well fuck... (relationship troubles)

RadicalEd0 · Post by **RadicalEd0** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 12:35 pm

oh wait.. that depends on the size of internet explorer -_-
THE THING ABOUT LOYALTY geez

Lyrs · Post by **Lyrs** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 1:51 pm

loyalty? What comes to mind when you think of the word, radical?

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RadicalEd0 · Post by **RadicalEd0** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 6:03 pm

alright.. now I could use some advice. Not with her, with my life. I funnily enough got sick in the stomach last night before I found out about this shit, so I wasnt planning to go to school today anyway. Naturally after that and being up until 6 I didnt go. Now, I've got 3 tests to make up and tomorrow is the last day of the quarter (grades arent due until thurs morning at 8am though I believe). I dont know if I'm going to be able to make it tomorrow. I've felt like shit all day, both physically and emotionally. I'm not sure what my body and mind can handle right now. I know I'm not going to be able to study and will probably do bad on those tests. I need a vacation, I know a few people who have gotten off for a few days for mental health purposes, and thats really what I need, but the whole end of the quarter thing really fucks me up as far as thats concerned. I'm not sure what to do.
I still havent gotten ahold of sam btw (shes still not home), although I will do it before today is over.
"sam, have you ever lied to me?" "no" "thats funny.. I was reading your live journal.."
yeah, I've had a bunch of time to think over what I'm gonna say. :|

Anyway.. what do you guys think I should do about school.. and those tests and stuff.. I'm not whining, I'm just incredibly emotionally and physically exhausted and fucked up right now.

NME · Post by **NME** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 6:25 pm

Right now the best thing I can see you doing is just taking things as they come. If you talk to Sam again, just tell her that you found out about everything and that you can't continue anymore. I don't want to sound overly emotional and full of bullshit but I'd say that someone I knew for such a long time and had such a relationship with who really cared about me wouldn't do those kinds of things. So why should you care about her or what shes doing anymore. Theres a point where you can get things back to normal and a point where you just can't. In the end it's all up to you to decide what to do about those things.

What you should do schoolwise is get a bunch of notes from your parents and be extra nice to teachers and DO THOSE TESTS. Your best option to feel better is to get something thats worrying you off your chest and getting those tests done and out of the way should help a bit, if not alot. Study really hard if you have to. Just make sure you do those tests and to the best of your ablities.

Look forward not focusing on the bad, but instead the positive things that will come of going forward.

Give yourself some time if you need it.

Things can suck for a while
But they won't suck forever.

I pratically live by those words with all the shit in my life.

CaTaClYsM · Post by **CaTaClYsM** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 6:49 pm

OK. I know you may not like it, but could I see the live journal? I knew things werent adding up from the begining and *GASP* there was. I think she is home and whoever you end up talking too is lying. The reason why I ask is so that I can see for myself exactly what it is she's saying.

RadicalEd0 · Post by **RadicalEd0** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 6:52 pm

feel free. And she's not home, she's at her friend erin's house.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/houounoaizou
its not pretty though... not at all...

Anime Jedi · Post by **Anime Jedi** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 7:37 pm

She actually writes that much...

Sooooo many quizzes... o_0

Lyrs · Post by **Lyrs** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 7:42 pm

oh well...

I'm not sure if reading all about her life is want I want to do. I hope she doesn't have a cyber stalking or something.

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RadicalEd0 · Post by **RadicalEd0** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 7:54 pm

aj, I can sum it up for you. Boohoo I'm so depressed and fucked up oh btw I have a boyfriend.

Thats basically all I got out of the whole thing.
The boyfriend part was few and far between, and her friends who I'm talking to now didnt even know they're going out. I dunno what the fuckin deal is. Shes going to call when she gets home. If she dosent, I will, I dont care what time it is or what her parents think.
I just talked to her for an hour online, shes still at her friends house. I didnt directly tell her that I knew, but I was being plenty coy about it making comments about lying and stuff. She knows somethings up, she just dosent know what. Or rather, dosent know how I know somethings wrong.

CaTaClYsM · Post by **CaTaClYsM** » Mon Mar 24, 2003 10:13 pm

if you want to screw with her mind you have my blessing.