Since I don't really have a place to write this out, and get it out of my system, at I will do so here.
Some of you might have heard of me falling ill and getting hospitalized 1 year ago.
After tests and x-rays they found out it was a tumor caused by neuroblastoma cancer.
I underwent surgery and have been fighting off the deiese for months. And it have gone really good, I've gotten back lost weight, I've gotten back energy and rutine.
No signs of any cancer has been seen in 10 months. Everything has taken a change for the good and the situation looks bright. I'm sort of back from my set-back.
However.After 10 months, I felt pain and ache coming from my joints leading down to my leg. After recieving various anti-inffectional and painkillers, the pain wore off.
But I was then scheadualed for a radio-active scan of my body and sceleton. This scan revealed the cancer was back. And it has now made it's way to my hip,
making me unable to propperly and painlessly walk without the support of a cane. I just the other day left a bone-sample at the hospital and are now awaiting the test results of what the cancer cells actually are doing around my hip.
My doctor have told me there's a good chance of it being new tumours. But that he has a tactic of how to apporoach the cancer depending on what it is.
Now, you are probably asking yourself "why would he post this in the HAPPY THREAD?". Well, the things stated before this... It's just describing the greatness of what is to come:
But even with my hardships and current struggles I know that I am not alone.
Because I have my lovely girlfriend, who I love sincerily and who is supporting me, still standing by my side in my current health-situation.
A girl amazing enough to just determinate any sign of pain, sadness, troubles or worry. All with a simple smile, laugh, remark. All with a simple "Hello".
So even if I might not be in full health or knowing what is to come next, I am happy.
Because I know that Lisa Clauson will be there sharing the weight on my shoulders and help me to fight this battle.

Yes, I am aware I'm sounding like yet another lovestruck little kid. But let's not deny the fact that that actually is close to what I am.
I am still a mere 17 year old boy who has just re-discovered love. And for the first time in 2 years, I can honestly call myself happy.
So, sorry if this feels strange and too personal to read. But I wanted to share a piece of myself to the cummunity I dayily visits. The community in which I could be anyone I want,
but I chose to be myself this time. I am not seeking sympathy, I am merely sharing some thoughts and feels.
Please ignore this if it didn't interest you the slightest. Have a good night or day.
- Magnus "ZetZu" Kylliäinen