why me?

Moonlight Shadow · Post by **Moonlight Shadow** » Wed Jan 15, 2003 8:09 pm

If you look deep down I don't think you really think that way...
I know that is hard very hard and yeah you can't have a normal
social life but ok what are you going to do about it...
Are you just going to sit there and cry???? Do you think that will help.
Just accept your fate and as i said before maybe it's for the best.
You don't know what will happen just think that maybe you could
be very very happy. Happiness is everywhere you just have to look
for it...
Asuka 8)

fyrtenheimer · Post by **fyrtenheimer** » Wed Jan 15, 2003 9:30 pm

idiot

darkyre · Post by **darkyre** » Thu Jan 16, 2003 3:42 pm

happiness is nonexistent.
no im jk.

im an unusually up-beat person, because i have learned the hard way how to handle stress well. my life is a sad story, so i try not to think about it. the first post in this thread was a brief moment of uncontroled anger.
it doesnt happen very often, and im looking at the bright side here, i get to live with my little brother, who i totally love.

Lord Mardar · Post by **Lord Mardar** » Fri Jan 17, 2003 6:09 pm

You know what im happy that ur happy. So im gonna write some thing that happend alright? todays is friday ok lets see....Today, friday, was a crazy day. Yesirie leme tell you to never do what i did, or....you can i dont really care. It all starts here. I called my friend gary just checking whats going down, when i reached him I found out he had been passing him self out, he was going on his 24th time in a row. This kids crazy, but he said that its a totall rush so i said, dude lets do it tommorow, (that was thursday night). So when 4 hours of school had already passed he grabbed me and said ''do you wanna try it''? and im like, ''ok dude''. When we got into the bath room he did it twice to show me, i didnt believe he was doing anything., its looked so fake. And how he always told me,'' i dont remeber anything'' and stuff like that i was like ok.

Ok so here i am and germey comes in, this big muscular guy, im like, hey jeremy, and he says want me to do it for you? im like '' ok'' . So I bend down pt my head down past my knees and breathe hard and fast. After a 40 secound hard quick breathing i sit up. This next part is totally whack and crazy. As soon as im up he pushes my chest in, hard, but i dont care, im like ''lets get this rush on!''. its seemed like he was pushing up against me forever. Everything was black, I suddenly heard race cars and then i was at home sleeping, i was shoooting something, I woke up, so dazed and confused i say, who the hell are you? where am i ? they say we passed you out. Its was the biggest rush ive had in years.

they said i passed out for 5 secound but it felt like an eternity. Phew! what crazin thrill!

fyrtenheimer · Post by **fyrtenheimer** » Fri Jan 17, 2003 9:21 pm

this site offers journal entries
maybe you should check that out

darkyre · Post by **darkyre** » Fri Jan 17, 2003 9:25 pm

Lord Mardar wrote:You know what im happy that ur happy. So im gonna write some thing that happend alright? todays is friday ok lets see....Today, friday, was a crazy day. Yesirie leme tell you to never do what i did, or....you can i dont really care. It all starts here. I called my friend gary just checking whats going down, when i reached him I found out he had been passing him self out, he was going on his 24th time in a row. This kids crazy, but he said that its a totall rush so i said, dude lets do it tommorow, (that was thursday night). So when 4 hours of school had already passed he grabbed me and said ''do you wanna try it''? and im like, ''ok dude''. When we got into the bath room he did it twice to show me, i didnt believe he was doing anything., its looked so fake. And how he always told me,'' i dont remeber anything'' and stuff like that i was like ok.

Ok so here i am and germey comes in, this big muscular guy, im like, hey jeremy, and he says want me to do it for you? im like '' ok'' . So I bend down pt my head down past my knees and breathe hard and fast. After a 40 secound hard quick breathing i sit up. This next part is totally whack and crazy. As soon as im up he pushes my chest in, hard, but i dont care, im like ''lets get this rush on!''. its seemed like he was pushing up against me forever. Everything was black, I suddenly heard race cars and then i was at home sleeping, i was shoooting something, I woke up, so dazed and confused i say, who the hell are you? where am i ? they say we passed you out. Its was the biggest rush ive had in years.

they said i passed out for 5 secound but it felt like an eternity. Phew! what crazin thrill!

lol, tried it. my friend ryan was havng fun making everyone asphyxiate. me included. was pretty intense, until he hurt my throat. ow.