class tomorrow. Somedays, I wonder if it's worth it. -_-

    Nighty night, folks~<3


    - Jen 
  • Two hundred sixty fourth entry - paranoia, halls, and bisection 2007-02-02 19:03:26 Time - 5:17, Noise - Final Fantasy VII - "Beyond Midgar (OC Remix)"

    This entry is just a smattering of thoughts, so kindly ignore the disjointedness.

    They have this "thing" on campus that's called dorm hopping or hall hopping. Basically, all of the dorms on campus are set up in such a way that you can walk halfway to class completely indoors if you just keep entering the side doors on each building and going through the first floor to the other side. Some kids seriously do it during the winter; I never did, and probably never will. Personally, I'd rather just be cold the entire time than go back and forth between hot and cold.

    When I was a kid, I would never put my hands above the head of my bed when I was laying down at night (my bed was sideways against the wall and had no headboard, if that makes it make more sense spatially). Why? I was thoroughly convinced that something hiding just beneath the head of my bed would latch onto my hand and rip it off. A few years later, instead of an animal being under the head, I believed a zombie was laying perfectly under my bed and would do a similar thing if I left my hands dangling.

    When I was about nine or so, I began to have ill thoughts of the cracks in the sidewalk. No, I didn't believe that I'd break my mother's back by stepping on them. Rather, I believed that a laser would shoot out and cleanly bisect my feet if I stepped on them. Later, I believed that if a vehicle passed me by at the same time that I was walking over a crack, the same thing would happen. In fact, I avoided any area where a line might cross with the sidewalk crack. I still step over cracks to this day - and NEVER when a car is passing me.

    I can't pass by my sister's old room at night without having a light on. Someone tried to come through the window once when she still lived there and now I always believe that someone is just waiting there for someone to pass by. So, when no one is in the house, I turn on the bathroom light, the hall light, Mom's light, and my light (but not my sister's). Then, after I finally reach my light, I turn off the bathroom light, the hall light, Mom's light, and finally walk into my own room - as if the presence of light would somehow drive off a criminal looking to kill me.

    There is a room in my basement that I've never entered. In fact, my brother is the only one who has ever been in there. It's just a storage room, and there's nothing particularly strange or bad about it. It just freaks me out - and I'm not the only one. My mother also refuses to enter said room.

    Something that downright scares me is abyss. I love looking at pictures of stars and related stellar objects, but it makes me uneasy to see something just sitting in the dead of space. Black holes are the worst, however fascinating they may be. Most people recognize this as my more specific fear of "videogame abyss," but it's more generalized than that. As for the specific phobia, games like Spyro are terrific examples of what make me uncomfortable. Dropping down into an endless swirl of color is disturbing. Also, in Final Fantasy X, fighting the special boss Shinryuu bothers me, because you're in an endless abyss of water. There are other examples, but they all lead to the same fear of the nothingness - of the abyss.

    When I speak to people, I can't look them in the eyes. It doesn't matter who it is. Even when speaking to my own family, I stare straight ahead at the television, whether or not it's on. When eating with someone, I look at my food and at the other people as often as possible. It's not that conversation makes me nervous - because it doesn't. I'll talk about anything freely with people, and very few topic truly ruffle my feathers. It's simply being looked at that bothers me.

    The idea of traveling overseas scares the hell out of me. I have to do it for three months for my major (Spanish), but the idea of being removed from home for that length of time frightens me. I'm excited to ride on a plane for the first time (provided there are no snakes!), but I can already tell that I'm going to be miserable for the first few weeks at least - and wary of everything.

    I don't trust anyone. Anyone who says that they're honest is lying. The ones who admit to lying are the ones I'm more likely to lean towards. Lies prove you're human. Lies tell me that you are creative. Successful liars are especially interesting folks. As for me? I'm honest most of the time, but it's more for a lack of things to lie about than any real virtue on my part. My life isn't interesting or dangerous enough to need to lie about it. About the worst secret I keep is the one about reading/writing (fanfics) and keeping (doujinshis) guy on guy smut. That secret is the one I keep from my mother, because while she doesn't mind the fact that I like gay guys (and even jokes about it), she could never understand the extent of it. Her brain doesn't work like that. So, until I think she can handle it, I fully intend on being an honest liar for that one.

    I seem to be drifting off topic (if there ever was one), so I'll end this entry now. I'm off for the weekend, and I'll get back to you all when I get back.

    See you, folks.


    - Jen 
  • Two hundred sixty third entry - 3 isn't the charm, folks 2007-01-30 23:40:08 Time - 9:44, Noise - Tsubasa OST 2 - "Storm and Fire"

    Remember how I was talking about corrupt files on my compy earlier? Well, I wasn't really thinking that this might extend to the source footage of my "action" video. Needless to say, I have to put this video on hold for now. Luckily, I have a version of the video that I rendered just before winter break, so it won't be hard to pick it back up. I have a reference to go from when "re-editing" the thing.

    It's a little depressing that I have to drop that video (it's my third one in a row - hence, the title, "3 isn't the charm, folks"), but something good did come out of it. Now, I'm forced to focus on THE Video, since that was my next one. This will hopefully give me plenty of time to finish it before ACen.

    I'm going to try ripping again tomorrow. I ripped the Cardcaptor Sakura Movie 2 DVD once successfully, but I haven't tried any chapter DVDs yet. Now that my computer's all reconfigured and whatnot, I expect to run into a whole slew of new problems with this. Oh well. I have patience, EADFAG, and the forums. If one of those three doesn't solve it, then nothing will.

    I decided to re-watch Season 2 of Tsubasa again, so with that, I'll be off.

    Nighty night, folks.


    - Jen 
  • Two hundred sixty second entry - 5600 hits... o_O 2007-01-30 19:00:13 Time - 5:48, Noise - Tsubasa OST 3 - "Siren Song"

    Actually, it freaked me out more to see 5555 hits a day or two ago. And yes, I realize that I greatly shortened the title of the Tsubasa OST. It's too long to fit on one line.

    So, things are mostly back in order. I got Magix re-installed, as well as Photoshop. There are some sideline programs that I know I'm forgetting, but I'll worry about them when I actually have to use them. That reminds me... (because I was just thinking about the PSX Multiconverter)...

    Are you a gamer? Show some love. ^_~
    http://www.animemusicvideos.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=76320

    I'm really looking for more suggestions about the music at this point. Like, not just genre ideas - I want specific mixes put in front of me. I keep looking through my CDs and music collection, but I'm not really finding anything that would work well for a MEP and suit the desires of the various potential editors. That's why I'm reaching out to the participants for ideas.

    As for me, if this thing gets underway, I'd like to make a track as well. However, I'll be waiting until everyone else picks out a game before I go through the leftovers. Using a single mix for the music would kind of ruin my chance to use Chocobo's Dungeon 2 again, though. That game is WAY too cute for a mix that's likely to be serious or dramatic. XD

    Anywho... I need to go to band now, so I'm off.

    See you, folks.


    - Jen

    PS: to the readers - even if you don't want to participate in the project, could I ask that you post your thoughts, if you have any, on the music? 
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