One of the things that has kept me from making the videos I wanted was the time it would take for me to make a video that I really wanted. I think it would take over a month of time to make even one video that I really wanted.
Another thing is, ideas don't flow into me like they use to. After hearing a song for the second time I'd naturally have scenes come to mind and pretty much make an entire music video in my head. Now when I hear a song I've heard before, I can't just have clear ideas come to me. Before it was like heaven in my head. The ideas were very clear to me, footage would play on auto pilot as I re-heard a song and the footage would even all be synced up perfectly to the music. I didn't have to try to come up with an idea most of the time, it would just come up by itself. The footage would even have great mood sync.. some very intense mood sync at times. Of course things don't always look as good as you imagined it once you get to editing. But yeah definitely miss that aspect of my mind.
So even if I did have more patients with editing videos nowadays, the fact that ideas don't seem to want to come to me anymore I think would make it take longer to make the videos I wanted and because of me not being able to visualize what scenes to use as well would also make the video not turn out as well as it could of.
I could blame the ideas not coming to me because I haven't watched anime for a long while and that I don't remember the visuals through the entire series/movies as well. Because of this, it seems like a lot of the time now when I hear music, I just make up scenes that don't exist in anime or I just imagine live action stuff going on that I also naturally make up as the music is going.
So when I'm reading in a video comment that the editor visualized most of the scenes before he started editing, and they ended up being edited exactly how he visualized them, I get upset that I am not able to do that as much as before. I was happy that I somehow did that with my akira video. I had the amv already made in my head years before I actually made the video and when I finally got around to making the video, the scenes turned out exactly as I imagined them in my head. The whole video wasn't perfectly mapped out but most of the key parts of the amv were definitely planned out years in advance.