JOURNAL: Alternababe (Sabrina )

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  • going crazy... 2006-02-17 00:15:13 Aw, man. I am -so- in the mood for some "affection" with a hot guy or 2, or a girl, or whatever. I was hoping my friend would come over today & we could have some fun together, but then he didn't. For some reason, he refuses to come to my house. I guess he doesn't feel the same way about me that I feel about him. I need love too, ya know.

    Also, I found out that I have lost enough weight that I can wear a size 3 again. I still feel fat, tho. Which sucks. I'm saving up this year to get liposuction. I have about $200 earmarked, but then I spent $45 on lipstick & $45 on clothes @ Hot Topic. I want to shop at Ipso Facto, but Fullerton is kinda far from me.

    Want.....make out....with......hot guy......*whine* 
  • 1411 hits 2006-02-16 03:02:00 I am rapidly and unhappily becoming addicted to myspace. Have found some cool looking people & got added by 21 people. The site isn't very user-friendly, tho.

    I also haven't been sleeping. I can;t remember the last time I actually slept an entire night. Maybe it was last Wednesday. Last night, I don't think I actually got any sleep at all. I was up all night with horrible cramps, too tired to move, to uncomfortable to relax. I had a 7:40am gastroenterologist appt, and I was awake when the alarm went off, tho I was in far too much pain to drive. The doc told me to avoid sugar, processed foods & dairy. She also told me specifically to move out, since stress was making me nervous & my heart rate & blood pressure were all screwed up. That doesn't help me. I am probably going to see a private doc, not 1 in my HMO. All in all, I managed to consume a glass of grapefruit juice, about 10 fried zucchini sticks, and 5 pieces of puffin cereal. At least I'm losing weight :)

    Jaddzia - virtualdub & vdmod are like where I go when I feel like I need to be punished. They scare & hurt me O.O 
  • extra entry 2006-02-14 01:43:44 amvs I'm watching:

    Mayumi's Daughter.avi
    RahXephon_NGEOpening.avi
    2-mix (the seizure inducing video)
    Telegram Sam/Trigun

    I'd do music I'm listening to, but that's like 200+ songs a day... 
  • it's been awhile... 2006-02-14 01:25:56 Weird week...2 weeks actually, judging from my last journal entry date. I've been surviving on the boom box & Lemony Sincket books since my mac broke. It's ok now.

    Lessee, been keeping track of my finances, and I have $55 more than I thought. I may just be able to stick to my New Year's resolution to save $100/month after all. Also, I am looking into getting a temp job or something on my days off. I could really use the money.

    Other than that, for my own memory, this was the Thursday of depression, the Friday of Chris's house for 2 hours, the car keys being taken away, the drunken Scott on Saturday & subsequent all-nighter of screamning between him & my mom, which continued until Sunday, the day we went for an awkward lunnch @ Fudruckers. Their food is expensive, but Soooooooo good. This is also the weekend I decided to change my life, instead of dying. Sometimes, it's one or the other, when you can't go on the same way anymore. Maybe I will still use my college fund to go to Hawaii or Europe, and try to start a new life there, or jst drive down the PCH & not turn around, just go to San Diego or Mexico.. I wont do those things. Not yet. I wont crash on Chris's couch either, especially since there are already 4+ people living in 2 rooms. I need a place of my own, or for this place to become tolerable, by any means neccessary. 
  • 1380 hits 2006-01-30 22:42:31 Weird day. Felt unusually nervous & jittery, perhaps due to hunger. Went to school, 2nd & 3rd classes were cancelled. I unfortunately didn't find out til after hauling ass to get from the Food Court to campus before 2pm. If class had happened, I would have SO been on time. I did get a chance to get to know some people from the class a little better. This 15-year-old girl in the class (remember, this is a college) was waiting for her mom to pick her up, & got out what I thought was a walkie-talkie-style cell phone, but in actuality was a ham radio. That;s right: a HAM RADIO. I heard her say the other week that everyone in her family operated ham radios, but I didn't really take her too seriously. That's just funny to me.
    So I had some free time. I decided to go home, play around on my computer. It was going well until my computer suddenly died once again.
    So I tried sewing a hem on some overly long pants. I am no seamstress, let me tell you. I turn the sewing machine on, start sewing, realize there is only 1 thread instead of 2. Take off bobbin cover, notice bobbin is devoid of thread. Release thread slack. Wind around bobbin. Commence sewing. Realize there is a problem. Remove bobbin. See bobbin is hopelessly tangled. Take this as a personal challenge: my Gordian Knot. No, I couldn't just give up & cut the thread. I felt compelled to untangle it. Simple, right? No. It took what felt like an hour to get it partially detangled. I was really just killing time anyway. All in all, I cut the thread. Then the top thread detatched itself from the machinery. Classtime anyway, so I left to find a sign-in sheet.
    And now here I am, trying to decide how to spend my free time. I don't really feel like being creative today. I read all my magazines. Maybe I'll read the copy of Alice in Wonderland I found lying around the house. I might buy another Sandman book tomorow, or something. I'm not the kind of person who does well being bored, or the kind person who can easily entertain herself. I wonder what it's like to live in LA..... 
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