JOURNAL: DTJB (James Brown)

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  • How to fill up a journal entry with stuff. 2005-01-25 17:42:48 Not much has been happening to me lately, so consider this first paragraph as filler, or is it? Have you ever questioned your own sexuality? Not to the point where you think that your current lifestyle is wrong for you or anything and that you might become a homosexual in the near future. A little less than that, have you ever thought about what it would be like to make out with someone of the same gender as you? I have no idea why, but that thought comes my way once in a while. What I find weird is that I think about it when I'm actually having a normal conversation with some guy. It just happens, "what would it be like if I just made out with you right now?" It's just some random thought that I have, of course I have spontaneous thoughts all of the time, I'm so quite around those I don't know that I'm talking in my head all of the time. "What if I beat up a total stranger, what if I told someone I hated to fuck off, what if I let go of all logic and went ballistic?" Yeah, I'm a psycho in my mind, it's more diseased than I let some people believe. Anyway, enough rambling. I know where I stand as a guy. Even though I still have my interests in women, the thought still comes to me. I'm sure it's just natural for anyone to think that, why wouldn't it be. But I often wonder, am I really just a bi-sexual in the body of a heterosexual? Hmm.

    Saw half of an episode of Black Adder the other day, VERY funny. It's an old British comedy staring one of my favorite British actors Rowan Atkinson (Mr. Bean). The only other Black Adder show I've seen so far is the Christmas Carol parody special. This is a show I'll have to check out, since I've pretty much seen all of Thin Blue Line.

    Realized today that I've been missing Now and Then: Here and There on the International Channel. I wish they'd let people know when the new anime starts sooner than they usually do. Hope they repeat the first two episodes.

    One of the dishwashers from work is going to be working with me in the deli, which is funny, because we was one of my "replacements" when I quit being a dishwasher. Looks like we're recruiting more members, hopes he can handle being with the bitches (most of my co-workers).

    -Progress on the projects has come to a standstill recently, but I've got the next three days off of work, so that SHOULD give me some time to get creative. 
  • At least I HOPE the end isn't nigh. 2005-01-18 16:58:28 Man, I really hope that all of the apocalyptic weather we've been having worldwide (tsunamis, Australian wildfires, flooding, mudslides) is coming to an end. Is God or someone trying to give us a few hints at something? If so, I hope someone is paying attention (Arigatomyna had a nice way of putting it).

    Sort of keeping on topic, nothing scares me more in this world than severe weather. It's not something I constantly worry about all of the time, but usually if there's a tornado warning around our area, I tense up and spend the whole time worrying while everyone else around me just carries on with their daily routine. Even though I have never remembered hearing about even one tornado entering our city limits, (yes there have been some close calls) I always panic even with the track record. It's something I'll never live down.

    I found out last week that my best Jergen broke up with his girlfriend. Oh, by the way, his real name is Jeremy, but when he was in high school, he got the nickname Jergenfarben because he's from German descent. I'm probably the only person who still calls him that. Anyway, I imagine she was nice, I probably met her once and I still can't remember her name, but they broke up because of one of the stupidest reasons. They didn't have enough time for each other. In my mind, even though I've never been in a serious relationship so I can't speak from experience, time and distance (unless you live in a different country from the other person) shouldn't be a factor in determining how strong your relationship is with another person. Isn't it always said that "absence makes the heart grow fonder"? Eh? Some people break up for the stupidest reasons: you work late and I haven't seen you since forever, you're spending more time with your friends than you are with me, you talked to someone else, you laughed with someone else, you touched someone else in the same way I would like you to touch me even though you barely touched that person for more than a split second, you LOOKED at someone else, you watch too much porn. In all seriousness, no matter what you do or say, no matter what arguments you may have, it all comes down to, do I really love you? After that, nothing else matters.

    Two of my new classes are Macromedia Flash and MS-DOS commands. Flash seems pretty cool so far. If I ever end up using outside of class, it would probably be for business work or something. I wouldn't use it much myself, I only say this because I can't draw that well. Yeah, I don't need to draw pictures to use Flash, but so what. DOS is really difficult, mostly because I'm so familiar with the computers we use today, typing commands to get something done seems like a struggle. I took AS/400 so it's kind of similar, but it's still hard.

    -Current AMV Progress: Jumped ahead and picked out some scenes that I want to use each time the chorus comes up. Still taking for-ever! Going to head out to the music store and order some CDs I need for split second sound clips. Heck, I got a bunch of money in my wallet, might as well.
    -Current Writing Progress: Ever so slowly, I'm going to start the next official chapter. 
  • Yet another reason why I needs me a new computer. 2005-01-10 13:42:33 A whole heck of a lot has happened since I last wrote in this journal. Relying on computers in a college campus can be frustrating when you don't have classes.

    Even with global warming effecting our climate, we managed to get some snow once January started, and it's still here. Some people hate the snow we get in Iowa. Me, I love it. The shoveling I don't mind, the driving in icy conditions isn't even a problem to me and just looking at all of it is really nice.

    I was wrong about Uncle John staying for a week, he's still here. It's not so bad, I didn't have to sacrifice my room. He'll be staying for a little while longer.

    Picked up volume 4 of Escaflowne. Black Escaflowne, eh?

    Caught the last 8 minutes of the Capital One Bowl with the Iowa Hawkeyes against Louisiana State University. When you talk about last minute miracles, damn. That was fucking amazing. For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, here's what went down. Iowa led in scoring for most of the game until the end when LSU finally came down on them. The score was 25-24, LSU with 46 seconds to go. Iowa had two time outs that they could have used, but they didn't even realize they had them. After Iowa made some yardage, quarterback Drew Tate spiked the ball (don't ask me why this is bad but it resulted in some penalty) and they have 6 seconds left before they lose to LSU, until it happened. Ball is snapped and Tate throws it down field as time runs out to 5 year senior Warren Holloway. Holloway catches the ball, breaks free from the grasp of an LSU defender and crosses the goal line to make his first and only college touchdown. Hawkeyes win from out of nowhere, 30-25. Awesome. In Tate we Trust. Way to go Mr. Ferentz.

    -Current AMV Progress: Picking out scenes for the video. Almost about to make selections for the first chorus. God I hate this part.
    -Current Writing Progress: Almost at a point where I can officially end this chapter and start the next.

    I'm taking my time at this stuff, but at least I'm not procrastinating anymore. 
  • 2004-12-17 19:08:16 Work in the deli area on the boat has been going pretty well. Not extremely hard, not physically demanding either. I also worked with a cash register for the first time yesterday (it's pretty simple since it works as a computer stylus and everything has it's own button, kinda like the registers at a McDonald's). There are a few more tasks to do, but I don't really mind at all. Some of my hours are screwy (I have to work from midnight to 6a.m. next week) but I'll be able to change that since I'm on a flex schedule, I think. There might be one thing I don't like however, my co-workers. Most of them just whine and complain about where they're at. They don't act like they're happy to work in the deli, totally opposite to how I feel. These guys are nothing like my friends down in the kitchen. Well, I can't blame them I guess, some of them don't have the ability or the skills to get out of there. I'm going to try hard to get along with them, but it's going to take a while.

    My uncle John is visiting again for the week (I think he's staying that long) since he recently had surgery. This is just another act of kindness brought about by my mother. I don't really mind, except for the fact that I might have to sacrifice my room to John while he's here. (sigh) Oh well.

    My fall classes are over with now, so I have SOME extra time to sleep in. The classes I took were alright. Design Logic was about learning effective design techniques and (ugh) making program flow charts. Web security was okay, nothing great. All we did was go over the rants of a paranoid geek, boring. Web tools was cool though. I used a bunch of different programs to do things like make a panoramic photo and an e-book. Didn't get my e-book working though, either some of the photos would show up or there would be a spot for the photo but no actual photo. Kinda blows, but at least I know how it's done now.

    -Current AMV Progress- Up to Episode 25. One more until I have to start doing the hard part.
    -Current Writing Progress- Probably not as much done as last week, but still a decent amount has been finished. I'm glad to have finally found some time to do some writing. 
  • I am a dishwasher...no more. 2004-12-09 16:16:09 It's official now. Yesterday was my last day as a dishwasher in the portside kitchen at the riverboat casino. The whole feeling was very sentimental for me, even though it didn't mean it was that drastic of a change. I made a lot of friends (and got to know some idiots), but I'm still going to see most of them from time to time. And this was the longest I've ever held a single job title, even though I'm still working for the same company. I felt like "celebrating", so I went down to The Busted Lift for a drink. It was open mic night and there were some bands playing, pretty good stuff, even though I didn't catch the name of any one of the bands. Anyway, I start serious training as a deli attendant this Sunday at 6p.m. I'm scheduled to work until 1a.m. (probably won't stay open THAT long), but I don't want any graveyard shift hours like these. We'll see how it works out with school and everything. I've already had some basic training, so it seems pretty simple so far.

    I went to see a stage production of "It's A Wonderful Life", pretty interesting. I mainly went because some of the people I knew were in it. I had only seen bits and pieces of the original movie before, seeing the entire story first hand made the experience a little better. Three were only two things I had to critique about the production. Some of the actors didn't emote well enough. At times they did, but not to the full extent that I thought they could have. The second was a lot of the scene changes didn't always have scene change music playing in the background which made the experience pretty awkward. Were we suppose to applaud, or just watch the crew do their job? The last one was pretty obvious, it's one thing to adapt a play into a movie, it's another to adapt a movie into a play. Two of the scenes (the sledding down the hill to the frozen lake and the dance scene where everyone falls in the swimming pool) weren't shown but described. Nothing major, but still.

    Played King of Fighters 2001 (off of the PS2 '00/'01 pack) for the first time. Now I see why fans consider it the weakest in the series. Some of the move commands were really strange, like Angel. Most of her moves involve what I call chain combo commands and using these chains is the only way to get her to do her supers, really bad if you're using her against an opponent, losing and need to pull off a miracle to win. I can see a few of the veteran characters have their commands altered from what they were in previous installments, a downside to long time players who know the moves by memory. And the two bosses in the game are the cheapest ever: both have no super move bar which actually translates into unlimited supers and striker use, if one of them losses energy in one round, they gain all of it back in the next round when you use a new fighter in your team and Igniz is a juggle whore. I think I'm going to set the game to the easy difficulty setting from now on, just so I can stand a chance against the CPU.

    The last few days of my web tools course is turning out nicely. I've learned how to make simple animated text banners. Maybe I'll make one for my area on the forum.

    -Current AMV Progress: Up to episode 21. Things are coming along smoothly so far.
    -Current Writing Progress: My comments to myself last time must have really hit home, because I filled up half a sheet of paper since my last entry. May not sound like a lot of progress, but it means something to me. 
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