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yup.... there's a little about amvs at the end :P
2003-08-22 00:30:41
I used to be extremely shy. I mean so shy that it was rediculous. I was this way up until shortly before my senior year of high school; just about two years ago. One day, out of the blue, I just say to hell with it! Why the fuck should I give a damn (and even let if bother me) of what other people think or me or my actions? The whole concept made no sense to me so I just threw it out the door. So.... everything was cool and my shyness was overcome in a matter of minutes. Everythings been fine up til a little while ago, when I felt like I was being shy again but just couldn't figure out why the hell it was happening. I finally realized today what I had done. I threw out the whole concept of caring what other people think about me, and by doing this I overlooked a small detail that went unnoticed. I didn't want to give up caring what everyone thought about me; I now notice that each time a end up in a situation in which i want to leave a good impression i end up looking shy because i lost of the ability, or will rather, to do such an act with ease. I feel enlightened that I see the obviousness in this simple matter.
NE WAY>>>>.................
In terms of AMVs, I was trying to finish a new Trigun video in time to enter it into AWA Expo. But, because Im so fucking lazy, only 45 seconds of it is complete and it will in no way be ready by the deadline, even if i overnight it or upload via FTP. Instead I think I might just enter my new dragula video for the hell of it.
I dont know if I will still be going to Anime Weekend Atlanta or not. I have the room, and have pre-reg'd, but the ppl who said they'd go with me seem to have bailed on the idea, leaving me to a very lonely 9 hour car trip. <yawn> I dont know. I have til 3am Sept 26 to decide :P -
hmmm...
2003-08-18 15:35:13
I really should be happy right now, or atleast content, but instead I feel a sense of melancholy.
Damn. I think I just might be too paranoid to think that something good could be happening to me.
oh well. off to work -
oh why oh why
2003-08-18 00:21:04
oh why did I buy Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo for PSX!?
All attention I was giving my video has been shifted to this utterly addicting video game!
gah! -
wow
2003-08-15 23:14:46
im actually working on a video.
maybe its b/c im under pressure to finish it for awa expo. i dont really care if i do or not, it would just be nice. -
crap.
2003-08-14 16:08:56
i'm pretty confident in saying i've lost whatever it was which made me want to make videos over the past few years.
i might be meeting my end. i kind of hope i last atleast one more year before i quit the scene though ^_^
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