Adaptation.

Wykith · Post by **Wykith** » Wed Sep 10, 2003 11:57 am

Ever take a good look around and ask yourself "What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here at all."

I'm looking at the people around me at work and I feel like I'm from another planet. I can't seem to adapt to my enviroment. The music, the topics of conversation, the "vibe", I can't meld with it.

I've always pretty much been very solid in my perspective. I don't allow myself to be easily influenced by propaganda or by the opinion of my peers. I like to be very critical about who I am and what I'm about, but when I look around me, I feel the compelling urge to let go, fall into the massive void of complacency and swim in an ocean of blissful ignorance.

But something stops me. I don't want to be like them. I refuse to be like them. I abhore their apathy, their broken spirits, their passionless lives. I loathe to find myself glued to the idiot box, watching mind numbing "reality" shows and pathetic demonstrations of people's need for attention at the cost of complete humiliation, depicted painfully in a new breed of dating shows and the now popular, "Who wants to marry a____"

I'm sorry to rant. I find I have no one who will listen anymore, maybe not even any of you. In my stubborness I've pushed everyone away....how ironic.

Feels good to get it off my chest though.

Lyrs · Post by **Lyrs** » Wed Sep 10, 2003 12:01 pm

That's nothing. It's not adaptation (in the progressive sense), it's called degeneration.

neway, try a more extreme enviroment. go live in siberia, or try to survive in the sahara. these challenges will be better worth your adaptation should you find yourself become ever so changed.

one last note, after many more months you will become adapted. it's called "desensitization."

El Banana · Post by **El Banana** » Wed Sep 10, 2003 12:05 pm

Whenever I feel like that, I imagine the stupid people around me dying horrible, fiery deaths as I walk close to them.

Gets your mind off the depressing stuff.

Wykith · Post by **Wykith** » Wed Sep 10, 2003 1:13 pm

Lyrs wrote:That's nothing. It's not adaptation (in the progressive sense), it's called degeneration.

neway, try a more extreme enviroment. go live in siberia, or try to survive in the sahara. these challenges will be better worth your adaptation should you find yourself become ever so changed.

one last note, after many more months you will become adapted. it's called "desensitization."

I'm not commenting on degeneration, I'm commenting on my inability to adapt to my enviroment. I've already lived in a more extreme enviroment. It was that experience that made me realize how shallow the world I lived in actually was.
Desensitization is exactly what I'm trying to avoid.

)v(ajin Koji · Post by **)v(ajin Koji** » Wed Sep 10, 2003 1:14 pm

i feel like that when im in a group of people of more than 6 and no-one is talking to me...i just have a habit of examining people...i dunno why but...

I Judge!

Org Profile · Post by **Otohiko** » Wed Sep 10, 2003 2:21 pm

I'm fairly adaptable, which often misleads people about my personality. I can convince myself that, well, I belong virtually anywhere. What's more, I can usually convince others around me as well. However, were those general people around me to try and get beneath the surface, they probably would find an ugly, opinionated and radically different-minded person.

However, fear not, that mainly applies to real life. Forums, being a fairly liberal medium, allow me to pretty much go around and stick the real me in everyone's faces