I was mad comparing the now to the before.. but I do have an interesting new form of focus.
Though when I was hypo.. I was constantly motivated. I wanted to help people.. but sometimes after people insisting on fretting about stuff, I ended up just pissing the fretters off. Yes, I'm 90% sure it was stubborn people and people who always was looking for problems for themselves to attempt to fix. Kinda annoying. Never got a women mad, or maybe I did but they didn't act mad, but women with boyfriends would act mad if I attacked there boyfriends self esteem(can't say I attacked their ego, because everytime I say something like that I get yelled at
).. and I had girls that liked to come up to me and talk to me A LOT.. though jealous people saying I just dreamed it and thought it was real, but the people that were saying that lame ass crap wasn't hanging around me all day, so I can say they were delusional or just extremely jealous.In a bar I would get a lot of attention by females. But I would not even try to get there attention. My ego was high and pretty damn secure and my self esteem went through the roof.. probably why I PISSED OFF only guys here and there in the bar WITHOUT even trying.
So yes, it was fun.. but I see how I alienate SOME people(oh yess, you would like to think everyone was mad at me, GET OVER YOUR INSECURE SELF.. hehe).
In the end.. sorry.. this is my live blog.. you don't like what I say then F off please. I know my personality even off of meds I will always rub some the wrong way.. but I like me.. I like being me.. If you don't like that.. then your friendship is not worth my time. I care for my friends and I easily forgive people and try to act cool with them at a later time to let time heal. The absolutely pathetic thing I see most people do is still let times in their past represent there thoughts on the person they had a fight with. Sad. Sad indeed.. Hey, it's in your ball court. No you don't realize this and you think I'm stubborn right? RIGHT? Again.. I say in many different ways.. just get over your stupid self.
We all are stupid sometimes.. please don't be insistent on being stupid. It's very annoying and it makes me not want to be friends with yourself. Get over things, quit fretting the way I was and things I said, and we could be good friends. Learn this.. it's all your ball court.. not mine. If I keep doing things that bother you.. then you know what to do. Walk away.
(This is just a post I just made in my Facebook account.)
Another thing to add.. and kinda funny because I read this post someone made about hypomania, and I was having the same paranoia towards certain individuals.
"But hyperthymia certainly doesn't look like an illness; there appears to be no disadvantage to being a euphoric extrovert, except, perhaps, for inspiring an occasional homicidal impulse from jealous friends or peers. But little is actually known about people with hyperthymia for the simple reason that they don't see psychiatrists complaining that they are happy."