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you cant just drop your passion........
2002-12-30 18:23:48
ok, i have been giving this alot of though and decided that im going to try my best to contiune making AMV's.
making AMV's is what makes me more uniqe then other ppl i know here. im the only video editor i know of around my area. i cant stay away from AMV's, i made it preaty much my life now, i know it may sound stupid but i have grown very fond of the fact that i create somehing even non-anime fans can enjoy. i even hope to make my skillz take to make it a career in video editing since i love it so much.
last night i was soo pissed off and depressed b/c i try and do something i love to do and no one here cares. thats why i got all pissed off and basicly threw in the towel on the whole video editing thing. theres nothing i can do.....i know some of you may think its lame of me to come back in less then 24 hours but if u have been making AMV's for over a year then u can understand why i cant leave.......this is a hobby i cant just turn away from, i cant just drop everything and leave.
AMV's are the only way i know how to express myself as a person. i probably would go insane if i just kept all my feelings inside but AMV's helps me exploit those feelings in a different way.
im going to try my very best to keep my cool and not throw in the towel again everyone. but when the day comes that i get my own computer, im going to fucking go all out and make the best fucking AMV's i had ever made!!!!!!!
im sorry if i had made ppl feel sorry for me or wasted there time reading my bull shit. i just wanted to say thank you to those who have supported me. -
Goodbye........For now!
2002-12-30 00:14:43
hello everyone,
i just came here to say goodbye to eveyone. now im posting here b/c im looking for sympathy from anyone, just though i would take 1 more vist here and tell u all what is going on.
sorry to say that for now im going to have to retire AMV's. i never thought i would hear myself say that ever! today i got a video idea and got the song and everything from a friend here in town and discussed it with a couple of ppl. well today i started my video witch was going to be my very first drama video. well most of you guys know that on christmas my comp got reformatted and i have to get everything back. this wasent to bad since i didnt have any AMV's going at the time. well today i started my video and then my buddy calls me up to go out for a bit. i was gone for 1 hour......JUST ONE GOD DAMN HOUR and i come back to find that my father (A FUCKING AGAIN) goes and reformats the comp AGAIN! thats TWICE IN LESS THEN 5 FUCKING DAYS!! wanna know the reason? THERE IS NO REASON!!!! he did it b/c he said there were errors......BULL SHIT ON A STICK!!!!!! i have been on this comp preaty much every night for 8 hours ever since christmas and not fucking once have i came across ANYTHING wrong with it. maybe if he stoped going to all of his fucking porn sites maybe there wouldnt be anything wrong!
theres no point in me continuing if all my parents are going to do is fucking reformat this fucking thing every time something doesnt go their way!!
i just wanted to thank those of you who were a very great help to me in my 1 year of editing (ya thats preaty pathetic) you guys have no idea how much it ment to me to know and get along with you guys and if theres any reason that you might think im talking about you, most likely i am. this experiance has been the best experiance in my whole life and i will never forget about it and i will do my best to put it to good use!!
i just to have a special thanx go out to Hsien Lee.......hes the one who inspired me to start AMV creating in the first place. i will never forget what he has done for me.
and an even greater thanx goes out to all of my AMV buddies that were there with me from the very start til now. u guys helped me soo much from simple editing techniuqes to inspiration!! i thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart!!
maybe once i get my own computer i will return to this community and give it my all!!!! i know im not very well known and i have only made 8 video's and they wernt very good but i still enjoyed making them so matter how crappy some of them may be! i just wished i could have had my Akira Remaster video hosted some where since it was my last video.
anyways, ill still be on the AMV Mailing list and still check my email but i wont be around here or on AIM as much as i used to any more. again, thank you everyone!!
but for now, i must say goodbye........i wish u all luck in your future endevours. -
Marry Christmas (ya i know, very original ^_^)
2002-12-24 21:11:40
hey everyone,
its been about 20 days since i posted in my journal and since christmas is tomorrw, might as well update it.
(i know some of you guys are getting sick of me always talking about my g/f so skip this part if u dont wanna hear about it ^_^)
well for christmas im going to go to my g/f's place and have a dinner there and on top of that, i have a dinner here at home as well (2 fucking dinners in 1 damn day!! THATS SUICIDE!!). i cant wait to spend my christmas with my g/f. she has to be the best thing that has happened to me (well, except to be able to make AMV's ^^).
anyways, on a more AMV front, Mission Improbable was a huge success!! i thought it was fucknig great and think everyone should see it! im very proud and lucky i got a chance to be part of this multi-editor project and im very proud of all of the peolpe i got the chance to work with ^_^ even though many of u guys dont know me very well i still thought it was a great experiance. excellent work everyone!!!! ^_^
ok, now heres the real kick in the teeth: i dont have ANY footage or ANY idea's for a video for the MindWarpET contest thats next month!!! this sux ass b/c i really want to enter at least 2 video's and i only have 1 and thats my Akira Remaster and i dont think its going to do that well in the contest anyways so i need something else. just to make a long story short......IM FUCKED!!!!
anyways, i hope everyone of you (yes, even the ones i fucking hate to death *looks at MJ* hehe jk MJ, u know your still my buddy ^_^) has a very Marry Christmas and a Happy New Year (i know my new year will be happy b/c ill be shit faced the whole fucking time!!!)
g'night everyone and happy holidays!!!! ^_^ -
ARRG! SCHOOL SUX (like u guys didnt know)
2002-12-04 19:19:08
i cant belive the ammount of bull shit some of my teachers are pulling on me just befor christmas break!!! ill start with what class is screwing me over from least to most (dont worry, only 3 of'em)
Foods class (AKA: cooking class): ya this class might sound neat but its not. you get book work right up the asshole and little time to actualy do any REAL cooking. anyways, we have to get 4 cooking labs done b4 the break. we are doing japanese foods in this unit (since its a culture we get to choose) and get a huge report done on it.
English: well lets see here.......we just finished reading a book called "Night" by Elie Weilzer (i bet i butchered that name) and we have to do a final visual's project about either the book or the Holocaoust itself. well me and my friend decided to do a music video and use various WWII/Holocause footage. this is due on monday and we havent even started yet (thanx to my friend who hasent gotten the footage yet!!). when we get back from the break, we have to do a reading project, what we do is read a stupid book, answer a bunch of stupid questions and make a stupid project of some sort on it.
ok now here is where my christmas break turns to shit!! i think its safe to say "christmas holidays..........OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW YOU GO!!"
heres what Fatwood wants us to do (Fatwood is a nick name to my Art teacher from those who REALLY dont like him.)
Art: ok, we got a painting project we are working on now and we have to paint a picture on a small wooden pannel thats about 61cm x 51cm. i know what im doing but i have to draw the pic out first and then paint it. im not even 1/4 done drawing it yet. this prick wants us to get this done by monday.......MONDAY!!! the same fucking day my english teacher wants that video done by! NO FUCKING WAY MAN! my art teacher is going to have to wait til next Friday for me to get done. ok, now here is why im so pissed at this bitch. he wants us to do 3.......THREE PROJECT DONE BY JAN. 17th! he wants one done on the 20th of this month, jan. 6th (the day we get back to school), and jan. 17th (the very last day of them semester), and 5 report card drawings (ill explain what that is real quick: we have to draw, paint or what ever of ANYTHING we want in 1 report card period, i think we get like 3 per semester and last year, those fuckers almost failed me b/c i didnt get very many done since i take so damn long to draw anything its not that i suck, i just take my time in making it look good.) and with those 5 pics, he wants use to do FIVE different mediums!! with the 3 major projects, he wants us to do: 1 sulpture 1) 2D picture and 1 other thing of our choice. any pics we do it has to be 61cm x 51cm. *sigh* i can kiss my christmas break good bye since ill be spending most of it doing this fucking projects!!!!!!!
I HATE SCHOOL AND I CANT WAIT 'TIL JUNE WHEN I CAN JUST GIVE IT THE FINGER AND TELL IT TO BURN IN HELL!!!! -
"Remeber those who have lost there lives for peace"
2002-11-12 01:21:31
well this long weekend went by preaty quick, really stressful to.....well some of it anyways. heres another entry as to what went on durning my weekend:
friday: i went to have lunch again with my buddy, his mom, my g/f and her mother (just for the record, my buddy's mom and my g/f's mom have been friends for over 20 some years so dont get the wrong idea ^_^) then went back my g/f's place to watch some t.v then headed home.
saturday: ok, we had this planned out for over 3 weeks. we were going to go swimming at a hotel in the town thats not to far from here (kick ass swimming pool to!!) but then last second (and thats not an overstatement either) my buddy said he couldnt go b/c the roads were to icy (and he was our only way to get there). i think this was the....ummmmm about 4th time we had to posepone going swimming and its kinda pissen me off a little.
Sunday: so then my g/f came over to my place for a bit then we called up my friend who screwed up our plans (AGAIN btw) and decided to rent a couple of movies and watch them at his place. we watched our movies then i took my g/f home and went back to my friends place where we were going to get some booze and get loaded since we couldnt go swimming....and we got outta the house to get some booze then i go to both booze stores here and there fucking closed at god damn 11:00pm! shit was i ever pissed off, i was really looking forward to my booze again. stayed at my friends place then this morning i came home and did my Art homework (whitch i have been working on preaty much all fucking weekend). worked on it for about 4 hours today and im still not fucking done, now i have to color the thing (hey i got the hard part done, drawing it.) its suppose to be due tomorrow morning but theres no way in hell i can do it......i doubt theres very many ppl done it anyways (heres an upside to a sexist bastard art teacher: if the hot girls in our class are not done, then we get our time extended). the project im working on has to be one of my best work yet, ill have to see how it turns out when its all colored amd if its any good, ill take a picture of that pic and the one on my wall, scan it and show some of ya.
well thats it for me everyone. hope u all had a good weekend, if not....theres always next weekend or booze sitting there for ya ^_^
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