- User Name: Zerophite
- Member Since: Monday, May 7, 2001, 2:33 PM
- Name: J. Anderson
- Location: Portland, OR, USA
- Homepage: http://www.myspace.com/f9nongo
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- Journal: Last entry made on 2004-11-01 11:42:57
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- Profile: Life:
I remember the last time I logged into this website, stiffled, sore about life, and never wanting to set foot in the anime community again. I was an asshole, immature, and ignorant in many ways of which I still may be today. But I sigh not because this is the way life works: there are moments of realization some smaller than others, and others more frequent to be. My path in the past, conversing with those in the chat rooms and acting like a teenager on crack, were enjoyable for an anime junky dropping out of high school with no set plan or goal because the ability never appeared at the time. Five years much has happened with more regretable moments than others sometimes, but when becoming a nihilist, one learns to devalue much about himself as well as the world.
As of tomorrow, I'll be on the road for a week travelling to Oregon with my girlfriend, whom I have been with for almost three years, and for the past two years she has put up with a very stressed Jesse as I've been working my way through college in Florida while continuing the usual struggle in the working middle class; the place I escaped to without knowing much about life, however, still knowing little but at least understanding how to mold it into something I desire and enjoy without harming others in the process. Along with Jen, our two cats are also joining us on our journey in the Mazda 626-v6 as the price of gas robs us of our money with poor fuel efficiency.
I have been planning this trip since I starting community college. It was a small dream then, a simple thought that reoccurred during vacation when I had time to think about life between work and existence. Now, well, when we finally settle in Portland in September, I'll be starting at a University. With great zeal I anticipate the day I finally get to visit the campus, but this orgy of thought and fantasy towards a life of the constant pursuit of knowledge is the goal and with it another will arise. At PSU I will study Philosophy, but people expect this from me most of the time. When I used to work at Whole Foods, I would start debates with people to kill time as I cooked some quite often terrible food. A lot of it, I wouldn't feed my family. My second semester at Valencia, after completing my first round of general studies, I took Intro to Philosophy. It was my first leap into the world after a somewhat awkward introduction in high school occured. I fell in love with Nietzsche, Jean-Paul Sartre, and in the beginning with an attempt I tried Heidegger and havn't picked up Introduction to Metaphysics since the beginning of my second year; at the same time I started Being and Time, never making it passed the first chapter.
This is a lot for an Anime Music Video profile I know, but as I sit here with bloodshot eyes staring into my notebook, I want to write something other than an essay about the Existentialists or philosophy in general, and Jen is asleep in preparation for 6 days of driving (I checked the car out of paranoia that something would arise to stall the trip).
Of this new found morality I mentioned in the beginning, I am a vegetarian...creeping into veganism. It's one of those freak things you don't want to tell someone at first. At least, I didn't. I remember first posting it in Live Journal and having the next day phone calls about protein intake, later essential fats, and B-vitamins. I've always been skinny though from what I can remember. Comments about it and even getting a shirt in high school that says, "Chicks dig scrawny pale guys." But that was probably from the "goth" attitude I held. I admit it, this time being a vegetarian is a reoccurance. It's the second time. I first became a vegetarian with only the desire to generally benefit myself. I thought it to be healthier, but didn't so much care for the harm done to the animals during labor. A moral reflection was required to strengthen the commitment the second time, and this, like all moral commitments, cannot be forced on someone. So, I read magazines like Herbivore and I support others becoming vegetarians and vegan, but I don't agree with some of the more forceful, fear propaganda people, at least in Orlando, use because the lifestyle just isn't suitable for some.
I'm also a marxist. I believe the history of man is rooted by classism and seek to eliminate this by becoming a professor, preferably of Philosophy. Following this, I am against war, and I believe every human has the right to food, shelter, and education. Food for life, shelter for comfort, and education for the ability to benefit society with the understanding of it's construction. Healthcare, much like shelter, is required by all; in fact, I don't think it's even a matter of question that the government pay for the accidents of the people for it should meet these needs and demands as well. The doctors come from the general process of education.
So, after five years Zerophite has become a leaf eater, a philosopher, a Buddhist, a college graduate--for I just finished my AA--, a boyfriend, a chef, a scholar, an animal lover, a communist (simply by the philosophy of Marx), and, not to mention, a musician (click the URL for my homepage) influenced by psychedelic rock, IDM, and subsequently the infinite amount of moments in a day.
I sound like a hippie, but that's just another name for it.