I was finally able to speak with my mummy about everything that has been happening recently with my sister (she even threatened to move out if I ever moved back in) and she was really angry because there was a lot of stuff being said behind her back that she didn't know about. She felt really bad about how I've been feeling and stuff. Even though she doesn't take sides, she said I shouldn't apologise to my sister because I did nothing wrong. I'd been putting myself down for a few weeks, thinking that I'm a horrible person and I was trying to figure out everything that was happening because I kept being told I was doing things wrong, or I should apologise for things I didn't do. It got to the stage that I would start to panic and I even had bad nosebleeds which really was a bad experience. I felt awful because I kept crying and Niwa had to deal with it. It got to the point were he shouted at me, telling me to stop putting myself down so much because I was worth more than what I felt like, and Niwa doesn't shout, ever. He's like a little puppy. It really was what I needed. I feel like I can go back home and visit and I'm trying my best not to blame myself for everything that goes wrong. I genuinely feel lucky to have Niwa in my life, and I finally feel like I can get back to being the happy person I usually am. I seriously just need to stop letting things build up to that extent!
I actually had a good nights sleep for the first time in months which felt sooooo good!
Also, two nights ago a car ran a red light and nearly knocked me down. The best thing about that? The police came zooming around the corner after the jerk. :'D
I also just got a Pikachu t-shirt. Ah, the little things in life are always the best.
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