ShodanKid (Keith Bunish)
I swear, even though I've logged 150+ hours, losing 3 hours of work pisses me off to no end. Oh well, not like I'm releasing it soon anyway. Still. Sigh.
At least I have a weird ass esoteric project to work on next. Neat. Sigh.
Week 2 as I slowly make progress on my new video that will probably take me a couple more months to complete, especially when every bloody thing I do I take a 2x4 and smack myself in the head shouting about how absolutely useless I am. Then suddenly I look at the final product and think, huh...that looks fucking sexy as hell. Rinse. Repeat. I love editing <3 for work and play.
I sure hope it comes through, it looks so beautiful in my head. That's all it's supposed to be. Hundreds of hours later. Sigh.
Having solved a quality pinch point in my workflow, I considered then got over the thought to redo a couple videos. I'd rather move on and make new ones. Then of course, as I ran into an idea my initial thoughts on it conjures only one feeling...
Kill me. Kill me now. Kill me dead.
Wait, dammit, then I'll never finish it! Shit. Mine as well, since one project is on hold as I work to complete the series and nowhere near enough FIGHTING and another project that needs to finish already.
The downtime is getting to me. Relax, sheesus.
I halt work on an video because it needs work, days pass, i do a whole other video, then let my hatred stew, considering moving on, then when I finally sit down to see what I can salvage I find that the video is pretty good, just the end needs fixing.
I hate living in my brain. Yet...there is never a dull moment so nevermind.
Breaking a rule
I hate the feeling of wanting to redo a video. The rule was to just let it go, there will be others. But I hate the fact I may have tried to be so clever that I begin to hate the work I put in.
I hate personality traits, they just get in the way, ignore and move on, dammit!
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