A very long time ago i began to get into computers. almost right out of high school.
I developed a passion for gaming and for many types of digital editing. slowly a fear began to build in me that if i continued to attempt to follow a "college" carrier i would only end up failing and become a bum.
So out of fear i quickly jumped into becoming a wild land firefighter as a carrier. there were definatly aspects of the job that i disliked, and some i enjoyed.
over the years my distaste for my job grew into something of a fear. i would fear having to go to work because i knew that it involved things that i hated.
but again i told myself that i have no other options, that life does not allow for any aspirations because poor people cant do shit.
this year was my fifth fire season. i was on a fire and came very close to loosing my life. and worse i put some folks in danger.
i thought about that for a very long time and finally i decided that i did not want anything to do with fire. that i wanted somthing more. so i promised myself that if i ever got off that fire i would quit my job and never return to fire again.
I kept my promise a few nights later. and now after a few weeks the fear of what i have just done is finally setting in.
Ironicly enough it was the movie batman that pushed me to think about what i want out of life and how hard i will have to work to get there. and also how great my chances of failure really are.
So now i have decided that i want to try a carrier in digital image editing. or digital film editing.
i have a passion for this and i would really love some information from people who know more than i do about it.
is it possible for me to do this? im 24 years old. is there really a carrier in this?
I am very sorry for the long winded explanation, in a way i think its my way of releasing. everyone i know is looking at me like i just made the bigest mistake of my life. am i?
why is it that i have to be unhappy to live. yet if i try to fix it im doomed to fail? is this how life is.
My reason for coming here to post is simple. this is where my love for video editing began. these are the people who i considered my teachers and they have taught me so much.
sorry for the long and confusing post. but there really are some questions in here that i need answered very badly.















