JOURNAL: Voices_Of_Ryan (Jacob Lawler)

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  • Sunday, January 18th, 2004 2004-01-18 12:45:42 Everyday I feel a little bit worse about her.

    Should I resent or even hate green eye's for what she's done to me?

    No probably not, cause it was probably more my falt than it was her's anyway.

    I'm talking to her right now over aim...
    *sighs*

    My new video is getting worked on slowly,
    I have a really bad sore throat, hurts like a mofo.

    *yawns*

    I waited all last night for her to show up.. she never did,
    So I'm sorta tired...
    But i'm gonna stay on to talk to her anyway,
    Wish I didn't feel like this about her,
    Cause she doesn't even think about me...

    Current Mood: crappy
    Current Music: Me First and the Gimmie Gimmie's - "I belive I can fly"

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  • Sunday, January 18th, 2004 4:31am - Song 2004-01-18 04:44:26 Even though that green eyed girl is still "with" me (friends...) it feels like I've lost a part of me.

    Everytime I see a picture of hers,
    It breaks me in two... She's all i think about.
    I can't help it,
    I just can't, It breaks me...
    It hurts me,

    I just wish she knew how much... god
    How much I care.

    Somtimes I just feel like crying everytime I think about her.

    Those green eyes...
    they seem to be as deep as I want em' to..

    "I'm just so tired,
    won't you sing me to sleep?
    and fly threw my dreams,
    so I can hitch a ride with you tonight,
    and get away from this place,
    have a new name and place,
    I just aint the same without you in my life............

    Late night drives,
    all alone in my car,
    I can't help but start, singin' lines from all our favorite songs,

    and melodies in the air singin' life just ain't fair, sometimes I just can't belive you're gone,

    and I'm sure the view from heaven,
    beats the hell out of right here...

    and if we all belive in heaven,
    maybe we'll make it threw one more year,
    down here..............

    feel your fire,
    when it's cold in my heart,
    and things sorta start remindin' me of my last night with you,

    I only need one more day,
    just one more chance to say,
    I wish that you had gone out with me to"

    Current Mood: lonely
    Current Music: YellowCard - "View From Heaven"

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  • Saturday, January 17th, 2004 - Green Eyes... 2004-01-17 16:53:22 So I got the football yanked out from under me again(read: Charlie Brown refrence incase you arnt following my little "soap opera") seem's to happen alot with her.

    Oh yeah anyway.

    I'm trying to figure out how to use Xvid to make a good compadible version for play on better computers (it'll probably go on my direct download service).

    Mpeg work's okay, but at anything more than 100% everything get's really blury and mpeg is basicly starting to get on my nerves.

    Song quote of the day:
    "Here I go,
    Scream my lungs out and
    try to get to you,
    I let go,
    But there's just no one,
    No one like you,

    You are my only,
    you are my only one..."
    - Yellow Card "only one"


    For some reason I mentioned the lyric in a forum over at www.animemusicvideos.org and some guy guessed what the song was from.

    Lol, it wouldn't be that funny if he didn't guess I was making a video to it too.

    I dunno why I have a journal, somebody asked me and precided to tell me I talk to much about that quote "damn green eyed girl".

    I guess I do it cause it's a journal if you don't wanna read it, you don't have to...
    You have a right to bitch in your own journal.

    I guess I'll go back to working on my video and talking to green eyes... *sighs* she might never know how much I really care.

    *huffs* maybe it's truly better if she doesn't.

    Current Mood: distressed
    Current Music: YellowCard - "My Only One"
     
  • Nicole 2004-01-16 23:36:47 "I'd give it up for just one more day with you"

    =]

    One more day... 
  • Arigatomyna 2004-01-15 08:58:45 I understand you're upset and all, and I feel your grief.

    But constantly bitching about it won't help anyone, just leave it alone, maybe she'll grow out of it and actually buy dvd's? 
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