- I'm back! 2018-07-07 23:35:27 I'm finally getting better. It's been a year since my last journal post but things are better now. I'm finally making videos again and I feel great. My newest one is uploading as I type this and I feel the joy of creation again. I'm happy! :)
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Life sucks
2017-04-05 23:09:50
Every time I make it back to my height, it goes spiraling downwards. I'm depressed beyond the point of wanting to do anything. As much as I'd love to just shoot myself, I know I can't. I lost someone that meant the world to me and I'm silently suffering. I don't want anyone to feel bad for me, but.. I guess it helps to write about it for whatever reason. I just want the pain to go away and the moving on to begin. I don't know when that'll start, if it ever does. I've been through this before, but it seems like it hurts more this time. Maybe it's the cause. The lack of one perhaps is what hurts the most. I try to take pride in my videos, but even those don't work. I love making AMV's, but ultimately I'm just criticized for making them. It advances me nowhere in my life, I can't even get accepted into film school after nearly 3 years of attempts. Life has kicked me down so low I can't see it getting better. It depresses me to know that one day I will be gone and I question whether I'll have truly lived it the way I wanted it to and with the people by my side. I overthink these things, and I honestly don't know why I think like this. I'm too philosophical for my own good.
I just want to be happy again. - Cranking out a new vid soon 2016-02-26 23:02:03 I've been working on a new video for a few months now, and I'm glad to say it's just about complete. I'm super excited to put this one out and I hope everyone likes it, I had a blast making it either way. Before, I made a 'spiritual' successor to one of my favorite videos, S'evade. This time, I made an actual sequel, and I think it turned out really well! We'll see what the general populace thinks when the time comes. Until then, gotta finish it!
- First Iron editor competition 2015-02-28 20:03:31 Holy shit that was intense. I edited a straight 13-14 hours the day the competition started, again the next day, and even more today which I finally finished. I can't disclose the details of the video just yet, but it was awesome. Proud of myself to finish something good so quickly. Also proud of my team members 8bitcritr and Elixir. Both ofem are awesome editors and it's been a blast. Can't wait to hear the results.
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:)
2015-02-24 18:33:44
Starting to feel a little bit better. Seems like people liked my newest video, Lucy which makes me pretty happy. I'm stressed from school and my film shooting so it's just all a bit much for me, but I'm hanging in there. I even have a special someone there for me now too.. even though she's far away, it still means a lot to me. Anyways, if you're reading this, I thank you for the time to watch my stuff and support me. I love every single person that watches my stuff and it fills me up every time someone tells me they liked something I made.
Film school, here I come
Sephy signing off. (Commander shepard style!!!)
JOURNAL: Sephirothskr (Adam Farron)
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