- 5709 hits 2009-07-01 20:27:09 Hot. Tired. Dizzy. Busy day at work. Many customers. Managed to finish crosswrod, but too 7 hours. Usually takes 30 minutes. I want to go to NEverland for Michael JAckson' funeral. MAybe go see Ice Age 3. Or at least have one of my frends call me back about the possible bbq on Friday. Need to make some calls, then watch more amvs.
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5696 hits
2009-07-01 01:43:59
Last couple days, I only felt like watching amvs. For 5 hours straight. On the plus side, I found lots of new vids to watch on repeat. On the minus side, I also had to watch a lot of not-so-good vids.
More stuff happened, but Eric's home, so I'll pay attention to him & write later. Maybe. -
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2009-06-26 13:47:47
Wow, we have internet again. My evil roomate, Thad, turned it off without asking or notifying me. So he needs to leave now. In other news, my life feels like it's getting back to normal. I had a hard week at work, but I'm still alive, and it's the weekend now. With the internet back, I can resume my job & apartment search. I'm thinking both would ideally be located a bit farther south. With rush hour traffic to consider, I'm going to look for another job near wherever my new place will be.
SO yesterday Farrah Fawcett & Michael Jackson. Farrah I wasn't too surprised about, but Jacko? Shock! At first I didn't believe it, but it's true. Everyone was staring at the news like it was 9/11 again. Weird how upset people get over celebrity deaths. Ok, so MJ was more (in)famous than most, but still. SOme of my co-workers were expressing disdain over the tendency of people to gather when a celebrity dies. I just decided to avoid West LA for a while. I saw 2 accidents on the way over to Leslie's house, and couldn't help but wonder if they were people who heard the news while driving.
Sigh. Also, I'm hoping to better manage my anger. I tend to bottle it inside all the time, but when I don't say what I really want to say to people, I just waste all my energy being stressed. In my blog and when I write ops, I can say what I truly feel without an angry person in front of me screaming at me. I really wish I didn't feel the need to be so nice to everyone all the time.
So I've been watching amvs to try & calm down. It's actually super effective. I watched a bunch of Nostromo's vids and felt amazed, once again. I wish to someday be at that level. Augira still blows my mind. Running Man, on the other hand, will not only not play on the old mac, it won't play on the new mac. Perhaps there are a hundred different versions online for a reason.
I'm hungry, where's Eric, I want to go to Rutt's now & eat French toast & saimin. -
5654 hits
2009-06-20 14:46:17
Another morning. At this point, I'm just waiting for my life to get back to normal, whatever normal means now. I spent yesterday with my sister Lori & my mom. We went to the Korean friendship bell, & Lori & I hung out in the apartment & I showed her some amvs. Everyone who has never seen an amv seems to think they're like this other mysterious world of amazement. Maybe I have a different view, having made some & having seen quite a few. I dunno.
I also called my Dad last night. This is the 2nd time I've spoken to him. I think we are going to meet. I pretty much want to just kinda back off a little & facebook him later. I'm trying really hard not to freak out.
So today I'm going to take it easy, call the only person I really care about besides Eric (Nikki) and hopefully sit a@ home, watch Ghibli films & chill out.
It's weird that I can write so much in this thing about the most mundane, unimportant minutia of my life, but when something big like this comes around, I can't get the words from out of my mind to flow neatly onto the computer. It's probably because I don't REALLY want to think about it right now, and it's so big what's happening. OR at least it feels big. I'm wondering if my family will treat me differently now that they know I'm not the only one. I had similar feelings when my Aunt got pregnant, but it turned out ok. We'll see. - 5634 hits 2009-06-18 22:43:57 I'm pretty upest rite now. I have a sister. it's just another thing my mom lied about. why the fuck didnt she ever tell me? a;; the shit she told em about my birth, and how i fucked up her vsgina is now a bunch of shit, it isnt my faukt she chose natural childbirth with the 1st 1. wtf? why didn't i get a chance to know my sister b4 now? its not fair. its no t fair that she never told me/ it hurts taht she never told me / my dad nas other kids, but thats different becuz i never knew him, so it doesnt bother me . im really sad i never knew my own sister. i always wanted a sister, asomeone i could relate to. i want to call her ,but i dont want it to be weird. im just reallyy upset right not & need a hug/some1 to talk to . no 1 is ansering their phone.
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