In which I am a masochist

[Chaos Angel]

Ok, so some friends and I went down to the campus rec center to swim. At this pool, they have a high dive about 12 feet up in the air. I decide to try it. So, as I climb it, I get more and more nervous, because I'm kind of high up, and I stand up on the board (more of a concrete slab suspended in the air, really), standing there feeling very nervous. I'm hedging around, and I actually whine at one point, like a kicked puppy. Then, I decide "fuck it", and I walk up to the edge.

I get scared ansd step back.

I say fuck it again, and walk up, and jump off.

Once my feet leave the ground, my fear of falling kicks in (not having my feet on the ground makes me very, VERY nervous), and my brain shuts down. I start screaming on the way down before I hit. I remembered to shut my mouth and suck in some air before hitting, but being curled up in a little ball, I floated their underwater in a ball and rose slowly to the surface before I realized my lungs hurt and I kicked up and broke surface. I swam to the end and climbed out.

Scary moment. I was scared and nervous the whole time.

Naturally, I did it again. I figured , maybe next time, it wouldn't be so scary.

Nopers.

Same ordeal, I climbed up, hesitated when I hit the high ladder, climbed up, hedged around, whimpered like a puppy, walked up, stepped back, walked to the very back, whined some more, then said "fuck it" and ran off, screamed some obscenities on the way down, hit water, stung my feet, surfaced. etcetera.

It scares the crap out of me every time, but I keep going back in the hopes that it won't next time, but it does. I keep going back up there, even though I whine and whimper like a puppy each and every time (I swear I am not kidding), and once my feet leave the ground, my whole brain shuts down and I start screaming, mentally if not literally.

So, is anyone else a masochistic bastard and keeps doing something that scares the crap out of them each and every time?

[Veldrin]

So, is anyone else a masochistic bastard and keeps doing something that scares the crap out of them each and every time?

No, some of us are smart.

[HungryCrackPot]

[Veldrin]

[Chaos Angel]

You misspelled "you".

^~^

[RadicalEd0]

I am waiting to download the anime express 6 doc which has live moving picture and sound of Sam :\
That is pretty masochistic on an emotional level, but I guess I have to face up to it some time or another.

[dokidoki]

You misspelled "you".

Nono... Yuo is Duo's brother.

[Propyro]

So, is anyone else a masochistic bastard and keeps doing something that scares the crap out of them each and every time?

when i was a kid i used to ahve this littel skate board ramp me and my asshole friend made ... well, we never really were able to stand on our boards and we tried to go down the ramp ... well he made it dose fine ... but i always fell off and killed aobut 8 pairs of pants and got about 3lbs or pebbles imbedded into my leg. I spend like 2 weeks straight every day trying to go down that ramp ... we'd spend liek 4 or 5 hours just trying to go off the rapm ... god did it ever hurt. But on the last few days i started to make it down ok, then the ramp dissapeared.

[Chaos Angel]

Ouch... embedded pebbles...

[Propyro]

Ouch... embedded pebbles...

lol you should have been there the time i half made it down the ramp ... i either hit a nail or just randomly flipped over ... either way ... mouth full of dirt, stones and little sticks ... rich in iron and fiber ...