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blam-o
2005-03-21 21:52:31
i have no sense of what's working anymore. my brain isn't, i'm quite sure of that. my body is rejecting me right now, giving me all types of sickness just for fun. i think deep down it hates me for some reason. i'll have to ask it about that later. shit. my parents are telling me they don't care for me anymore, well, maybe they do, but they have one hell of a way of showing it. i'm 19 and going through shit i haven't felt since 12. shit. shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cock sucker, mother fucker, tits, fart, turd and twat. i want to stop.... this entry is bad, let me try again..... start over.....
i have no sense of what's working anymore. my brain is now on a holiday. it's off in some country getting drunk while my body stays here and suffers the consequences. why do i feel dumbed down, like, everything. my speech is lowering itself to the level of the children i work with, and my mind is moving at the rate of dial up. to top it all off, i kissed the girl i really like, but i still don't know how she feels about me. and shit, i really wanna implode, but it's all shaping up to be one big life of shitty shitty shit. why am i saying this to amv.org? shit. shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cock sucker, mother fucker, tits, fart, turd and twat. i want to stop.... this entry is bad, let me try again..... start over.....
i have no sense of what's working anymore. my brain..... shit. shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cock sucker, mother fucker, tits, fart, turd and twat. i want to stop.... this entry is bad, let me try again..... start over.....
game over..... -
things to do before i die
2005-03-13 14:11:53
(01) live out of my car for a summer
(02) travel to england and laugh every time big ben says "dong"
(03) see THAT movie
(04) get the worst job ever and fuck around until i'm fired
(05) break a bone
that's all i can think of right now. -
weekend update
2005-03-01 21:33:48
well, i'll just give a quick rundown of the weekend:
(01) 8:00 am saturday - went to class
(02) went with debbie and elisa to Denny's for lunch
(03) wached anime with elisa (Bleach)
(04) 7:45 pm saturday - dropped by home
(05) 9:00 pm saturday - hung out with john
(06) john and i got to Jenn's house
(07) we watch terminators 2 and 3 and peditor 2
(08) all while drinking
(09) we all fall asleep
(10) 6:00 am sunday - i wake up (after 2 hours of sleep)
(11) 12:00 am sunday - everyone else wakes up
(12) 1:50 pm sunday - john and i get back in town
(13) eric and kellie and i hang out
(14) 7:15 pm sunday - i make it home
(15) read anime, take shower, go online (in that order)
and now i feel like sleepyness is taking over. so i will end it there.
ttyl humanoids, if i live that long... -
sleep deprived impressive cookie
2005-02-21 16:16:30
huh? i dunno either.
at any rate, anime boston soon! gonna submit two videos to them, i better get going on that.....
and now, i need to do homework....
no, i really don't want to do that......
anime! -
doom doom doom bored doom doom doom
2005-02-13 21:40:59
life has been progressing slower then molasses on a horizontal surface. school and work have been dominating my life, and somehow i'm thinking that isn't a good thing. maybe i can implode, just to change things up... but i'm at work right now. and i don't think my co-workers would appreciate me imploding, especially if they had to clean it up. the kids might find it strange too. my classes are sucking up most of my nights with reading, quiz taking and study. i don't like reading anymore... unless i was blind, then it might be fun. y'know, brail and all. Child Development is strange, we're learning about theories on how children develop. freud was a f*cked up guy. part of his psychosexual theory was that children like to play with their anal muscles and find enjoyment in holding and releasing excrement. freud was a strange and possibly sick man. i feel sick.
Art and Music for Young Children, or as i like to call it: Matt's Painting Time, has been fun. we get to learn how kids will use different media and create art with them. also, we get to test out how different media affect paper and outcomes of art. it's a hell of a lot more fun then my AP art classes ever were, and a hell of a lot more applicable. i've been babysitting a bunch too. nice kid, a bit emotional, but whatever. he likes to play games, build with legos and read. in other words, he rocks.
yeah, that's all. ttyl humanoids, if i live that long...
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