Embarrassment?
Nostalgia?
"They were cool, but you've matured and moved on?"
"These were awesome and always will be awesome?"
"What the hell was I thinking?"
The reason why I brought this up was because I'm working on an old school type video right now and the difficulty of editing it is trying not to time every beat, drumroll, etc. in trying to tell the theme I want to express with it. But at the same time, I still imagine myself timing every beat because it's pretty much what I've been used to doing for the past several years.
I needed some kind of motivation, so I decided to watch some of my old videos again. At first I felt really embarrassed and shut one of my videos off after 5 seconds, but after 3 more tries, I finally decided to watch one all the way through.
Seeing the bad quality, small resolution, very long scenes set to the verses, orphan frames, mistimed beats, etc brought back a pretty cool nostalgic feeling that I haven't felt in a while. The term "make videos for yourself" felt the most real back then since I was ignorant in the standards of what made "good videos". We all gotta admit when we started watching these so called "good videos", we felt the need to improve up to the so called "standards" which isn't a bad thing. But I think along the line, we lost the concept of "making videos for yourself" in order to please the masses to get our names out there.
Now that some of us have become more well known and established in the community, we can "make videos for ourselves" with the skills we learned with more evolved and mature concepts. However, with all the recent discussion about the "next evolution of amvs" and "slumps", has caused some kind of outcry for "old school" videos. So what's exactly going on here?

Watching my old videos made me realize how tightly knit and uniform the community has become about timing, effects, etc. I think Beowulf said in his mp3 rant last year that people nowadays have ADD even worse than 5 years ago. We've become so used to this style of editing that now we're complaining about "mediocrity" among current videos. How much further are we even supposed to take amv editing now?
It's not exactly a bad thing to evolve and change. People can still make what they want, but the outcry of "too many effects and beat sync in videos" has always been something we've been complaining about. At the same time, if we decided to go back to "old school", people will complain about the lack of effects and beats sync. Basically, we can't have it both ways...
To be honest, I'm actually feeling burned out on making and watching videos with too much beat sync, effects, etc. I do miss the days where I would just place something on the timeline and feel content with it. I know I can't truly go back to those days, but the yearning is still there. For me, it's extremely hard to put down a clip in the timeline over a fast drumroll part of the song and *not* strobe it.
I dunno if I'm even truly making videos for myself anymore. I try to convince myself all the time that I do, but I dunno if it's really true. Some part in the back of my head will always want to impress others by conforming to the standards set nowadays.
Like I said before, there's nothing wrong with the way things have evolved and people should still make what they want. However, that won't exactly stop everyone else from complaining.
I'm not exactly making this old school video because I want to defy the norm. I'm just making it since a certain *ahem* someone bugged the hell out of me to do it.


So yeah, go watch your old videos. It'll bring back some good memories and maybe even change your perspective on things.
