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1492 hits
2006-02-25 20:11:58
I'm dizzy & tired now. I'm trying to review all the videos nominated in the vcas this year. So far, I've done about 15. I helped clean the house, and swept the living room, garage, and driveway, which always tires me out. Today I have eaten: a cheese "rose of the prophet muhammad" (hahaha), a cup of coffee, a glass of guava nectar, and a mint frapp. Fortunately, my dexadrine makes it so that I dont get hungry, and I still have a little bit of energy. Speed will do that for you. Mentally, tho, I'm dead. Reviewing wil be tough.... I just dont want to clean anymore. It's always moving books & folders from the living room to the garage & back, becuz theres no space in either room to accomidate them.
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I just don't know what to do anymore....
2006-02-25 15:20:43
The shit has really hit the fan, and it's going to get ugly. My mom's crazy boyfriend was caught text messaging another girl, and now me & my mom are kicking him out. The lockshith is re-keying every lock in the house, altho he can't do anything about the big plate glass window in front. It's not bulletproof or rockproof, but with any luck that won't be a problem. There's no money left til the end of the month, and my cat had a $900 vet bill. I feel like my life is falling apart, but I'm still here. I have a place to sleep tonight, unless the police come back & say that Scott has a right to be here. When I filed a petty theft report (he took my brand new $300 hard drive, as well as the house phone & a bunch of cords from the back of my mom's computer, and her important papers), the police said he couldn't be considered a suspect since I didn't actually see him take them. If he brings them back, I plan to press charges if at all possible. I hope I dont have to go back to the court house & try to get another restraining order. The first one didnt work because the judge said that because he had only threatened us, and not actually hit us, that there was nothing we could do. I say that since he pays no rent, he has no right to be here. I'd rather sleep in my car than spend one more night crying myself to sleep under the same roof as that asshole, while he yells at my mom for hours. I bet the reason I'm sick so often (aside from the holes in the house & the semi-toxic levels of mold our contractors discovered) is because I'm so stressed out all the time. Even when I lived with my grandparents, I was stressed, because my grandmother is an alcoholic & would sometimes hit me. Scott, my mom's bf, has never hit me, altho he has screamed in my face and put the chain on the door so my mom & I couldnt leave while he lectured us. He also took my car keys, which is theft, because he does not own my car and has no right to the keys. I just dont like the feeling of not being able to leave.
If he does leave, and doesnt come back with a gun/crowbar, my mom plans to finish the repairs to the house & sell it. We stand to make a substantial profit. I want her to give me some, so I can buy a boat or something, and start living on my own. It's time for me to grow up. I just dont know how.... - 1460 hits 2006-02-22 10:59:17 Lessee, got my camera working, somewhat. Gee, the more megapixels you get, the uglier you realize you are. Those things show -everything.- Mine makes the nin video for "into the void" (the one with the extreme extreme colseups of Trent) look like a fashion magazine. Ironically, I waited for the pics to load fully, so they come into focus, only to open them in iPhoto's editor & airbruch them back into blurriness. I did manage to brush out my zit, tho. Why did I get a huge zit the same week I got a haircut, and why did I choose that time to take pics? I always take pics at the worst times, i.e. no makeup, bad hair, etc. I might upload some to my myspace account later today, if I have time. What I really need to do is work on my 3D design class project, which I was supposed to have done over the 3-day weekend, and that I haven't touched since Wednesday. Don't wanna re-create sculpture idea on 3"x3" paper, then enlarge to 3'x3' butcher paper! But I gotta.
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1449 hits
2006-02-21 16:28:05
I feel sick today...Our central heat broke again, apartenly asa safty feature when the filter is clogged. So I got sick again. Our house is about 10 degrees colder than the outside, and its been 40 outside. I spent yesterday in b ed. I ddnt want to get up today, but I got shit to do. I feel weak. Maybe I;m hungry today. I ate 3 or 4 diet cheerry pepsis & a couple crackers with cheese, but I dont think that counts as food. Maybe Ill eat later. I habe zero energyg for cooking.
I calculated it out, and I was sick for about 5 months last year. Thats not healthy....;P -
1423 hits
2006-02-17 17:16:48
it's Friday. Normally I'd go to my friend Chris's house, but I'm mad at him for not calling me or coming over yesterday, so screw him. Instead, I'm watching amvs, chatting with friends, and getting started in my first amv in about a year. I calculate I will be able to make between 3 and 21, based on the size of my new external hard drive. After that, the digital masters, which I absolutely refuse to delete, will fill up all available space & I'll need a new plan, probably a dvd burner. I have ideas, mostly sad, but getting started is very difficult for me, probably due to my severe ADD. Ah, well, with my dexadrine in hand, a diet pepsi on desk, and dvds to burn, I am begining. I really want to get all y ideas made, even the ones with lots of effects. I signed up for a mep with openings & closings, checked that no one had already done my idea, and am starting. Starting is hard & scary, but once I get into it, it's no prob. Wish me luck!
Amvs I'm watching:
Chobits/castle in the sky
amvck3
luffy vs. sandman
zorro vs. ironman
my unfinished video for moonlight shadow
stop mocking me!
scoob's birthday
ebichu rocks
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