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Gah!
2003-09-18 09:34:53
He can make me so bloody angry sometimes. larch. My brother.
I wish he would just stop and listen to himself for a moment.
I had to try and put him in his place - I cannot just sit by idly as he insults me & my friends and belittles me on a public forum. He never stops, it's like his hobby to do that to people.
And sometimes he would compliment me in front of people (in real life or on the forums), other times he would just try to crack me down. He is so totally pessimistic and negative.
It is enought for me as it is to have to live with him, now he has to irritate me online as well. Can i not escape him for once?
Sheesh, and i see that he was online today, so he got all my replies. No doubt that i'm in for it when i get home from work. Dammit, i swear he will be the first person that i ever punch/hit/kill if he persists with this when i get home.
Well, i'm off to a client, then i'll see what happens... -
Continued
2003-09-17 03:18:53
Now, where was i?
Well, turn out that, although i had a chance to meet the local Admin in question (see below), it did not all go according to plan. We actually had our local Anime MeetUp just a while after that Journal entry and i had hoped to meet the bloke there and plead for my sanity. Then i found out:
1.) It was his birthday that day. And i had forgotten! aaahhh!
2.) He wasn't going to show up, *because* it was his birthday. Had family at home or something like that.
Then all of a sudden, he did turn up at the MeetUp. But we were all kind of tired (one person was even sick) from work and all, so by the time he showed up we had already payed the bill and were on our way to leave. Of course, being 10 peope there it was kind of crowded and i didn't get a chance to speak to him before he left. He was there for, like, 5 minutes. Sheesh, i didn't even congratulate him or anything..
(Okay, wait, time to add names to the Admins)
Soooo, *then* came the other day when i went to Dopefish's place to do some stuff. Turns out that Retnox (the aforementioned Admin) pitched up there as well, but that was 3 days later, so i didn't want to wish him a happy birthday when it had already passed. We didn't speak a word. If he knew i was there though, he would probably have brought my sword back for me (that's what he told Dopefish).
::SIGH::
Things do so rarely actually go according to my plans... I wonder if i am turning out to make an absolutely terrible 'friend'. -
Attention!
2003-09-15 02:43:07
I was planning on making another Journal entry today, but after reading some of the new ones by other people i just can't do that anymore. It has grabbed my attention from the very start and now it is even starting to get worse, i think.
Ever since i have started reading Journals and adding to my own, i have come across a few people who seem to communicate quite frequently using them. I enjoy reading these most of time. Evee (if you are reading this), you are one of them. So too Schweetie.
But what the heck has been going on lately?! Pull yourself together! You and your friends. Hell, i of all people should know that humans argue with each other; family, friends, couples etc. Sometimes even a lot. But you have to work through this, ok? Perhaps you already have, i wouldn't know. But remember:
PEPP
Patience
Endurance
Persistence
Perseverance
Gods! There is so much i would like to say right now that my mind is a mess and i can't...
::SIGH::
::Shakes head in dismay::
Please... I don't like to see this. -
What the heck happened?
2003-09-12 09:11:17
I haven't made a Journal entry in a while now. In fact, i haven't made a *proper* Journal entry ever. But anyhow...
Last night was pretty interesting. I finally got to see what the new T-Shirts are going to look like; I ordered one for myself right away. Still a lot of work to be done by our poor Wolfblitz, but it should look awesome when it's finished.
Still though, i am also struggling with something else. My Fan Fiction is giving me headaches, in more ways than one.
First off, i can't seem to get rid of the very first beta copy that kind of fell into the wrong hands. I have asked two persons (who are capable of helping in this regard) more than once now to get rid of it; to destroy it. But to no avail. I realize that these things can (and often do) take time, but it is starting to get to me just a little. That was like a total beta copy (not to mention extremely old) and i have long sice scrapped that Fiction due to some serious flaws & mistakes that i had overlooked.
On the other hand. My new Fic, which i think is starting off much better than the old one, is also giving me some trouble. I wouldn't call it writer's-block, but the difficulties i am having in writing & progressing with it is a bit troubling. Especially when considering that some friend want me to publish it in our Magazine bit-by-bit.
The first problem would be that i am going to have to work with a deadline if i agree to this. If they expect me to have a certain amount ready with each issue, it's going to make things difficult. The last thing i want is to rush it and even if i don't, i will not want to release it unless i am totally satisfied with that piece of work - And given the circumstances, that is not likely to happen within the time allocated to me. Depending of course on just how much they want per issue. I really don't want to screw up the Fic, somehow it means a lot to me...
The first problem is that i'm not sure that i *want* it published. I am quite reserved and do not much look forward to the reactions i'm going to get (whether good or bad) from people. But then again, if i refuse to let anybody read it (which is still the case at this moment), why then am i writing it in the first place?
Theoretically i should be satisfied with just writing it, for my my own piece (peace?) of mind only. But it's not that simple, it's hard. To tell the truth, i don't want to allow it to go to waste... -
My Journal not obeying me!
2003-09-04 01:49:53
Ew! Well that wasn't pretty.
Yesterday i discoverd a number of things. One of them would be that i cannot modify or delete existing Journal entries. Very much like my own posts in the forums. Where can i lodge a coomplaint about this?
In any case, the second thing is (kind of related to the first): Sometimes in life, after failing once, it is not worth it to try again for there is a chance that you will only mess it up further.
The reason for this is quite funny. I tried making an updated Journal entry yesterday at the most inopportune time (when the internet connection was giving trouble). It kept giving me errors and i just kept trying. When eventually it gave in to my Fromidable Prowess Of Persistence, i found that i had made 4 of the exact same Journal entries - If anybody saw that it must have looked quite strange indeed. So, seeing as i cannot edit or delete my own Journal entries, i had to resort to the only option left to me: Make them private entries. Now that is quite a drag and pretty lame if you ask me, but ya, not much i can do about it...
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