JOURNAL: DTJB (James Brown)

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  • Trying your best is alright. If you're a quitter, then you're worthless. 2005-03-02 15:19:15 One of my co-workers quit on us on Sunday. It was the guy who ended up being my dishwashing replacement, I guess he was destined to JUST be a dishwasher. From what I understand, he just couldn't get along with the other co-workers, I tried to be nice to him, but the women were just brutal. When he was given the simple task of wiping down the tables in the dining area, he did it incorrectly and was informed on his mistake (how do you screw up wiping tables?). He just got so fed up with how he was treated, he argued about it and left during one of his breaks (the traditional way of leaving your job at the deli area). When I had problems, I dealt with them in a professional manner, he just gave up and didn't even try. Most of us are pretty much glad he's gone, you can't really expect much from some kid when, while we're trying to get some chores done when we have a break in customers, he just stands around and does nothing but poke holes into a styrofoam cup with a toothpick, seriously.

    The Career Extravaganza was okay, I didn't score as much free candy as I hoped, hee-hee. Not a lot of people had internships available in web design, barely any of the businesses that presented their stuff worked in web design, but I knew that ahead of time. I guess web design just isn't that big of a market here in town However, some of the people there did refer me to a local business that works in graphic design AND web site construction, and these people produce some kick ass stuff. I'm hoping I can at least talk to them, even if nothing really comes up.

    If for some reason you didn't know, Tekken 5 recently came out. The best way for me to celebrate is to find a copy of Tekken Uno, in all of it's chunky, blocked up CG glory. I'm a gamer, but I don't buy a lot of games, go figure. I tend to collect games to a series, but I usually wait until I beat the one I'm playing until I get another. I usually play games (when I have the time) in this fashion, 2 fighting games, one RPG and one non-genre specific game. I usually alternate between domestic/imports and Super Nintendo/ Playstation 1/ Playstation 2 when I buy the non-genre games. And since I'm interested in getting a lot of games, old school especially (Darkstalkers and the original Neo-Geo version of KOF '94 are on the list), I'll probably buy Tekken 5 when it's celebrating it's 20th anniversary. Sometimes I wish I didn't have a life.

    -Current AMV Progress: I find I'm getting less enthusiastic about this project as the months go by. I still want to work on it, I just take to damn long to do it.
    -Current Writing Progress: Almost done with the secret project, mostly because it's really short. Expected to start the final draft pretty soon. 
  • Emotional breakdown. 2005-02-23 13:40:54 Saturday was a horrible night for me. Especially since I was at work. I was working with the woman who, since I started, I've had problems with. The incident in question was totally minor, but it was just another incident pilled on top of one too many. Whenever I work with this woman, the only time she speaks to me is when she is correcting me on some mistake I make, little or small, and the tone of her voice always makes it seem like she's addressing me with so much disdain and hurtfulness. But this time, it was a mistake she made for once. I knew she was wrong, but my mind told me that she would back me into an emotional corner and say that I was wrong again. For some reason my mind couldn't take it at all and just had to dash to the break room before I wept and lashed out in a violent rage. I always believe that I'm an emotionally strong person and that I can stand up to whatever comes my way, but there are times when things get to me, and I let things get to me at work because I believe I should just do my job and not think about what's going on around me. Even though I've had my problems with this woman, I'm going to try to see how things work out. I met with my supervisors and I talked face to face with the woman in question and brought up the problems I've had with her. We’re going to try to get along with each other from now on. I know she's a nice person, I've seen her laugh and joke around with some of the others at work, so I'm going to give it a harder try.

    The Career Extravaganza is today, starts at 2p.m. C.S.T. I've always gone to as many as I could, but this is the first time I'm going to take the whole experience seriously. When I first started going to them, I just showed up in my t-shirt and blue jeans, scoring some free miniature candies. Now that I've grown up a little, I’m wearing my “classy outfit” and my full intention today is to probably get an internship at one of the businesses that's having a display. I hope things go well today.

    It's my dad's birthday today. God, I suck at remembering days like this. I still haven't gotten him a card or anything, something I need to do on my way home. The relationship with my dad is alright. The best it can be when I live in my room and he lives in the basement, and the only time we interact is on those rare occasions, like when we emerge from our quarters to eat something. He's still a great dad, well, he bitches about work or at mom about the smallest details, but he's still okay. No big celebration is planned, just going to eat cake and he might watch some old film noir movie.

    -Current AMV Progress: Barely any. I'd make more progress if I had my own computer right now, but I'm still holding out until I finish this thing. Yeah, yeah I know, but I have my own personal reasons for approaching the project this way.
    -Current Writing Progress: Some progress not much. I want to get as much work done on this tonight because I'm going to put it on hold for another project. It's a secret net related project.

    Procrastination is taking it's effect. Maybe if I didn't live an otaku lifestyle, I'd be done with this stuff by now. 
  • I just felt indifferent for some reason. 2005-02-16 14:44:18 I hope everyone had a happy Love is a Joke Day. Actually, even though I still don't have a girl to call my own, I didn't feel lonely, bitter or hopelessly romantic. It just felt like a normal Monday with the guys to me. Jurgen on the other hand, has found great success it seems. For the past few weeks he's been having a long distance relationship with a Chinese girl (Asian! Score! Hee-hee!) from Coralville. Every Friday he takes a little trip to Coralville in order to stop by at the arcade (we no longer have an arcade here in town) and show off his DDR moves. Apparently, this girl noticed him and they've hooked up. She recently gave him a valentine, written in Mandarin. Even though he will translate it to the best of his ability, with a recently purchased Chinese dictionary, I'm wondering if she has some other motives for him. Maybe she wants him to do her homework. Hmm.

    Recently saw Throne of Blood and The Last Samurai, great movies. For those who don't know what they're about, Throne of Blood is Akira Kurosawa's adaptation of Shakespeare’s Macbeth. Never read Macbeth, but this movie was interesting none the less. Kinda makes me want to read the original. The Last Samurai was really great. It took place around the mid 1800s and was about a U.S. military captain who got back from a raid on a Indian tribe. The captain realized there was no real justification in attacking the Indians and guilt overtook him as he no longer cared what happened to him. He soon found himself enlisted by the Japanese government to train new recruits in hopes of fighting off a group of samurai villagers. The first mission is botched and he is taken captive. As he observes the villagers, he becomes fascinated with their way of life and forms a strong bond with all of them. These were really good and I recommend them both to anyone who's looking for something to watch.

    Classes are going alright. Everything has become a little bit simpler, but I'm a little behind in DOS Commands. We've since uploaded Windows 2000 on the portable hard drives we've been using. I've kind of been slacking off in that class as of late, but I don't think it's going to be TOO much of a problem.

    -Current AMV Progress: I'm about half way done with picking the scenes for the choruses. I only make progress when I notice I've made progress.
    -Current Writing Progress: Haven't really done much writing this week. Really taking my time at it and fight scenes are never fun to write. 
  • Yeah, Flash is simple, but it's still hard. 2005-02-09 13:00:28 Classes are going alright but they're still pretty difficult/frustrating. My DOS Commands class has become really easy, but it bogs me down because I make tiny mistakes like typing a command incorrectly, or things just didn't go the way I expected them to, like if a file I'm trying to transfer from one directory to another just won't happen. O/S class is alright, but we had a chapter test today and half of the material I didn't know, so I might have to retake it, I just hope I go over the material first. My Flash class ends in a few weeks. The problem I'm having with that, is that I'm having trouble with making object follow a guide path. I could just make separate frames for the object I'm using, but that's suppose to be "harder" than how I should be doing it.

    Starting tomorrow, I'm back to a semi-regular work schedule, 4 days a week. Meh, not bad.

    Back in November, I had hoped to get an internship around this point in time. I applied to a couple of local business, but they haven't really been all that responsive. I could take a more serious approach to this, but I want to apply to business that specialize in the field of work I'm interested in, web design, not just some random computer business that does graphic design and nothing else. I'm not trying to worry about it too much, the annual career extravaganza is coming up, where companies gather in one place to accept resumes and offer employment. Hopefully I can get some results from that.

    I need to get a new copy of F. F. IX. I'm up to disc 3 right now, the part where the gang needs to find a cure for Cid's condition. I'm trying to go back to the Black Mage Forest, but there are a few scratches on the disc, enough to make the loading times for the random battles to last 3 to 4 times longer than they should. That's what I hate about using anything that's, used.

    -Current AMV Progress: SOME progress has been made, but it sure doesn't feel like it. I can't tell if I'm doing a good job on this or not.
    -Current Writing Progress: Coming up to a fight scene in the plot. Fight scenes are always hard for me to write, because you have to give a lot of detail on what's going on. Totally different from mood description or basic dialogue. 
  • Slow to pick up on things. 2005-02-01 15:25:21 I recently figured out that Jurgen was in a car accident the other week. Don't worry, he's fine and everything, he just got banged up a little bit, but he's recovering very nicely. The thing that amazes me is how slow I was to realize this. He didn't come out and say he was in an accident, he just kept leaving subtle hints; I need a ride, my mom is picking me up, I'm getting a new car, I have to go to the doctor, I can't bend over, my laptop was in a car accident. It just all seems obvious right now, I can't believe I missed it.

    Went to a trio of one-act plays on Sunday. Very funny stuff. Splitsville, the compilation was called. All three of them were pretty much off the wall silly, realism was nowhere to be found in them. The first was about an unemployed man hoping to be a bouncer at the new amusement park. The second was about a couple getting back from a party at their apartment complex, when they find they're in the wrong apartment. They act as guests at the place as they meet their screwed up neighbors. One of the characters came off as an interesting mix between John Astin and Ted Turner. The final one was about another couple who's car broke down in front of a repair shop with two insane people running the place.

    When I was at the performance, I noticed they were having auditions for another play in March. I want to try out, but if I get chosen, the performance dates are the same time ACen occurs. I haven't committed to going to ACen just yet, but Jurgen had a blast last year that I got curious and I'm interested in going this year. But that all depends if I get picked up for the audition, and if the guys at work will let me have the time off to even be in a play, rehearsals and all. I don't think it would be too much of a problem, they've been cutting my hours short to the point where I'm only working two days a week (training new blood). We'll just see how that works out.

    Uncle John finally left on Saturday. His absence has left a bit of a void at our house, but not much. All he really did as he recuperated was sleep on the couch and watch the Food Network.

    Well, our antique of a computer finally got infected to the point where we can't get onto the internet anymore, another reason why I need a new computer. If I ever feeling like using it again, I'll just have to format the hard drive, no biggy. Nothing on there I want to keep, we'll just need to put our internet service provider's software back on it.

    -Current AMV Progress: Barely any progress. If I didn't have a life, I'd make some real headway. This is why it takes me a year to make one of these things.
    -Current Writing Progress: Started the next official chapter. Things are coming along nicely. Slow but steady. 
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