Goodbye.........For now!

§_Akuma_§ · Post by **§_Akuma_§** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 1:12 am

hello everyone,

i just came here to say goodbye to eveyone. now im posting here b/c im looking for sympathy from anyone, just though i would take 1 more vist here and tell u all what is going on.

sorry to say that for now im going to have to retire AMV's. i never thought i would hear myself say that ever! today i got a video idea and got the song and everything from a friend here in town and discussed it with a couple of ppl. well today i started my video witch was going to be my very first drama video. well most of you guys know that on christmas my comp got reformatted and i have to get everything back. this wasent to bad since i didnt have any AMV's going at the time. well today i started my video and then my buddy calls me up to go out for a bit. i was gone for 1 hour......JUST ONE GOD DAMN HOUR and i come back to find that my father (A FUCKING AGAIN) goes and reformats the comp AGAIN! thats TWICE IN LESS THEN 5 FUCKING DAYS!! wanna know the reason? THERE IS NO REASON!!!! he did it b/c he said there were errors......BULL SHIT ON A STICK!!!!!! i have been on this comp preaty much every night for 8 hours ever since christmas and not fucking once have i came across ANYTHING wrong with it. maybe if he stoped going to all of his fucking porn sites maybe there wouldnt be anything wrong!

theres no point in me continuing if all my parents are going to do is fucking reformat this fucking thing every time something doesnt go their way!!

i just wanted to thank those of you who were a very great help to me in my 1 year of editing (ya thats preaty pathetic) you guys have no idea how much it ment to me to know and get along with you guys and if theres any reason that you might think im talking about you, most likely i am. this experiance has been the best experiance in my whole life and i will never forget about it and i will do my best to put it to good use!!

i just to have a special thanx go out to Hsien Lee.......hes the one who inspired me to start AMV creating in the first place. i will never forget what he has done for me.

and an even greater thanx goes out to all of my AMV buddies that were there with me from the very start til now. u guys helped me soo much from simple editing techniuqes to inspiration!! i thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart!!

maybe once i get my own computer i will return to this community and give it my all!!!! i know im not very well known and i have only made 8 video's and they wernt very good but i still enjoyed making them so matter how crappy some of them may be! i just wished i could have had my Akira Remaster video hosted some where since it was my last video.

anyways, ill still be on the AMV Mailing list and still check my email but i wont be around here or on AIM as much as i used to any more. again, thank you everyone!!

but for now, i must say goodbye........i wish u all luck in your future endevours.

Chef · Post by **Chef** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 1:16 am

aww that sucks!

Anime Jedi · Post by **Anime Jedi** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 1:46 am

I'm very sorry to hear all of this. But you said you will return? Hope to see that day sometime soon.

Ya, having your own computer will be much safer. I practically don't let anyone touch mine, unless I'm there. No one can work the stuff I use. Since it's all set up differently, including my VCR. lol

R-A-N-M-A · Post by **R-A-N-M-A** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 1:51 am

We will miss you old friend.

§_Akuma_§ · Post by **§_Akuma_§** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 7:43 pm

ok, i have been giving this alot of though and decided that im going to try my best to contiune making AMV's.

making AMV's is what makes me more uniqe then other ppl i know here. im the only video editor i know of around my area. i cant stay away from AMV's, i made it preaty much my life now, i know it may sound stupid but i have grown very fond of the fact that i create somehing even non-anime fans can enjoy. i even hope to make my skillz take to make it a career in video editing since i love it so much.

last night i was soo pissed off and depressed b/c i try and do something i love to do and no one here cares. thats why i got all pissed off and basicly threw in the towel on the whole video editing thing. theres nothing i can do.....i know some of you may think its lame of me to come back in less then 24 hours but if u have been making AMV's for over a year then u can understand why i cant leave.......this is a hobby i cant just turn away from, i cant just drop everything and leave.

AMV's are the only way i know how to express myself as a person. i probably would go insane if i just kept all my feelings inside but AMV's helps me exploit those feelings in a different way.

im going to try my very best to keep my cool and not throw in the towel again everyone. but when the day comes that i get my own computer, im going to fucking go all out and make the best fucking AMV's i had ever made!!!!!!!

im sorry if i had made ppl feel sorry for me or wasted there time reading my bull shit. i just wanted to say thank you to those who have supported me.

Moonlight Shadow · Post by **Moonlight Shadow** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 10:39 pm

NOOOOOOOOO..............
DON"T LEAVE AKUMA...... NOOOOOOOO

Asuka 8)

§_Akuma_§ · Post by **§_Akuma_§** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 10:52 pm

lol dont worry.......my head is alot more clearier now.

i dont plan on leaving anymore (like anyone cares hehehe) i was just an emotional wreck!!

Omega Bahamut · Post by **Omega Bahamut** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 10:55 pm

I riddle my computer with passwords

I find that helps

Moonlight Shadow · Post by **Moonlight Shadow** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 10:56 pm

you're back...
I did that once too. I left but then I came back for some
reason...(Can't say)
Glad you'll be around and how do you know
maybe I do care

Asuka 8)

Chef · Post by **Chef** » Mon Dec 30, 2002 10:56 pm

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!