Anyway, my brother and his wife are expecting their second baby (YAAAAAAAAY!) the part that bugs me? I just found out and everyone else in my family have known since last month. When you're going to get another niece or nephew it's something you'd want to know but no, everyone forgot to tell me. It's also annoying because two days ago he asked for my post code so he could watch football and he didn't think to tell me then!
Also, lately my mummy doesn't really call me much, she promises she will call around the same time next week and a month later she calls. I don't call her because when I do I get lectured and she tells me not to phone her because she'll phone me and doesn't want me to waste my phone credit. Oh, and I'm told she had to go to the doctors and they thought she had meningitis TWO WEEKS after she's told. I mean, I'm her daughter so I'd really like to know if everything is ok. I know it seems really silly to get upset over, but when you find out she has been calling your other sister every week who also moved out it kind of hurts.
I'm also no longer talking to one of my sisters. We never really did get along but at Christmas she finally crossed the line. The thing with my sister Mary is, that she is annoying everyone but she gets angry so easily that no one in my family stands up to her. When I went back home to visit my mummy was even telling me how she is driving her insane. In my old room I had an extension lead for my computer but since I moved out, my parents took it. ANYWAY. The power socket in my room is on the opposite end of my room and I wanted to Skype on my phone with Niwa for a bit since it was Christmas and everything. I noticed a spare cable behind the sofa so I asked my daddy if I could take it, he said yes. Later that night my sister full scales rages because I took a stupid extension cable that I was allowed to take! I mean, slamming doors, swearing and everything about me! I'm lying in my room trying to ignore it since it's Christmas Eve until she starts bitching really loudly to my sister in the next room! I haven't done anything wrong so I go in there and defend myself. I was actually in tears because she was being so evil, telling her that all I wanted to do was talk to my boyfriend who I don't get to spend Christmas with and that for once she should think of others instead of herself. So, I have to spend another week there and it's awkward because she's there throwing evil looks at me. When she can't get videos to work on her phone I tried to be nice and help her and she just ignored me. On the night I was leaving to go back to London I forgot the present my parents got for Niwa, so I ran back in looking for and couldn't find it because it wasn't where I left it. She screams at me it's under the -insert swear word here- tree and I said sorry, I thought you were Sara and she combines swear words calling me every bad word she can think of! So, I just slammed the door and left.
A few weeks ago, I went to send her a message on Facebook to try and apologise (not that I felt I needed to, I just didn't want to not speak anymore) and she removed me as a friend. OVER AN EXTENSION CABLE. SERIOUSLY?
What's worse is, she removed Niwa as a friend when he did nothing wrong and had been nothing but nice to her ever since he visited my house. My other sister told me it was because I was rude to her boyfriend. I was only ever rude to him once when he threw my old rabbit Nibbles on the floor when she almost climbed onto his knee, obviously that would annoy someone! That was years ago. So what was it she considered rude? I didn't talk to him much when he was there. I'm a quiet person, I find it hard to talk to people I don't have much in common with. I said hello to him, I smiled. So, what? The fact that I'm quiet makes me rude? That's unfair.
I have forgiven so many things that she has done to me in the past. Once she even pushed me up against a wall, choked and threatened to kill me because she lost something she thought I had taken. She found it an hour later. She has kicked and screamed at me in front of my friends and now I've finally reached my limit. She's my sister but I can no longer stand to be in the same room as her.
I feel like my family only talk to me when they want something or need help with something. Even when me and Niwa went back for my mummies Birthday, I ended up crying because they didn't speak to me and if they did it was only to tell me what to do. The only member of my family that I really miss is my daddy. He talks to me a lot and I'm so proud since he hasn't smoked a cigarette in 3 months.
I know it's really silly, but sometimes I just wish I fitted in more with my family. I keep crying because all of this stuff keeps coming into my mind and it's just so stupid.
/Sorry this is so long I just reallllllly needed to vent.
