Nah, my thing was never permanent. It's a contract job. I was promised an internship in Toronto, and the stupid thing is, I could have pushed to get another teaching contract, but since this seemed like a definite thing I didn't (in fact my department first offered me a teaching job, then turned me down as soon as they heard about this internship). But now the internship has sort of slipped and will probably not start till October-November at the earliest. In the meantime, the department aren't being their friendliest and in fact if it weren't for this internship, I suspect they would not be of any help in preventing Grad Studies (who are on my ass because, like most other PhD students, I'm taking much longer to finish my studies than the 4-year program term) from kicking me out. So it's sort of a shitty situation where I need this internship to continue my studies (my dissertation is even sort of riding on it), but it's preventing me from looking for other jobs and turning into a longer gap than I can fund.
On the bright side, if my school has nothing to offer me in the next month or so, my parents have already offered me to go with them on a road trip to British Columbia and be their main driver for about 3 weeks, which would sort of solve the whole "I don't have any money to live on" issue for a little bit \o/
Recently I’ve been haunting myself.
The shocking thing is how easy it is to disappear if you really want to.
I wonder for the millionth time how long it will be before anyone misses me.