This is the kind of situation I have to live every day since Onchology is my area. After I knew about his disease, we turned into friends, even when we didn't talk in the past. You know crowd, sometimes I wish I could heal every patient that comes to my area, and living this kind of experience is kinda disappointing
There's something that calls my attention since I'm also a doctor: I would have liked to have a word with my comrades. They said Magnus's disease was neuroblastoma, but I still believe that wasn't the original disease. And what I mean with this is that possibilities of healing changes very much in case of being another kind of cancer. Even the way the disease was showing doesn't fit with a neuroblastoma. But oh well...
Anyway my friend:
I spent every day after January 9 talking with you after receiving this message:
Hi my friend.
I got to learn yesterday that the treatment has not worked, and that I won't be able to be cured.
Even with the amount of chemotherapy and all the other treatment, only 2 months off it I got 2 more tumors now. The doctors have come to the conclusion that there is nothing left they can do to cure me.
All they can do now, is slow it down - make it progress slower, as well as keep me as pain-free as possible.
I'm sorrry to say I lost the battle, but I still won't give up until I am on my death bed.
I apologize to bring such saddening news, but I wanted you as my fellow amv-mate and medically trained professional who's supported me, to know at least.
This is not someting I will share openly, not just yet.
But I hope that the slow-down process will do good for me, and that I can live the last of my life in peace and enjoy what is left of it.
Thanks for all your support so far.
Man, it's said that into my profession I'm not allowed to cry with the patients, but I really felt touched after reading this
Even with all possible options I was still cold that the treatment failed. I can promise you something: I'll learn everything about the neuroblastoma and the cancers that appear frequently in children, so that when the time to take a decision like in yours, I will save a life.
Yes, seeing as the tumor-mass recovered so soon after the last chemotherapy (2 months ago), there is really no way of getting rid of it.
We are hoping to be able to shrink them down to a smaller size, and try to keep them under control, but being fully cure is no longer a possible option.
I want to thank you for all of your support.
I will live every day to the fullest, and do the things I love, spend time with family and friends.
I will make the rest of my life count.
Thanks for being there for me in my complicated health-state. It's been really comforting.
I will keep you updated, and I'm sorry I had to bring such saddening news this time.
Keep on the good work, cure more people and save them from this hell called "cancer".
You are in my eyes a great hero.
The reason why I suddenly got interested in your case, was that unfortunately in this country people just give up. They refuse to take treatment and decide to kill themselves. In your case I was surprised to find someone that was brave enough to fight against this cruel disease called cancer. You still remember it don't you?
I don't regret because I spent all the possible time I came to the org talking with you, even I commented CodeZTM that I would appreciate that interview to Magnus.
AimoAio, do you remember that the last time we talk in Skype, I mentioned you that: Spent all the possible time with Magnus. He needs his friends? Actually the day we talked, was after I received the first message. At that moment I didn't want to tell you about his condition, after all, I guess that Magnus's intention was to not make people getting worried about it.
So yeah, I'm upset, I'm into a vortex of emotions, but I just hope that now you're resting in peace.
It's kinda weird when you meet someone under certain conditions that makes you care about that person even when you didn't talk with him. I was planning to do a video to remember you but I don't feel in the mood to even think about that