Magnus was an amazing person. I've only known him for just under two years but in that short space of time, he changed my life dramatically. I remember on VC when he asked why I called him a panda and when I said because 'you're a mixture of happy and sad, but still friendly and huggable.' He just laughed and said I was right. Magnus never let the cancer get him down, he fought through it all and most of all, he never let it stop him living his life. I admired his strength, and his courage. I still remember the day he told me his cancer was back and he promised he'd fight it and he did, he fought it everyday. Then when he called me and told me that it had progressed too much. He made me promise to stop crying and laugh and be happy, because that's what he liked best. When I was told that he was gone, I kept saying no. Even now, I don't want to accept it.
I still have our first ever Skype conversation and I'm reading it smiling because he was just so amazingly nice.
I remember how when I first VC'd with him he had so much fun laughing at how I said words with r, like 'Scary' or 'Air'
[29/10/2010 23:40:42] Magnus: You say "Scurry", when you see curry. Then you go blurry, and eat a flurry.
I also remember when it came to our Akross collab, he didn't ask me, he just told me... xD
[07/11/2010 18:43:50] Magnus: AKROSS COLLAB!?!?!?!?
Magnus: Hey Susie
we are making a collab for Akross! I just cut the song, here are your tracks! -sends zip file- While downloading that, here's the song we're using
Susie: ... o.o -clicks-
Magnus: Okay so we're entering Romance/Drama. We have to be finished in less than a month! Nice I'll call you after I've taken a shower
Susie: this song is pretty...
I loved how when he wanted something he just did it without hesitation. He was really an amazing person. I could sit and talk about him for a long time, write so much because I have so much I want to say. One of the things he wanted most was to read the last chapter of Bokura Ga Ita. That was something we always did together and it won't feel the same without him here at all. I'll miss how he shouted at me on VC when I got really high pitched, I'll miss how he made fun of my accent and how I spoke. I'll miss that evil scream he did to scare me. I'll really miss him so much and all I keep thinking is, that it isn't fair that he's gone. He wanted to live more than anyone else I know. He wanted to live. He deserved to live his life and accomplish his dreams because I've never met someone so certain about anything in my life, other than Magnus. I really don't know what I'm going to do without him. Rest in Peace, Panda. It won't be the same without you here.