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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby DriftRoot » Tue Feb 21, 2012 8:02 pm

This is so sad...I'm shedding more than a few tears even though I didn't know Magnus well. Clearly he has touched many people. I wish the best for his family and friends and hope that his spirit continues to live on. <3

ngsilver wrote:I was planning on doing a best of 2011 stream on Saturday, but now I think I will stream all of Magnus videos. Current time is set for 8PM EST Saturday - Feb 25th.

Good time to sit down, enjoy the good works he has done, and just generally chat and remember one of us.

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:up: Wonderful idea, thank you! I will certainly do my best to be there!
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby lloyd9988 » Tue Feb 21, 2012 8:05 pm

Why. . . I would never forget you. . . I never even known you and I'll never forget you. . . :(

You are such a strong, admirous and courageous person yet you left us so suddenly?! Your an amazing person Magnus and I hope that your love and courage will touch the lives of all those people that you've met! Just tell Godix that we all miss you guys and we'll never forget you. :sad: And we'll hope to be as strong, courageous, and loving as you were to us Magnus. You'll never be forgotten in our hearts
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby JenCM18 » Tue Feb 21, 2012 8:20 pm

Rest In Peace. You will be greatly missed by many.
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby pacotacoshell » Tue Feb 21, 2012 8:33 pm

To be able to edit so well and stay with this community for this long while fighting that battle is beyond my comprehension. Rest in peace man. ):
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Zaiyei » Tue Feb 21, 2012 8:53 pm

I have little right to even post here.
I havent shed a tear since I heard of his death. My eyes have welled up with tears on several occasions but not a single tear fell. I hate myself for it. Simply put. But there's nothing I can do, I can't force myself to cry - I've tried.
It's suffocating.. My chest is tight, my mind is blank. I can only conclude that I'm either in denial or that I'm a cold-hearted jerk who isn't even crying over the loss of one of her closest friends.

I was just talking to him two days ago... It wasn't a long conversation.. but it's just all so unreal. Two days ago.
I still remember a couple weeks ago (a little more than a month?) when he told me he wasn't going to live. He said he only told his close friends. He told me not to be sad, he said he will live his life to the fullest and enjoy it. He said he was prepared to die. Ready to go. All I could do was support him - Pray for him - And that I did.
I wish I was there last night for him. I hate that I wasn't..

I regret so much that I have been too busy this year to have those long VCs that I used to have with him.. Those neverending conversations.. I miss them so much. Just a week ago I finally thought of what I could do for his birthday, what I could make him. I wanted to make him smile..

I remember my first conversation with him. So nervous.. This was like my amv idol: Zetzu. Am I dreaming?! Haha.. He was really friendly.. I still remember he wanted to VC that time and wondered who I was and why he didn't know me yet. It was so fun. He was so easy to talk to.. It just all seemed like a dream.
I remember his AMV "Our Farewell". The AMV of his that hooked me to his editing. I remember in our first conversation we talked about it.
Then we talked more, about random things, he taught me a couple things in editing.. shared with me about his life, his thoughts and ideas, his interests,..

I still remember once he found me on facebook and said "Deb. If there was ever a time I needed someone to talk to, it would be now" and I rushed onto skype, called him, and heard him crying (it was complex emotional problems with a girl that he was close to [long and short of it]).

I still remember.. when he disappeared over the summer of 2010 and how I found out later he was in the hospital from being diagnosed with cancer.
The two years I've known him, he's never failed to present me with a gift for my birthday which always happened to be during the time he was in the hospital (both years).
Magnus, you've done way too much for me - someone so insignificant like me. You do so much for all your friends.. I wish I could've done more for you. I really wanted to..
I can say for all of us, you were an amazing, amazing, friend - a much better one that many of us could have/have been to you.

I hate how you're gone.. You saw it coming, I knew it would come since you told me, and yet it's still so hard to accept. I see your name on skype, I see your YT, I see your org account.. I see it all and tell myself you're gone - but deep inside I know I haven't accepted it.
Just a few weeks ago we were planning your trip to the states.. how we could meet.. how we could hang. I wanted to meet you in person... now I can't.

Im torn. I want to yell at you. I want to give you a big hug. I can't do either. I miss you so much.
Sorry for the ramble. I'm really a wordless mess right now.

-Debbie
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby LittleAtari » Tue Feb 21, 2012 9:26 pm

Zaiyei wrote:I have little right to even post here.
I havent shed a tear since I heard of his death. My eyes have welled up with tears on several occasions but not a single tear fell. I hate myself for it. Simply put. But there's nothing I can do, I can't force myself to cry - I've tried.
It's suffocating.. My chest is tight, my mind is blank. I can only conclude that I'm either in denial or that I'm a cold-hearted jerk who isn't even crying over the loss of one of her closest friends.

I was just talking to him two days ago... It wasn't a long conversation.. but it's just all so unreal. Two days ago.
I still remember a couple weeks ago (a little more than a month?) when he told me he wasn't going to live. He said he only told his close friends. He told me not to be sad, he said he will live his life to the fullest and enjoy it. He said he was prepared to die. Ready to go. All I could do was support him - Pray for him - And that I did.
I wish I was there last night for him. I hate that I wasn't..

I regret so much that I have been too busy this year to have those long VCs that I used to have with him.. Those neverending conversations.. I miss them so much. Just a week ago I finally thought of what I could do for his birthday, what I could make him. I wanted to make him smile..

I remember my first conversation with him. So nervous.. This was like my amv idol: Zetzu. Am I dreaming?! Haha.. He was really friendly.. I still remember he wanted to VC that time and wondered who I was and why he didn't know me yet. It was so fun. He was so easy to talk to.. It just all seemed like a dream.
I remember his AMV "Our Farewell". The AMV of his that hooked me to his editing. I remember in our first conversation we talked about it.
Then we talked more, about random things, he taught me a couple things in editing.. shared with me about his life, his thoughts and ideas, his interests,..

I still remember once he found me on facebook and said "Deb. If there was ever a time I needed someone to talk to, it would be now" and I rushed onto skype, called him, and heard him crying (it was complex emotional problems with a girl that he was close to [long and short of it]).

I still remember.. when he disappeared over the summer of 2010 and how I found out later he was in the hospital from being diagnosed with cancer.
The two years I've known him, he's never failed to present me with a gift for my birthday which always happened to be during the time he was in the hospital (both years).
Magnus, you've done way too much for me - someone so insignificant like me. You do so much for all your friends.. I wish I could've done more for you. I really wanted to..
I can say for all of us, you were an amazing, amazing, friend - a much better one that many of us could have/have been to you.

I hate how you're gone.. You saw it coming, I knew it would come since you told me, and yet it's still so hard to accept. I see your name on skype, I see your YT, I see your org account.. I see it all and tell myself you're gone - but deep inside I know I haven't accepted it.
Just a few weeks ago we were planning your trip to the states.. how we could meet.. how we could hang. I wanted to meet you in person... now I can't.

Im torn. I want to yell at you. I want to give you a big hug. I can't do either. I miss you so much.
Sorry for the ramble. I'm really a wordless mess right now.

-Debbie


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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby simofc90 » Tue Feb 21, 2012 9:27 pm

For me he was a person to admire. So young, this lost is so sad.
Rest in peace Magnus.
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Drageer » Tue Feb 21, 2012 9:40 pm

R.I.P. Magnus. I didn't know you, but you seem like a good editor and most of all, a good person.
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby AceD » Tue Feb 21, 2012 9:43 pm

Wow unbelievable, i was reading his interview thinking it got pretty depressing towards the end....start reading the comments and this hits....

We have talked a few times about amvs and such, i wouldn't call him a friend or anything....however i have known about his situation for some time and its saddening to read he has lost his battle...rip
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Otohiko » Tue Feb 21, 2012 9:47 pm

LittleAtari wrote:
Zaiyei wrote:I have little right to even post here.
I havent shed a tear since I heard of his death. My eyes have welled up with tears on several occasions but not a single tear fell. I hate myself for it. Simply put. But there's nothing I can do, I can't force myself to cry - I've tried.
It's suffocating.. My chest is tight, my mind is blank. I can only conclude that I'm either in denial or that I'm a cold-hearted jerk who isn't even crying over the loss of one of her closest friends.

I was just talking to him two days ago... It wasn't a long conversation.. but it's just all so unreal. Two days ago.
I still remember a couple weeks ago (a little more than a month?) when he told me he wasn't going to live. He said he only told his close friends. He told me not to be sad, he said he will live his life to the fullest and enjoy it. He said he was prepared to die. Ready to go. All I could do was support him - Pray for him - And that I did.
I wish I was there last night for him. I hate that I wasn't..

I regret so much that I have been too busy this year to have those long VCs that I used to have with him.. Those neverending conversations.. I miss them so much. Just a week ago I finally thought of what I could do for his birthday, what I could make him. I wanted to make him smile..

I remember my first conversation with him. So nervous.. This was like my amv idol: Zetzu. Am I dreaming?! Haha.. He was really friendly.. I still remember he wanted to VC that time and wondered who I was and why he didn't know me yet. It was so fun. He was so easy to talk to.. It just all seemed like a dream.
I remember his AMV "Our Farewell". The AMV of his that hooked me to his editing. I remember in our first conversation we talked about it.
Then we talked more, about random things, he taught me a couple things in editing.. shared with me about his life, his thoughts and ideas, his interests,..

I still remember once he found me on facebook and said "Deb. If there was ever a time I needed someone to talk to, it would be now" and I rushed onto skype, called him, and heard him crying (it was complex emotional problems with a girl that he was close to [long and short of it]).

I still remember.. when he disappeared over the summer of 2010 and how I found out later he was in the hospital from being diagnosed with cancer.
The two years I've known him, he's never failed to present me with a gift for my birthday which always happened to be during the time he was in the hospital (both years).
Magnus, you've done way too much for me - someone so insignificant like me. You do so much for all your friends.. I wish I could've done more for you. I really wanted to..
I can say for all of us, you were an amazing, amazing, friend - a much better one that many of us could have/have been to you.

I hate how you're gone.. You saw it coming, I knew it would come since you told me, and yet it's still so hard to accept. I see your name on skype, I see your YT, I see your org account.. I see it all and tell myself you're gone - but deep inside I know I haven't accepted it.
Just a few weeks ago we were planning your trip to the states.. how we could meet.. how we could hang. I wanted to meet you in person... now I can't.

Im torn. I want to yell at you. I want to give you a big hug. I can't do either. I miss you so much.
Sorry for the ramble. I'm really a wordless mess right now.

-Debbie


don't beat yourself up. You feel the pain. You don't need to express it in the common forms. You two were close and he meant something to you. Nothing changes that.


Agreed, don't beat yourself up over it. He wouldn't want that, and in the end, neither do you.

Having lost one of the closest people in my life before, I felt just like that, for weeks and months in fact. It was paralyzing and I totally couldn't express myself, and felt horrible for not being able to cry or really say something meaningful about it. That's what a lot of people are feeling right now I'm sure. I think a lot can be said about Magnus right now, but it will all just seem really sad and inadequate compared to even the smallest thing he could say to put your mind to rest or put a smile on your face.

At the same time, hearing stories about how he was is honestly almost like hearing him say something again, so thanks for all of you who were close friends with him for sharing these. I feel like I got to know him a little more, and that's really an awesome thing.
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Zaiyei » Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:09 pm

Otohiko wrote:
LittleAtari wrote:
Zaiyei wrote:I have little right to even post here.
I havent shed a tear since I heard of his death. My eyes have welled up with tears on several occasions but not a single tear fell. I hate myself for it. Simply put. But there's nothing I can do, I can't force myself to cry - I've tried.
It's suffocating.. My chest is tight, my mind is blank. I can only conclude that I'm either in denial or that I'm a cold-hearted jerk who isn't even crying over the loss of one of her closest friends.

I was just talking to him two days ago... It wasn't a long conversation.. but it's just all so unreal. Two days ago.
I still remember a couple weeks ago (a little more than a month?) when he told me he wasn't going to live. He said he only told his close friends. He told me not to be sad, he said he will live his life to the fullest and enjoy it. He said he was prepared to die. Ready to go. All I could do was support him - Pray for him - And that I did.
I wish I was there last night for him. I hate that I wasn't..

I regret so much that I have been too busy this year to have those long VCs that I used to have with him.. Those neverending conversations.. I miss them so much. Just a week ago I finally thought of what I could do for his birthday, what I could make him. I wanted to make him smile..

I remember my first conversation with him. So nervous.. This was like my amv idol: Zetzu. Am I dreaming?! Haha.. He was really friendly.. I still remember he wanted to VC that time and wondered who I was and why he didn't know me yet. It was so fun. He was so easy to talk to.. It just all seemed like a dream.
I remember his AMV "Our Farewell". The AMV of his that hooked me to his editing. I remember in our first conversation we talked about it.
Then we talked more, about random things, he taught me a couple things in editing.. shared with me about his life, his thoughts and ideas, his interests,..

I still remember once he found me on facebook and said "Deb. If there was ever a time I needed someone to talk to, it would be now" and I rushed onto skype, called him, and heard him crying (it was complex emotional problems with a girl that he was close to [long and short of it]).

I still remember.. when he disappeared over the summer of 2010 and how I found out later he was in the hospital from being diagnosed with cancer.
The two years I've known him, he's never failed to present me with a gift for my birthday which always happened to be during the time he was in the hospital (both years).
Magnus, you've done way too much for me - someone so insignificant like me. You do so much for all your friends.. I wish I could've done more for you. I really wanted to..
I can say for all of us, you were an amazing, amazing, friend - a much better one that many of us could have/have been to you.

I hate how you're gone.. You saw it coming, I knew it would come since you told me, and yet it's still so hard to accept. I see your name on skype, I see your YT, I see your org account.. I see it all and tell myself you're gone - but deep inside I know I haven't accepted it.
Just a few weeks ago we were planning your trip to the states.. how we could meet.. how we could hang. I wanted to meet you in person... now I can't.

Im torn. I want to yell at you. I want to give you a big hug. I can't do either. I miss you so much.
Sorry for the ramble. I'm really a wordless mess right now.

-Debbie


don't beat yourself up. You feel the pain. You don't need to express it in the common forms. You two were close and he meant something to you. Nothing changes that.


Agreed, don't beat yourself up over it. He wouldn't want that, and in the end, neither do you.

Having lost one of the closest people in my life before, I felt just like that, for weeks and months in fact. It was paralyzing and I totally couldn't express myself, and felt horrible for not being able to cry or really say something meaningful about it. That's what a lot of people are feeling right now I'm sure. I think a lot can be said about Magnus right now, but it will all just seem really sad and inadequate compared to even the smallest thing he could say to put your mind to rest or put a smile on your face.

At the same time, hearing stories about how he was is honestly almost like hearing him say something again, so thanks for all of you who were close friends with him for sharing these. I feel like I got to know him a little more, and that's really an awesome thing.


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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby TritioAFB » Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:13 pm

This is the kind of situation I have to live every day since Onchology is my area. After I knew about his disease, we turned into friends, even when we didn't talk in the past. You know crowd, sometimes I wish I could heal every patient that comes to my area, and living this kind of experience is kinda disappointing :down:

There's something that calls my attention since I'm also a doctor: I would have liked to have a word with my comrades. They said Magnus's disease was neuroblastoma, but I still believe that wasn't the original disease. And what I mean with this is that possibilities of healing changes very much in case of being another kind of cancer. Even the way the disease was showing doesn't fit with a neuroblastoma. But oh well...

Anyway my friend:

I spent every day after January 9 talking with you after receiving this message:

Hi my friend.

I got to learn yesterday that the treatment has not worked, and that I won't be able to be cured.

Even with the amount of chemotherapy and all the other treatment, only 2 months off it I got 2 more tumors now. The doctors have come to the conclusion that there is nothing left they can do to cure me.
All they can do now, is slow it down - make it progress slower, as well as keep me as pain-free as possible.

I'm sorrry to say I lost the battle, but I still won't give up until I am on my death bed.
I apologize to bring such saddening news, but I wanted you as my fellow amv-mate and medically trained professional who's supported me, to know at least.

This is not someting I will share openly, not just yet.
But I hope that the slow-down process will do good for me, and that I can live the last of my life in peace and enjoy what is left of it.

Thanks for all your support so far.

Love.
Magnus.


Man, it's said that into my profession I'm not allowed to cry with the patients, but I really felt touched after reading this :(
Even with all possible options I was still cold that the treatment failed. I can promise you something: I'll learn everything about the neuroblastoma and the cancers that appear frequently in children, so that when the time to take a decision like in yours, I will save a life.

But then:

Yes, seeing as the tumor-mass recovered so soon after the last chemotherapy (2 months ago), there is really no way of getting rid of it.
We are hoping to be able to shrink them down to a smaller size, and try to keep them under control, but being fully cure is no longer a possible option.

I want to thank you for all of your support.
I will live every day to the fullest, and do the things I love, spend time with family and friends.
I will make the rest of my life count.

Thanks for being there for me in my complicated health-state. It's been really comforting.
I will keep you updated, and I'm sorry I had to bring such saddening news this time.

Keep on the good work, cure more people and save them from this hell called "cancer".
You are in my eyes a great hero.

Love.
Magnus.


The reason why I suddenly got interested in your case, was that unfortunately in this country people just give up. They refuse to take treatment and decide to kill themselves. In your case I was surprised to find someone that was brave enough to fight against this cruel disease called cancer. You still remember it don't you? :?

I don't regret because I spent all the possible time I came to the org talking with you, even I commented CodeZTM that I would appreciate that interview to Magnus.

AimoAio, do you remember that the last time we talk in Skype, I mentioned you that: Spent all the possible time with Magnus. He needs his friends? Actually the day we talked, was after I received the first message. At that moment I didn't want to tell you about his condition, after all, I guess that Magnus's intention was to not make people getting worried about it.

So yeah, I'm upset, I'm into a vortex of emotions, but I just hope that now you're resting in peace.

It's kinda weird when you meet someone under certain conditions that makes you care about that person even when you didn't talk with him. I was planning to do a video to remember you but I don't feel in the mood to even think about that :down:

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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Vlex » Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:36 pm

Rest in peace Magnus. =( You were a great editor, I was glad to be part of MEP with you!
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Hagaren Viper » Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:43 pm

My gosh, I don't think I've ever even spoken to Magnus and Im in tears. I've seen his posts about his battle with cancer and it was always uplifting to see his his posts when he was doing well. I'm very glad Code was able to interview him, but at the same time reading it and then to have this happen makes it even more heartbreaking. It's crazy to think that we lost another longtime member like this. Definitely praying for those whos lives he touched.
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Re: I bring very sad news

Postby Vlad G Pohnert » Tue Feb 21, 2012 11:47 pm

It's always sade to loose someone in any community... As one gets older it becomes more of a reality, but when someone is so young it really is even more sad...

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