- Member: nailz
- Studio: Goat Productions
- Title: Battle of the Mind: Can I Be?
- Premiered: 2002-08-13
- Nightwish Dead Boy's Poem
Don't really know what to say about this video, but I'm sure by the time I'm done, I'll have a lot here...so lets go.
Everyone goes through shit in their life. Some complicated, some stressful, some fun. People have different ways of expressing themselves, and until now, I never really thought of an AMV as one of them.
There's something about Asuka I like. She's strong, she wants to be the best at everything, but underneath, she really doesn't know what she needs. I like Shinji, because he just wants to be himself, but he really doesn't have a strong grasp on what that self is, and I like Karou, because he's like a light in an endless tunnel.
I made this video to help me deal with some ... conflicts of interest ... that were currently going on in my head. I wanted to get everything out into this amv for myself. I figured, what better way than make a video.
When you go through and watch this video, please disreguard the idea of Shinji, Karou, and Asuka are seprate characters within their own world. Think of them as personalities in your head. I guess it wouldn't be too much to explain that the way I had them envisioned was for Asuka to be the personality that was strong, unwilling to let myself go, let myself be. Shinji was what she was holding back, Shinji represents me wanting to let go, just be without anything else. Karou is meant kind of as a voice - a guiding light, the inner strength for the Shinji personality to overcome the Asuka personality. In the end, Shinji gets to be himself, Asuka sees how important it is, but then ignores it as if to say "I told you so." when Shinji realises how painful it really is.
Yah, it should make more sence when you watch it. Maybe. Like I said, I made it because I was dealing with an inner conflict that just exploded in my head one day, and I finally just DEALT with it to put it too rest. This, more or less, is the story of that.
Comments REALLY appreciated on this one. If you don't typically leave ops for videos you download (or even if you do.), I'm asking that you please leave one for this. I was debating for a while wether or not to release this, because it's so goddamn personal. I wanna know what everyone else thinks of it!